And to be honest, i sometimes wished my brother to die. haha :) i'm so bad eh? i know. but that only when i pissed off lah. sometimes i wonder, why can't i have normal family like my friends does? why must i have this kind of complicated family and troublesome brother? these are one of the reason why I don't want to grow up. growing up making you notice what you never notice when you are young. When you're young, you don't really care whether you hurting other's feeling or what happen at your surrounding. all you care about is your friends and the games you're about to play. I miss that childhood stuff. hmm...hmm.. whether i like it or not, i have to grow up right? i have no other choice. so, i think i better be calm and try not to mix my personal problems and school problems together. if not, i'm going to be dead-meat and have no future. LOL :D
I guess, that is all I want to tell for now. I want to rest my body a bit before i fell sick and miss one day of school. if i miss even just for 24 hours, i know that i miss many stuff. hehehe. i don't want to be the Blitz. ekeke :) so, see you guys in my next post. hehehe. annyeongiGaseyo! and sweet dream~
so, to end this post, i end it with Yu Ha Min's New picture :) ENJOY!
P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)
This is the photo that i never post in this blog. ekeke :) well, i be using it in my future post just that i can't wait to show off here. LOL XDD. anyway, enjoy this dreamy couple of mine :)
Just want to thanks their producer for making one of my wishes come true
*eventhough this is maybe just a coincidence, it fine. really..*
more to come when i finish stalking hyukmin in the future LOL XD
thanks for viewing!
I really do love the pictures of me and hyukmin. ekekeke ;D i wonder if i'm an ulzzang, would he ever consider me as his girlfriend? LOL XD well, i think he won't pick me as there are thousands of ulzzang who is looking so damn cute, for example Hong Young Gi. ohhh... talking about Young Gi and Hyuk Min, I have a number of collection of their photo together but too bad.. just too bad that they weren't couple. i really wish that they are couple you know. hahaha :) huh? why they weren't couple? that because YoungGi is already taken by someone she loves lah. hahaha :) hyukmin? i don't know about him but for now, i haven't heard any news about he is having yeoja namja. probably he is waiting for me. LMFAO XD sorry..sorry.. i'm just a little bit of missing track from reality. ngahahaha :) Mianhae, HyukMin-shi! ehehe. i hope he won't find this post and read it. if not, i'm going to buried my head like ostrich always did when they sense danger. ekekeke :DDD
So, that is all from me for now. here is my latest photo. enjoy! LOL XD
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AnnyeongHaseyo! ehehe :) long time didn't use that greetings, eh? yeah, i kinda miss it a bit. i admit, i love Korean's phrases! LOL XD anyway, talking about phrases, there are phrases saying "Don't study until eleventh hour" which tells that don't study right before the exams. hehehe :) i suddenly thought about this phrases because i want to warned everyone that SPM is around the corner!! WHOAA i could believe it myself! i'm so worried to death! GAH! i haven't done any relevant stuff! i haven't touch any practice book! even homework, i didn't finish any one of them!!! i'm dead, SO DEAD!! i saw a very large improvement among my classmates. well, of course they do. unlike me. still in the same level! Loser's Level, i believe T.T my second trial also not good enough you know. still have those red marks written on my paper. but still, i got a little improvement though, even though it still not satisfied me but still i have 2 or 3 marks improving. all i have to do now is to hit the books before its too late :)
ahhhh~ i'm so deeply in depression right now! i wanted to find things that could fire my spirits up so that i could gain the perfect determination to study, study and study! i wonder how Kong Ek Cheng, Kiu Yun Qian and the rest are studying, eh? they are looking so cool when its come to study but when it come to talking, huh! don't expect them to be serious. hahaha :) Kong Ek Cheng okaylah if she act that way because its been five years i'm in the same class with her =.= but Yun Qian, hmmm.. i thought she was like those kid who talk in minimal amount only and TETT i was wrong! when you get to know her, she is talkative but if you didn't know her, don't expect her to talk to you. hehehe. and yeah, she's always the soft spoken one :) Yun Qian and Ek Cheng, the one who conquer second and top places in class. yeah, they are my most respected student in the school! ekeke :) i guess, they never failed any subjects. if compare to me, i only recover 0.01% of their cleverness, i think. ahaha :D so, i really admiring their cleverness. hmm..hmm.. i already can see their bright future. i am so proud. hahaha :D i talked like proud mommy eh? i know. i already have three child! DUH~ hahaha :D anyhow, i want to be like EkCheng and YunQian :) that is all i ever want for now. i want to be success as they are. i don't mean that i have to be them. what i meant here is i want to be as success as they are :) i don't want to be in the loser's level forever.
