Trust Me, This One Is Random Too ( ^w^ )

Hehehehehehehe :)
Well, just want to tell that another amazing coincidence had happen between me and Logan today~ huahahahahaha :D But seriously, this one make me thinking very hard, ya know. It just felt so Magical~ haahahaha.
The story is like this... Last night, I was dreaming about me and Logan and sis Moon and Sis Jaba and so do few others members of my family along with two random kids that I never seen before in my life (Yea, dream bah ) I don't really remember the whole part of the dream lah, its blurry right now. hahaha :D But for sure I really do remember that one time, got one of the people that randomly popped into my dream turn into a zombie by the help of a witch-like women. The zombie was actually looking for Logan. but still, the zombie wasn't really in the same house as we are. hahahaha I don't know, it just... random~ hahaha :D

And then, got this one part I remembered where Logan came out from the bathroom and he was like mumbling "Pgie" but then, out loud, he called me as "Sandara" I was like dafuq? hahahahaha :D I told ya, it was.... random... too freaking random. hahahaha :D and one part I remembered that I was feeding one of the kid I barely knew. hahahahahaha :D what a dream =.= Well, I was woken up before the zombie make it to part two. ahahaha :D

And then kan, as I was dreaming about Logan bah kan.. so as I woke up, I thought of ya know, checking on his twitter account ( ekekeke ) and TAADAA~!! He updated his twitter yesterday and ya know what make me go crazy the most?! HE WAS POSTING SOMETHING ABOUT ZOMBIE TOOO!!! I WAS LIKE OMG!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDD
crazy eh? Gosh, I'm freaking speechless ya know. hahahaha I feel like we're really are spiritually bonding with each other. HAHAHAHAHA adoiii. Kill me please, Lermaniacs!

But seriously, this is the biggest coincidence we had so far. hahaha :D
and  back to reality, he don't even know who the hell I am. hahahaha XD Sad but true~ but coincidence things like this could happen to someone else too, at some other part of earth. ehehei :)
Still, yeah... this totally make my day. heeeee~ still can laughing like crazy right now. hahahahaha
seriously, this is so freaking awesome.
Thank you, God for giving me this kind of awesome coincidence. ekekeke :)
Definitely. I feel loved. hahahaha :)

But seriously, I think my Father in heaven just wanted to see happy. As ya know, I'm quite feeling down lately and yeah, I lied to everybody by telling that I'm cool~ hehei... as usual :) I wish to be gone for a day, without anyone knowing where I go, and when will I come back... just to see who would sacrifice everything just to find me and get me back alive. Because this few days, I keep feeling that everyone is pretending to care about me... I mean like, come on. It's rather obvious ya know. hahaha :D
And well, I don't know lah. Maybe it just me.

and one more thing that make me kinda upset this few days is about what my dad had told me last few days. He was like, telling me to keep on studying business.. like telling me to continue on getting my degree then Master~ In fact, before this. He had promised me that after I finished my diploma study, he and mum would definitely allowed me to further my study by taking the courses I've desired. And when he told me this, I was like "Dafuq, dad?"
I just feel so freaking crashing to pieces. I know now, that they actually always against my dream since forever.Well, fucking obviously. But one for sure, if they hate it, then just freaking tell me. Don't make me hoping for something that for sure won't be true. If they think that buying me newest gadget can make me happy, they are fucking wrong.

I mean like, what the hell? Its a promised though. I keep my promised. I studied what they wanted me too. I take the stupid course that I never want too. I wasted my 2 years times to graduate and I study hard for it. It's all because of their empty promises. If I knew that it just some fucking empty promise, I would say fucking no to it. It not fair at all. Why is it so hard for them to understand how much I want to be graphic designer?

I don't know anymore. I just don't feel like, ya know.... studying. I hate it! I never like it anyway. Whatever. I don't freaking care if I fail or whatever now. It not like I'm going to study what I want anyway. It just fucking unfair. this is one of the reason, I hate to be home.

Uh, i'm leaking. hahahahaha :D Oh well, better talk about something else now. hehehei :) Um.... I don't know what to talk about anymore. hahahaha My hands is shaking ( yeah... Hell, I'm mad right now) Oh yeah, I change my blog song already. Everything Panic at the disco. huahuahua~ I just can't take my ears off Brandon Urie's heavenly voice. ekekeke :D His voice just hard to resist anyway. ekekeke :) But still, I miss the old version of Panic at the disco where there were still 4 of them together :(
Oh wells, everything change. hahahaha :)

Except for Logan's cuteness. hahahahahahahahahhaha kill me nao~ hahahahaha
oh gosh, I think he would probably list me in his 'stalker of the year' list. huahuahua~
and and maybe also in his "will-never-be-my-wife" list. hahahahahaha
Yeah, damn its true~
As he said that he don't like girls who is overly attached to him, A.K.A obsessed with him or stalking him. hahahahaha. Well *pouts* honestly, I'm not really obsess with him or stalking him. I just ya know, looking at his twitter account whenever he suddenly popped into my head. hahaha :D seriously... =.=; 
But I love exaggerating stuff, and which make I looked like I'm too freaking obsessed with him. hahaha but no, I wouldn't call it as obsessed. I called it as LOVE. walawehh~ hahahaha
Yep, I admit. I'm in love with him. hahahahahahahahahahaha XD 
that's why told Lermaniac to kill me right now. hahahaha
I don't want to be in love with him. I don't want to! like freaking seriously. But yeah, feelings. You can't control it once it fell to someone. haishh! my brain keep telling me to wake up and realize the gaps that we have in between us but my heart say YES~ hahahaha crazy, huh? you tell me...
But yeah,
Ya know.
for sure
I'll just keep love him ( even though he has no freaking idea of who i am)
Until he find the right girl to be with.
Well, that girl would definitely the luckiest ever :)
Haish... so sad eh? hahahaha
But this is me.
always be the one who wishes my crushes good luck
and hoping them to be with someone they love
for their happiness means mine too :)
I'll be happy if they are happy too :)

SOOO~ YEAH. Enough about the romantic-what-so-ever things. ekekeke :D later Logan will like "EWWW, this ugly girl strike again~ Please someone kill her!" hahahahahahahahaha
Neways :)
I really do thanking my Lord for the very epic coincidence. hahahaha
like seriously.
even if I die today, I wouldn't care . hahaha
So, yeah. Byebye :)
Be happy always! (^m^)

this picture, cracked me up just now. ^ hahahahahahahaha XD
P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)