~~~I'm On Vacation~~~

 Yuhuu! Its been a while i didn't write my blog here. I think today is my first time of writing my blog on this 2010. Whoa! sound like its been a year but for real, its just a few weeks. Okayla. I have start my school day and everything goes fine. I'm in Elite class and i found that this class is particularly boring as the student inside this class is so dicipline and QUIET. you know i don't like quiet and i barely can consentrate when there is no sound at all. And for now, Add Math is my enemy and Jaba is so true about add math when she said that this subject is a killer subject. Haiz! make me dizzy oo~. but i'll try my very best to understand everything about add math. Kong Ek Cheng asked me to go tution but.. i don't think that i want to attend to extra class this year because i want to relax-relax my brain first then next year, i will go la. ahaha =D
        Okayla. today is raining like cat and dog. Its started to raining on monday if i'm not mistaken. Its been a week the weather is cold and i feel so lazy to go to school as the weather makes me wanna sleep and truly reminds me of my pillow and teddy at home. ahaha =D so malas ahh me this year.
        This year also is my first time of having a lot of homework. I still got a dozen of homework to do. I bought here only 3 out of plenty. ahaha =D Urgh! Oh ya! i forget to tell the real story. ahahah =D Mianhaeyo~ Ok Ok... today me and my family went to bintulu to get aki home. We all go together except for Ina because she afraid that we don't have enough spaces. We go here by car. Two cars. My mum's and apak ulit's car. Tomorrow we going home but before that we going shopping a bit and i want to buy something for my besties, Fiona and of course for myself too. Urmm...Okla. i think thats enough for now. If my internet connection going to work out after this bad weather, i will put some photo of us when we were in Bintulu. Orait then.
          Last but not least, i want to say sorry for not putting any image here. ehehe =D i promise that i'll put some image here in the future. MIANHAEYO!

Only Can Smile.

       Hohohohohoh~AHahahahahahaha~ that all i can do to make myself feeling better. Well, sometimes its work. Yeah, Laugh For Nothing is just the best medicine for me when i feel so broken. Yeah, my best day is gone and there come the worst. I just can't believe it. Why can't I lives my best day for a long period of time? I just having my good time for a couple of days and then POOFF~ everything is disappear just like that! WTF?! Haiz~ I'm so fed up will all this actually but what else i can do? Wait until I can find the solution? If that so, i won't having my best day till i die. You know what, today i feel so sad and honestly, i cry badly. Well, not as bad as before as my mother and father were there because I don't want to show my tears to them all.Yeah, today, i found that my cousin, Isaac Melcore is going to stay at Sabah forever. I do hate him but i feel so empty when i found this bad news. I can't accept it. When my mum told me this, I said nothing because all i can do is keep silence. Isaac... He is really testing my patience and my temper. But still, I love him inside. Sometimes he's cute and sometimes he's crazy. And when he was still a little, he call me Ngengngeng and i like the name. Almost all my cousins call me Ngeng. I thank to him for giving me such a lovely name.

    I wish I can have one more chance to say I'm Sorry to him for being a very bad sister. For all this time, I bully him and sometimes, i hurt him. I never thought about his feeling. When he asked, I never answer him with a good tune. I scold him eventhough i know that wasn't his fault. I feel so guilty. I really hope that I can celebrate New Year with him and i'll use that very moment to say i'm sorry and I'll take as many picture as i can. I also will hug him tightly. I'll give him love and care.



This is all i want for my New Year Wish.


...Bring Back Isaac To Us...

Last 3 Night, Mir(MBLAQ) Kiss Me On Cheek (ROFL!)

Ahaha =D yeah. i couldn't believe it too. Actually it just a dream but i still can't forget it. Yalorh, who doesn't feeling happy if cute guy were kissing on them, right? ahaha =D Well, in my dream, I don't know why all the sudden he come out and wanted to kiss me. So, i cover my face up and he kiss me on cheek. But then, I immediately woke up.
     I'm not even sure whether that dream is a sweet dream or a nightmare. haha :D. What confuse me here is, I'm not really into Mir because i'm a fans of Cheondung A.K.A Thunder. And for sure, that dream surely playing in my mind for this 3 whole day. ahaha =D Well, i feel lucky eventhough it just a silly dream.LOL~ whole my life, i never dreamt of anything like this. ahaha =D

The Best Christmas Ever!

 Merry Christmas everyone! Ahaha~ I really wish that i could see Santa tonight but i don't think he will come as here, the weather is so freaking hot! I know Santa don't like warm. ehehe~ This year is my first year of celebrating christmas alone. It is because my mum is following my uncles and aunts back to our hometown. But, thats cool because i'm free to do anything i want. Well not everything. Ehehe.