you know why i think i'm in loser's level beside always being in the last places in class? well, you see. in the class, there are a group of people who see me in that way. well, its hard to tell how i can know this. maybe i can feel it in my bones. hahaha :D but truthfully, i know. they look like they likes me but deeply in their heart, i know they were laughing at my marks. it just sad to know the truth but i guess that's what people call as reality. we have to faced it no matter how hard it would be. its not like i want to get those red marks, i just can't understand that certain topic so well. i know i'm not in the same cool level like they are but they shouldn't ever treat me like that. i never treat them bad you know. i never held grudge on them. yeah yeah. i know who i am. i'm just nobody too them. so don't hate me if i didn't treat them good. but they treat me hypocritely*new words* so, i also treat them double hypocritely. they play nice, i play nice, they play foul, i play foul. easy? yeah, i'm totally on the game right now. they play bitch, i play bitch. i'm really good in playing games. i tell you. hehehe :) and the most hateful person in my life history is the one who was so call as the 'sickgirl' DUH! i can't hypocrites-ly acted on her. i couldn't help it but to hate her. i don't know why but i have strong hate feeling towards that poor little annoying girl. hahaha :D i feel soo bad right now. in conclusion, i hate them all. i hate them for hating me and stabbing me from behind. i hate them for underestimate me. i hate them for using me just for their own goods. i hate them. i just hate them. this would be our dirty little secret, eh? ehehe :D
Truthfully, i'm carving for the word happiness to be part of my life. as you can see, its just too hard for me to find happiness in my life journey, especially when i'm growing older and becoming more matured. Ugh! that's why i said, i don't ever want to grow up. I miss all the old memories when i was still a child, where i was still being so naive and don't even know if that particular person hates me. if i had a wish, even just one wish, i would wished to have two more wishes. LOL XD just kidding. what i meant to say is, i would wish for happiness and everything in my life is good and nothing bad about it. you may don't understand how i really feel but i just want you guys to know that i'm desperately want to feel the happiness in me. if happiness can be bought, i guess, i wouldn't even have the chance to have it as i'm so pokai right now. hahaha :DD haishh! but surely i thanked to Kang Hyuk Min for posting dorky pose. ehehehe :) surely helping me forgetting those terrible stuff that i've been facing through this few years of being teenagers. hehei :D thanks hyukMinnie XDD
so, i guess that is all for now. yeah, i feel much better now.
