The Shortest Love Story Ever. ((trust me, it's really short HAHAHAHA))

Well, hello again! hahahaha :) It's been a while I didn't update this blog with something fun and excited but rest assure now for I'm going to try my hardest to write the fun thing in this very post hahahaha :) Yeah, well honestly, I'm tired of living in distress for oh-so-long now I lost count of how many times I let myself drowned in it. But now, I want to swim. I'm done drowning and I really don't like the feeling of drowning. hahahaha :) I can't really say that things gonna change soon because life doesn't work that way so let just take a baby steps and keep on believing.

Okay! So, as you can see that I've dyed my hair back to dark brown! WOOH! hahahaha because I have something in mind for my next year hair-style muahahahahaha XD I'm gonna dyed it red black next year yeahhh baby~! But I think I'll be dye-ing it maybe a month before Gawai celebrations? because I've been dye-ing my hair too frequent and if I don't put longer gaps, I might losing all my hair. I can't afford that hahahaha I'm not gonna be cute if I lose my hair HAHAHAHA XD and well, as I had this brown hair back, sis Inut says that I look younger and I'm like ohohohoho HAHAHAHA duddde, of course la I feel so happy because it's been ages people didn't tell me that I look young hahahahaha XD

Okay. Enough about young hahaha because I've been told that I looked like a freaking 12 years old by some anon from Tumblr and I'm very flattered hahahaha because I look 8 years younger than my real age hahahahaha oh *flip hair* XDD Anyway, things is always the same and last few weeks I've been having a very stressful moment. Well, that's because my dad is having this sickness where his stomach have this small hole and blood coming out from there in which he was pooping for blood most of the time. Mom even told me that before he was going back here to Miri, he was being hospitalized due to the loss of blood that the doctor had to give him 2 blood packet the day before. *sighs* and that's the moment I kinda realized that I'm in a huge responsibility right now and I've gotta do my very best in my study starting next year so that I can support my parents and we won't loss our money sources. And I'm freaking hating my brother for how ignorant he is about our dad's condition and that mother freaking selfish bastard is really getting on my nerve each and every day. I must be lying if I said that I don't hate him because I really do. He may be my brother, but he don't deserve any respect from me and I am not going to dine at the same table as he is. And that my friend, is how much I despised my brother.  The end.


Just kidding. I still have lots of things to tell hahaha XD Well, I really owed sis Jaba big time because if not because of her, I might still self-harming myself in some ways. I didn't really tell her about that because well, I just feel like I don't really need to tell everything to her and make her worry and shit. Opps. hahaha I was thinking not to use any cursing word in this post but I guess it just slip hahahahahaha XD Okay, uhh... Well, honestly it's really awkward to tell someone about stuff that happens in your life because it's not something you should share with people and worried them. Well, telling or not telling, sis Jaba always know what happen in my life because she practically stalking my blog HAHAHAHA like I always did to her blog muahahaha XD SO that's how we communicate by the way hahahaha :)

And, ah~ because I forgot, last week if I'm not mistaken... Since I'm honestly don't know what day or what date is it now hahahaha Seriously... This is one reason I don't like long holiday hahahaha it so freaking boring. Okay, that was close hahaha I almost out-track hahahaha eh, uhh... Oh, last few weeks ago I think... I was going for a shopping spree with sis Jaba, sis Inut and her husband. We went to watch Big Hero 6 and man, how I hate that movie hahahahahaha I mean, gosh! the director is a satan AHAHAHA I cried the whole movie and even today, I'm still so sad about Tadashi because he freaking killed by the fire just to save the villian. Oh my gosh, I'm so so so so sad about it HWAAAH and and then BayMAx died I cried again my gosh. It's been ages I didn't cry sooo many time like that in a cinema hahahaha XDD I feel like buying the CD next time I'm going to Speedy. I just got to have Big Hero 6 in my collection hahahahaha XD

And then, sis Jaba and I were having movie marathon, also in the last few weeks ago, I think. hahahaha well, it was around that time though hahahaha XD Oh! before the movie marathon, I was accompanying sis Jaba to meet her friends from school, uh... something like reunion. I was acting like I was part of the group hahahahaha but yeah, we had fun *gasped* i think I'm talking about the same day HAHAHAHAHA oh my gosh, HAHAHAHAHAHA okay okay, now I remember everything HAHAHAHAHA I'm so sorry HAHAHAHAHA *Ahem* Uh, okay... It's like this. Sis Jaba was asking me to accompany her to meet her friends because she doesn't want to go alone. So there I go, tagging along and make friends with her former classmates. But since the reunion starts in the evening, so the four of us were going to the movie and watch Big Hero 6. And after the movie, we dropped sis Inut and her husband at Imperial Mall while the two of us went to SOHO, a place where her friends has been waiting. As we arrived there, well... Honestly, I think we talked mostly between ourselves hahahaha. Then, her 'BFF' Audrey hahahahah ask all of us if we wanna go Karaoke and so we said yeah sure, why not. But we've gonna send sis inut and her husband home first. And so, we sent them home and came back for karaoke-ing. There I was having the singing battle with the Audrey girl ahahaha and yeah, I kinda proud myself. I might not sing well, but at least I'm better than that smugface girl hahahah I'm so bad. I feel bad, a bit. hahahahaha XD But overall we had fun.