    On 24th, i went to school to get my PMR results and i was so suprised that i get straight A's! whoa~ I thought i get straight B's you know. When I found this out, I jumped and i feel like i was flying~ ahaha =D  I thank to cousin Gloria for accompany me to school and I am also thank to Lorene Drive for giving me the biggest luck! ahakz~
     And for real, that was my very first time getting all A's. Whoa~ I can't describe anymore how glad i am! I feel so happy inside as I can make my parents, my brother and sister and my uncles and aunts proud of me.( especially my parent) I really want to cry over it but my tears just won't come out. Maybe because i'm too happy. I feel satisfied. really satisfied as all my hard work has been paid off eventhough i'm not really a good student at school and everytime we got exam, i never get A's. At the same time, I make my parents dream come true!

          Honestly, eventhough this year i celebrate christmas alone, I feel happy because I get the best christmas present ever! But still feel lonely inside because I really wish that my parent is here with me and we can celebrate this day together~





YAY!!!

Hoping To Get Good Grade

Today is a day where i will take my PMR results. Its really getting my nerve and honestly i said, my whole body is shaking. I'm here at home all by myself because my mum just leave with my aunt and uncle back to our hometown. So, she left me with my brother. Well, my brother had to go to work later on so that i consider that by left me here alone just like waiting for a death to come over. ahak~ I wish my mum can stay with me here today you know so that i can feel more better as i have someone to accompany me.

    About companion, i already call cousin Gloria to come over.ehehe. Not that i;m scare to left alone, but because she also being left by her parent and her sister had to go to work. We equal. ahaha =D. and just now i heard a noise in the kitchen and of course i don't want to find out. ehehe.  Back to business. PMR PMR. hopefully i can get a good grades later on. well, i think thats all for now, maybe later i'll tell what i get. ehehe =D see ya if i wanna be ya!

Life Complication

Today is another bad day. Haiz! I don't know when i can have my best day. Things always gone wrong and i'm really sick of it. Today, Miss A wanted to follow Mr.B back to his hometown as her parent doesn't agree with their relationship. But then, I saw Miss A dad and my uncle were talking with Mr.B outside but I didn't hear what are they saying. So, i decided to go to Miss A rooms and when I entered her room, she was packing her stuff. I couldn't hold my tears anymore so i hugged her tight and at that time i really don't know what to do and just hoping that she won't go. I really wanted to scream but it seem like my voice stuck. I just cry, cry and cry. More sad when her mother enter her room and she begged for Miss A to stay. After a while we said nothing, Miss A called Mr.B and asked him where is he. Suprisingly, Mr.B leave without her. Well, not really suprising actually because i can predict that Miss A father told him to go. After that, me and cousin Phoebe just stay there and accompany her there in her room. I leave her and cousin Phoebe there and run back to my house as I have nothing to say to make her feel better and i feel bad because as her sister, i should do or say something to make her feel better but unfortunately i don't. So i think a good nap can make me feel better la.
      A good nap doesn't seem can make me recover. So i really thanks to cousin Gloria for coming to our house today as she make my day more better. She just too fun to be around and i had a laugh. Thats all because of her. I didn't told her what had happen because i think i just want to keep it as a secret. Oh well, enough of the sad story.

      Today, me and cousin Gloria play delta force : black hawk down and you know what, we finish the game! Ahaha~ i am so happy and excited when we manage to finish the game. For all this time we played this game, we never reach the final.Ahakz! I feel like jumping when i found that we manage to finish the game in a very short time. Ahakz! Well, cousin Phoebe also there but she didn't played with us la she played spongebob squarepants. (PSP)
    Well, yeah~ we been killed a couple time but we still feel proud of ourselves you know because black hawk down is our favourite games for all time!
     I think that all for now. Hoping that tomorrow is my best day. I really want to feel the good in my life because i'm overly tired of worst day. Well, thats why i said, Life is Complicated. Sometimes we love it, Sometimes we hate it. What ever it is, I will never give up in life! Gambatte, Pgie! (^o^)

The Day I Took Care of My Son.

FEUH! Shawn really testing my patience today. He cry, cry and cry. Haiz! If he wasn't my brother's son, i'll kick him you know. Urgh! I give him his toys, i played with him and i even give him milk. I wish i could understand baby language.
     I call his Grandma(which is my mum) few times but she always said "we're own our way home but totally doesn't make sense because you see, i call her around 3 o'clock but they get home at 6! Truely i said. I have no experience in babysitting and i admit that i'm easily get angry and when that happen, i don't care whether they are kids or adults.
     You won't believe if you see such a very innocent looks like him in the picture can cause such a big pain. He been annoyed me all day. My best day is ruined by him. Little Monster. Me and cousin Phoebe almost lost our insanity because of him. we tried to ignore him and  let him cry there alone but we just can't.
     Sometimes he laugh, sometimes he cry. I think i will never understand what baby thinking and what they actually need. I wonder, am i just like that too when i was a child like him? I hope not. (^o^)

    If i was as annoying as him, i think i owed my mum a big apology for being annoying. Hmm.. I do angry at him before but now i realize that he isn't the one who should be blame but me because as his mother, i  should try to understand what he wants. Its my job to keep my son happy and not to let him there and cry. I just saw what my mum did to make Shawny happy again and that make me thinking. I think, today i have learn a very good lesson which had taught me how to be a good mother in the future.