I'm suffering from Bipolar Disorder I (0____o)

Greetings, humans. We meet again. hahahaha :) Well, actually I just finished answering few psychology test because my curiosity about whether I'm a bipolar or not but after taking few question, now I know. (T____T) sadly, I am. hahahahahahahahahahaha XD Before this, I'm often saying that I'm a bipolar person but I never meant it, I mean, it just for fun, ya know, like entertainment between siblings. ehehei :) but I never thought it could be real. Well, being bipolar is not something to be proud of because it could lead to suicidal thought. Ha, I know one person who had thought about suicide ( You know who yo are, dude ) hahahaha :) I think she's a bipolar too. Well, honestly, we are. hahahahaha :) and now I realized, no wonder I invented Ally Menders and make it become part of me. I mean, like this few months, I've been feeling that I'm half Ally, half Pgie. I don't know how to explain this but I do feel like I'm being someone else sometimes. hahahaha :D but still, that someone is me. I know you don't get it, hahahaha :D Sorry for my bad explanation (=___=;)

How I knew that I'm a bipolar/ manic? Well, I after I'm taking those questions, I was googling about the symptoms, which is likely to shock me to death as I got almost like 3/4 of it. hahahahaha :D Adeh, anyway, here's the common symptoms. the one I highlighted is the one I have lah :)

Common signs and symptoms of mania phase include:

  • Feeling unusually “high” and optimistic OR extremely irritable
  • Unrealistic, grandiose beliefs about one’s abilities or powers
  • Sleeping very little, but feeling extremely energetic
  • Talking so rapidly that others can’t keep up
  • Racing thoughts; jumping quickly from one idea to the next
  • Highly distractible, unable to concentrate
  • Impaired judgment and impulsiveness
  • Acting recklessly without thinking about the consequences
  • Delusions and hallucinations (in severe cases)

  • Common symptoms of bipolar depression include:
  • Feeling hopeless, sad, or empty.
  • Irritability
  • Inability to experience pleasure
  • Fatigue or loss of energy
  • Physical and mental sluggishness
  • Appetite or weight changes
  • Sleep problems
  • Concentration and memory problems
  • Feelings of worthlessness or guilt
  • Thoughts of death or suicide

The warning signs of suicide include:

  • Talking about death, self-harm, or suicide
  • Feeling hopeless or helpless
  • Feeling worthless or like a burden to others

  • Acting recklessly, as if one has a “death wish”
  • Putting affairs in order or saying goodbye
  • Seeking out weapons or pills that could be used to commit suicide

So, yeah. I'm shock as much as you too. But no worry it still not too late to be treated. hahahaha :) But when I go and meet Psychologist lah. ahahaha :) Which is never happens. LOL :) anyhow, I'm feeling glad to have this bipolar thing because it really help me a lot in writing stories like Jaba once told me, when she read "Levedad Little Adventure" she felt like it was written by someone else because it is different from Saving Chrystella Mclaren. Well, I was like "(o.O) seriously?" hahahaha :) Well, then I thought, maybe it was Ally who wrote it instead of Pgie. Ya know, Ally is somewhat a little more creative than Pgie and her English is better, I think. hehehehei :) Still, that person is ME. huahahahaha XD I'm talented yaw! ekekeke ;) Just kidding :)
"Same Person, Different Personality," speaking of this, I feel like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. hahahaha :)  I never knew when will I change into another me, like Jekyll. He wasn't aware when he becoming Mr. Hyde. So yeah, hopefully I won't change face like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde do. ahahahahaha :)) Still, no worries for I'm mostly as Pgie, original me. hahahaha :) Just take noted, when I look more matured unusually or not very talkative or being sarcasm, that's Ally. hahahaha :) Pgie isn't bad because too cute to be badass.. huahahahaha :) Besides, Ally love to read and Pgie is a pro-slacker. Ally have lots of ideas and Pgie ideas only like fish on the hook. hahahahaha :D life-life-fish. ahahahaha :D But honestly, I seldomly become Ally, but when I do, I'm being productive and of course, my stories will be soooo long. hahahaha :) Hmmm.... Maybe Ally is more hardworking I guess. hahaha :) rest well, Ally. I need you to write my Saving Chrystella Mclaren as well. ekekekeke XD

So, yeah. We're getting closer to the end of the post. Woohooo! So, I want to tell that I'm still AnnaJosh shipper. hahahaha :) I wish one day they will be together, have kids and happily ever after. God! I really can feel the chemistry between them. Sometimes, I kind of feeling irritated when I see Josh or Annasophia filming with other girls/guy. hahahaha :) I guess I'm just being over obsessed with this two, eh? About Dramione/ Feltson. Well, nah... Not shipping them anymore. After I read Emma's 'popular'saying in Tumblr last time, I don't really like her anymore. It's hurting me like a lot a lot (T___T) of course she doesn't understand about people being so obsessed with their favorite celebrities because SHE'S THE CELEBRITY. DUH! Hell, i thought she would be as clever as Hermione =.=; it's insulting, for me because I'm a fans too, and fans got feelings. They being obsessed with their favorite celebrities because they love them and because of the obsession of the fans, they won awards and they are famous also because of the fans obsession. What the hell is she thinking? I think, if not because of all the freaking obsess fans, I don't think she would ever show up in the big screen anymore. Just saying. No offence :) Just stating out my thought :)

So, here we are. Ending!! And yeah, I supposed to finish writing this post like an hour ago but ya know, i'm full of randomness. hahahaha :) I suddenly thought of adding new cast for Levedad Little Adventure story and changing Terri's part ( as he already took part in Saving Chrystella Mclaren ), So, I change his part with Addy or Adrian. Well, I don't know what happens later, as I haven't thought of it yet. But I really hope that I won't change Addy's traits in here. hahaha :) ya know, I'm too creative. hahahahahaha XD Just hope for the best :) and Hopefully I can make a very good friendship among them. hahahahahahaha :)
SO, ENJOY! :) ( the picture, I mean )

and next time, I'll put Saving Chrystella McLaren's Cast :) Still choosing the cast. hahahaha :P

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

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