THEN, barulah we both having movie marathon. So we kinda watch Maze Runner WUBWUBWUB and guess what? I'm getting a new husband HAHAHAHAHA Uish, of course I'm still Mrs. Lerman-to-be but it's kinda bit shaky now because my gosh, Thomas-Brodie-Sangster is the cutest motherfreaking human being. Even cuter than Logan Oh my gosh *sorry Logan* HAHAHAHA I mean, his voice... I fell in love with his voice. And when I found out that he was the voice actor for Ferb from P&F and I'm like oh my gosh! is this a fate?! HAHAHAHA because hell, I love ferby ya know and well, because he's the quiet type, whenever I'm watching P&F, most of the time I was waiting for Ferb to say something hahahahaa and thats how I got hook with the cartoon. and of course, other than that, I was watching P&F because of Ashlee Tisdale's voice XD

Eh, back to Tommy. hahahahaha Other than his voice, I really love his face. His eyes, his lips, his teeth my gosh hahaha and and his accent OH my, that's sexy hahahahaha XD my heart beat so fast right now HAHAHAHA I really hate the cupid angel because they always make me falling in love with someone I couldn't have. Like literally out of my league HAHAHAH I mean, dudeeeeeee..... Thomas freaking Sangster is seriously too cute for someone like me hahahaha *cries* HAHAHAHA don't you know how freaking depressing this is? HAHAHAH UGHHHH okay, staph. Well, Tommy is born in the 90s. A year older than sis Jaba which means, he's 24 this year BUT I tell you, he looks like he's freaking 20, like me! yay! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhA someone just kill me, I'll give you the address of my house hahaHAHAHAHAHA *sighs*

Look at him..... *dreamily* Haaa..... any girl that dating him will be the luckiest But *gasped* what if he's gay? hahahahah wait. Imma googled it. OH, i just heard my heart break into million zillion pieces HAHAHAHAHA He has a girlfriend and her name is Isabella Melling. Well, i'm not i place to say this but honestly, the girl looks too old for him. BUT yeah, love is all about that bass about that bass HAHAHAHA Okay, Maybe. I should stop talking about Thomas-Brodie Sangster because you know, I'm very strict with this one life principle of mine which is
If that person is owned by someone else, I shall not touch them any longer for the rest of their relationship. Which mean, I'll get back to them once they're no longer in relationship mwahahahaha well, depends on the situation. SO, LOGAN.. You're safe. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I guess we're belong together, eh? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA It's 3:40A.M and I'm dying here. Okay then, let's move on. I mean, I'll just leave Tommy be and back self-titled Mrs. Lerman hahahahahahaiwai. Seriously, just stabbed me when you can ey? HAHAHAHAHA oh gosh. THis is the shortest love story ever, like ever. HHAHAHAHAHA I moved on too fast Hahahahaha opps.


And, yeah.... what else, shall we talk about? Hm.... Oh my current story progression is very slow. I'm taking my time to write it because I don't wanna rush anything. I mean, I want to finish it off. So I don't wanna rush it hahahaha XD Oh, right! I was actually did change the story plot a little for a while now *but I haven't wrote it yet* in which I kinda add new character which will be played by Tommy but after what happen just now, I think I might just stick with the original plot HAHAHAHAHA yeah, maybe that's why I can't even write a word for some times now. Maybe God is actually telling me that Tommy and I were not getting back together HAHAHA i'm sorry, it's Taylor Swift song just jumped into my head. The real sentence I wanna say is that Tommy and I were not meant to be together hahahaha XDD

Oh oh, speaking of famous person. I was having this daydream ya know about if I ever be a famous movie star. I think I might known as a geek actress hahahaha and well, I don't know how I might act whenever it comes to interviews or anything I mean, I think nothing will change though hahahaha I wonder how many people would like me and oh my gosh, imagine that if I was shipped with some actors HAHAHAHAHA wowowowowowow brad pitt, but at the end of the story, I'm slaughtered my Angelina Jolie hahahahaha that could work. I could always play the bad guy. And HEY! I think sis JAba and I just having this conversation hahahaha if we're ever be in a movie, we definitely be the bad guy because that's how we roll *put on spec* yeahhhhh hahahahaha XDDD

If I had a chance, I would like to play as the main character's best friend. A very aggressive and manipulative best friend who can make anyone do stuff for her and threatened anyone who is bad towards the main character. hahahaha and plus, a gamer. of course. HAHAHAHA and Otaku tooo XDD I wonder how it feels like to an actor. hahaha I want to experience it.

Oh oh, what if... Like one day, I'm travelling overseas and while I was travelling, I was scouted to be a movie star WOOOOOOOHHHHH, HAHAHAHAHAHA I wish that would happen though. Um well, I think that's all I should say now. I'm rambling shit hahahahaha it's almost four and my parent gonna wakes up soon. I don't wanna sleep yet because I want to bid them goodbye. Yeah, they're going back to our Hometown, kanowit today and celebrates christmas there. I'll be celebrating Christmas here all alone....

Just kidding. I'll be spending my Christmas with sis Jaba, sis Inut and her husband YAY~! hahahahaha I can't wait! and I hope mom will leave me some money because I wanna go and buy some CD for us to watch on Christmas Eve. WOOOH~ I can't wait XD

Okay, Now I'm going for real hahahahaha
Before that, here's a picture of me and Tommy in which is coincidentally have the same expression hahahaha when I saw it I'm like wooooooooo HAHAHAHAHA XD
so, this post is a goodbye post for my feelings for Thomas-Brodie Sangster.
Thank you for making me remember how it's feel like falling in love again and fangirling hahahaha :) I'll always love Ferb no matter what HAHAHAHA XD


So bye bye and stay bless~!

P.S: Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)