Not Gonna Say... I Need a Rest.

(How I feel Right Now..Not gonna Say)

Hey, babe. How are ya?
hahahaha :)
I feel hopeless. that's how. hahahahaha :)
Not gonna tell why.
I'm just feeling down right now
Actually, I don't feel like updating
but umm...
I don't have other place to state my shattering pieces of hearts.
Huahahahaha :)
Not gonna say anything about it
I just feeling restless
I'm spending my whole days
Keeping myself away from everyone
Not gonna say why
ahahahahahahahaha :)
I feel like writing poems
oh well maybe I am
Crappy poems
Crappy is my middle names
Because everything I do is CRAPPY
like CRABBY.
Not gonna say....why
I think I just gonna stop
maybe for few days
I need to heal this broken heart
my heart needs to be heal
and I'm still
Not gonna say why
ahahahahahahaha :D
So, goodbye.
Leave me here
forget my everything
Let me rest.
Not gonna say why...

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Every Fucking Tears :)

Oppss... Sorry Niall darling. hahahaha :D
Slipped of the tongue... hahahahahahahahahahahaha XDD
I'm gonna stop using it soon.
Sorry :)
Love You, Niall.
huahahahaha XD

Short Confession I Make :)

hahahaha :)
I mean it...
His cuteness overwhelm me.
His eyes mesmerizing me.
His teeth...OMO~
ahahahaha :)
He's cute!!! >U<

Niall Horan, Irish
He was born on 13 September 1993 :)
(Older a year than me :)))))
And and and
I wanna thanks his parent to give birth for him
huahahahahaha XD
Good Job, parents.
hahahahahahaha :D

and my most favorite picture of him :)

Los altibajos (=

I'm here once again :)
Well, today is quiet a very fascinating day for me
Lots of loads happens. Some bad some good...but hey! That's life :)
And this is just a new beginning for me though :)
I know,
there's more waiting for in the future. All I can do is wait for it to happen and faced it with great strength
And I know,
Kevin Mchale and Logan Lerman is somewhere out there, fighting for me
(delusional again) hahahaha :)
Anyhow, I can't tell if this post is long or short.
Depends on how many stuff I can remember lah. hahaha :)
( I think Logan Lerman is cursing me right now, ahahaha )

Anyway, let me start with what happens this morning. hehehe :)
Like this~
Today, I was attending my second driving test as I failed at Bukit part last time.
and yeah, I'm so freaking nervous that time and I feel like my whole body is shaking, my heart pounding so hard like it feel like almost jumped out from my chest. hahahaha :) That's serious, I know.
Anyway, blessing from God, I pass the test with flying colors! Oh my God! I was like, WOW, SERIOUSLY?! I PASS? WOW! hahahahahaha :D
I would thank my mum as well for blessed me with the holy water right before she send me off to the institution. ehehe :) Yeah, I felt so relieve right now
No more wake up early!
I can party all night on 9gag and Tumblring. Ohohoho
Oh wait!
I just remembered!
I'm fasting. hahahahaha :)
I want to try fasting from 9gag, Tumblr, TWITTER and Facebook ( My Biggest Obsession Of All Time )
Today, I failed fasting because I automatically entered 9gag. huahahaha ( intentionally, actually ) I can't help it. ohohohoho
So, I'm going to start tomorrow. I will only be in Blogger and Google :3 ( As I have to post my modified chapters and reading GH, of course. hahaha )

Speaking of modification of stories,
I got this little hurt feeling from my love one. hahahahahaha :) Yeah, it's not until I bleed to death, no. but still it's kinda hurt. ohohohoho
Just now, I was modifying my chapters ( from chapter 1 until 8 *as I haven't done my chap9 yet* )
I'm doing it because I feel something not right about the whole story. hahaha :)
I feel like each chapter that I post, didn't connected to each other.
And yeah, as I was doing the modification with extreme focus ( hahaha XD )
I was as well chatting with her, my lovely sis Jaba :)
So, as I was finished modifying chapter one, I put on the page la and told her to read.
Yes, she read it
and she said, she feel like reading it for the first time and I was like, WOW, SERIOUSLY?!I feel like flying and I deep in my heart tells me that I did a good job.
So, I was trying to troll her la and asked like, "Or maybe because you forgot the story line?"
And she said yes.
The moment she replied yes, I was like  hahaha :D True Story. hahahahahaha :)
But oh well, she said sorry though and I know she went through a lot. So, Yeah :)
Ya know, I feel like crying as well. hahahahahahahahahahaha XD
Nah, not telling her that I was about to, I just said, It's okay. ehehehe :)
Small matter

P.S JABA: Don't worry dear. I forgive you :)

Well, thinking on the bright side, maybe it's my fault for making such boring story like that. Yeah, like seriously, if the story is not boring, surely its would not easy to forget. ahahaha XD Anyhow, I kinda love the story plot anyway. I find it is very nice. ahahaha :D Oh yeah, of course I think that way because I WROTE IT. ahahahaha  So, well I'm getting cured from the hurt feeling right now. (thanks to So, maybe...MAYBE I'll continued on doing the modification stuff and trying to make it more interesting. Ohohohohohoho :3 now I'm thinking, I should have doing my love story instead. I know from the first time, I don't have talent in this fighting and adventuring kind of stories =.=; oh well, dare to start, dare to finish it lah. hahaha :) Will try harder to finish it because I spend like 20 minutes in shower to think of the story plot and real shower for only less than 10 minutes. hahaha :)

Wonder why I made such a boring story. hahahaha :3
Never mind, I'll try to make it better :))

And last time, when Shawn is still here, he broke my headphones and seriously, that was my very first time ( maybe few times) I'm so freaking mad at him. I almost yelled but yeah, I have to control myself. hahaha :) He just a child anyway. But still, it's my precious headphones. He can throw my phones, can color my diaries, can smack my lappy, can eat my food but Hell No, NO TOUCHING MY HEADPHONES. but thinking on the bright side, I can get new headphones instead. hehehei :) But still, I love my old headphones, I can hear better, and imagined better with it :) Feel like I'm ONE with it. ahahahaha XD Just kidding, Oh well, as I can't lives without it, I would like to purposed a few bucks from mommy and get myself a brand new headphones :) It's easy ma. hahaha :) No need to make simple things complicated :D So, yeah. I was hoping to get one by this week. I can't live without it. Like seriously. Today, I feel like my day is incomplete and the times goes by so damn slow. Urgh, I'm losing my mind, I need music, yaw!

So, here we are again.
The closing, peeps :)
I hate to say good bye actually
but too bad
I had a boring life
Nothing extra ordinary happens
hahahahaha :)
Well, maybe someday
When I marrying Logan Lerman
in the future

So, Good Day
Fellas :)

Be with Me Christ
The cross of Christ be with me;
The cross of Christ overcomes all water and every fire;
The cross of Christ overcomes all weapons;
The cross of Christ is a perfect sign and blessing to my soul.

May Christ be with me and my body during all my life
At day and at night. Now I pray, I [name], pray God the Father
For the soul's sake, and I pray God the Son for the Father's sake,
And I pray God the Holy Ghost for the Father's and Son's sake,
And I pray God the Holy Ghost for the for the Father's and the Son's sake,
That the holy corpse of God may bless me against all evil things, words and works.
Prayer for Protection.

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)