Oh, before i ended this post, i want to share edited photo of hyukmine XD ehehe :D its just telling some part of what i am feeling right now :) so, enjoy ya guys :D
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anyway, school has started last week. just that i don't feel like updating :) sorry. school is quite fun, but when it is come into homeworks and study time, urgh~ feel like want to jump off the third floor. LOL XD Just kidding, actually i found that studying is much fun than sitting down at home and do nothing but played dumb. hahaha :) homeworks, don't say. still tons of it. actually i was planned to do it during this weekend but in the end, i ended up with blogging. ngahahaha :) mum didn't look care so far but i know, deep down in her heart, she is scolding me. ehehe :) she can't scold me here, i mean, i'm at my aunt house right now. muahaha :) yea, my aunt is lonely as both of her daughter is out of town, following their husband of course, and my uncle is also outstation. so, there she was all alone with my sick grandpa and of course annoying niece, oh, ME! ngahahaha :) oh yea, this 2 days, i've been stalking my HyukMin. ekeke :D and i found this kind of picture of him ------------------>>>> he look cuter than before, don't you think? i heard that he made few surgery on his face. yeah, nothing is to good too be true, right? no one perfect. hehei :) well, its all up to him whether to do surgery or not, i'm just being his stalker though. ngahahaha :DD I'M STALKER WITH PRIDE. but still, my love for him will never change. ekekekeke XDD shameless. i wonder, where and when can i met someone look like him and become their special ones? hmm.. hahaha. if in my imaginary world, i've been seeing lots of people who look like him. LOL but when i went back to reality, all those cute looking boys are currently with their loves one or maybe liking someone, which is so not me. hahahah :)D i don't care about that lovey-dovey stuff actually, i just want to meet the person who look like hyuk min. he doesn't have to be mine, just friend is already enough for me. hahaha :D oh please, God, grant my wish! XD
talking about school, i was enlisted to attended intensive class for addmath. guess what? i feel so relieved! hahaha :D DUh! who doesn't? it always be my dream to get pass my addmath's paper! hahaha :) simple dream, but it lead me to the brightiest future ever! oh, talking about future, today.. when i was busy online-ing, i suddenly thought about the field that i'm going to take after SPM. so, i was thinking like this way, if i manage to get straight A's for my SPM, i will go enroll civil engineering but if i only get A's for my primary subject, then i'll go enroll for art and design. easy right? this whole years, i've been confusing with this two things but praise to the Lord Our God, with his grace, i manage to make up my mind. ehehe :) i don't have to worry about it anymore. so, i what i have to worry more for now is that How Am I Going To Get Straight A+ for my SPM? hmm...hmmm.. well, i've been thinking of few ways actually and of course, without determination, i won't able to make it. so first step, i want to finish all my undone homeworks. second, i want to do revisions. third, i want to lessen my online time, what i really mean is that i want to make an effective time management for myself. and fourth is i want to attend all the extra classes. hahaha :) yeah, i admit, i sometimes skip my extra class. ekeke :D due to extremely laziness of course. so, if i manage to do all the four steps, whoa. i think i can even beat those who is in the 20th places in class. ekeke :D Just kidding.
Oh, its 7.39 p.m and i haven't ironing my school uniform and i want to prepare my school stuff today. if i did it in the morning, i won't have time to watch PowerPuff Girls. T^T. hahaha :) PPG means a lot to me because it help to enlighten my days. ekeke :) and i think tomorrow i'm going to go home late because of the intensive class, but i don't mind though. just for this year. next year, i will resting in peace. LMFAO XD yeah, next year i want to relaxing first, maybe for 5 or 6 month, then after that i'm going to find university to further my study. want to enjoy life first lah :DD maybe i will further my study to Australia, if mum let me to. i want explore other countries on my own and want to feel how is it like to live all alone. LOL XD and i also have thought that on my resting month, i want to learn foreign language and went travelling to South Korea or maybe Japan! whoa, i can't wait for the time to come. WeeHoo~ love it. eh, time's up. later i will going to continue with another topic. if i had the chance to do it. hehehe :) hopefully i still can keep this lappy on my own. it is feeling much better if i kept it for my own. oh yea, talking about laptop, guess what?! i am going to receive Laptop 1 Malaysia this 25th of June! LOL XD i just can't believe that i can receive it. it is truly the great power of grace from dear Lord, Father in heaven. i'm feeling so lucky. thanks for the luck that you have given me, oh lord. I love You!! XDDD can't wait to receive it! Kyahh!!
so, that's all for now, i will continue in my next post about "My Life As An Otaku" ehehehe :) yes, i admit. i am an otaku and i'm proud of what i am and what i am being. because i just being myself here :)
so, i guess that is all for now. be seeing you guys in my next post. Adieu :D
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so, to end this post... i would like to show the movie that i've been watching :) hehehe. you guys should watch this movie too :)
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so, i will ended up this post with my newest pictures. adieu again and please put safety first during this holiday :)
May God Always Be With You
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