A Closure

Yo, sup'! hahaha I just got back from SG taking all my stuff that I left there before. It was an interesting trip but not that interesting because I just can't wait to be home. HAHAHAHA I don't know. I mean, I do like that place but I just don't find to be the ideal place for me to live in? Yeah, I ain't regret anything for leaving because I really do feel that I did something right. Though, I did disappoint my parents for wasting so much money already but then, I guess I just need to find a job sooner.

July will be my breakthrough. I'm going to restart my life next month, which is only left 3 days before July's here. So, I'm going to use the last 3 days of June to ya know, just arrange my life. Unpack my stuff and probably just start moving some of stuff back to my own house. I haven't told my parent yet about this uhh, plan of mine. I'm going to tell them, probably tomorrow. And tomorrow, I'm just going to unpack, and then washed all my clothes and arrange my room. Yeah, just do things that I can do for now. I'm going to do things one step at the time, starting from now on. No more trying to overwhelm myself anymore.

Feeling overwhelmed sucks hahaha also, I got some story to tell HAHAHAHAHA Okay, so. Ya know that I was just travelled back from SG right? So like, after I drop my luggage, I went to the Starbucks at the Airport. And then, got this one barista, he does look like Nick Jonas, except that he has darker skin hahaha and I think he know that I think he look like Nick, so he was like, ya know, serve me like a macho handsome guy he is hahahahaha and I almost told him that he does look like Nick tbh. Back to the story. So, I paid for my Mocha and the weird thing is that, after he wrote my name on the cup, he put the empty cup, right in front of me, and gave me my change. Soo i'm like, ouhhhkayy, do I like self-service myself or what? I was blur that time because I haven't even got my morning coffee yet. so being me, I took the cup and I went to the pick up counter and I'm like handing the cup to the other barista and she look at me questionningly. And so I told her like, "Well, do I have to refill my own cup or---?" and she suddenly burst out laughing. So that when I realized the adorable mistake I laughed too HAHAHAHAHAHA the girl told me that he probably need that Mocha more than me HAHAHAHAA and then, the Nick-Jonas-look-alike quickly took the cup and he serve me once more, and he said  shyly "Sorry, I just haven't fully wake up I guess?" and i'm like, "Hey, no worries. u just made my morning hahahaha," and then I thanked him and yeah, we go on our merry way. HAHAHAHA geez. I feel bad for laughing but it was just so adorable though HAHAHAHAHA

And then, since I can't bring my coffee into the departure halls, I just had a few sips of it and had to throw it away. So i got no other choice but to go for Coffee Beans. And then, I ordered another mocha and then the barista asked me like, "So, do you want drinks with that?" and I'm like stared at him like ????? and he was like, "Opps, I mean food hahaha" and I just laughs and shook my head. I don't know what happen to the baristas. HAHHAHAHA

Andd..... yeah, right now I'm pondering like... I wanna write a royalty romantic story kinda stuff but I just don't know how to write it. HAHAHAHA I mean, yeah... I got the characters ready just left the story plot. I did thought for some plots but then, I'm not so sure about it because it's a little cliche, but then, I probably gonna use it for few chapters, then if I really doesn't like the plot, I'll just rewrite another one hahahahaha

Also, back to the main topic. Closure. I really put the ending to my life at SG. yeah, I mean, I'm still going to be visiting but I'll probably going to stay with Ah John and Kenny the next time I'm coming because I can't bring myself to even pretending to like Shock Hui anymore. I mean, after the things she had done, and I mean, I really need to trust my guts sometimes. hahahaha It's hurt because I did believe that she's a good friend but I guess I was wrong and now, I'm ready to let her go and go on my merry way, living my life. I mean, people come and go. So, who am I to tell her to stay if she doesn't even want to be friend with me anymore, right? I'll just tolerate her though hahaha. I'm no longer going to beg for people. Especially if that person make me feel like shit. That's a huge no-no.

Well, I guess that's all I wanna say for now. I will update again soon. If I got things to tell or just feel like updating hahahaha
Stay safe my dudes!


Call Me Crazy, But This Coincidence is Just Way Beyond My Understanding

Okay, so I was just you know, going through all my previous post and so I stumble upon this one post with a title : Second Massive Coincidence and yeah, it was on Logan Lerman obviously. And yeah, you can read what happen in picture below HAHAHAHAHA

And then, apparently I had another Logan Coincidence too, few days after :

I don't know if you can read it but well, in short, in that post i was saying something about dreaming about zombies and stuff and apparently, Logan was in the dream too. And then, as I woke up, I straight away went and check on his twitter and yeah, you guessed it. Logan Lerman posted something on Zombie as well.

Honestly? I think this one is a serious level of coincidenceness. Why? Because I just had the same thing happen to me like 9 hours ago. HAHAHAHAHA
I was checking my Instagram, like the usual and then I went back to Blogger. So I thought of re-reading back all the post.. Well, not all. Just the one with interesting title and all that ya know. And then, I stumble upon the post with Second Massive Coincidence title and that was when it hit me.

Logan Lerman updated his Instagram story, right after I talk about him yesterday. Also, I'm not sure about this but hell, I think when I posted on the soulmate post, he too update his insta story. Jesus Christ, blessed me. HAHAHAHA

That's what he posted 9 hours ago. He was attending this concert thingy I think? But I don't know who's concert it was. Probably some indie bands. I mean, I'm pretty much think he likes indie band more. Anyway, back to all this coincidence stuff. Like serious talk though. If this is like only twice happens to me, I would say that everything just coincidence but right now. I don't know. HAHAHAHA. I mean, how many coincidence is going to happen between us? But maybe it is just a coincidence. I mean, we don't even know each other. I mean, I do know him but not knowing in real-life so, big difference. And just to make things even mind-blowing is that he hasn't been posting on his instagram or even updating his insta story since forever! How I knew this? I actually have his instagram notification on HAHAHAHAHA So, there's no way I would not know him updating his profiles. His last update on insta is like five months back. You don't believe me? Wait till you see this picture :

Look at the date. Holy shizzle, my dude. HAHAHAHA I don't like this. I mean, I do like this coincidence things but ugh, stop playing with my heart dudes. If you like me, just DM me man. HAHAHAHAHA
And also, dear Cupid, if we're meant to be, please let us meet with each other and we'll see how it goes from there. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Seriously. Ugh. I was seriously just literally talk about him yesterday and he posted something. Geez. Father in Heaven, I know You're watching me right now. Please, stop toying my heart like this HAHAHAHAHAHA this maiden heart can't contain her fangirl side that long. And it's hella impossible for me to even see him real-life. But I do, Oh I really do wish that we're really meant for each other HAHAHAHAHAHA

*sighs dreamily* A girl can dream, right?

Okay, I guess that's all for now.
I need to fold the clothes before going to bed. Got a plane to catch tomorrow though.

Bye for now


100 Truths. [ I'm redoing it ]

1. Last beverage→
*   Plain Water

2. Last phone call→ 
*  Mom
3. Last text message→ 
*   From hui-hui, "Don't worry that bag is big enough for you to see."

4. Last song you listened to→ 
*   I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift

5. Last time you cried→
* Yesterday because of that one short video I found in Youtube xD

1. Dated someone twice?
*   Oh lol. Well, technically I did. With Logan, if that's count HAHAHAHA

2. Been cheated on? 
*  Nah.
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? 
*   Nope. I never kiss and tell *wink*

4. Lost someone special?
*  Many times. 
5. Been depressed? 
*   Hahahaha well, it's part of me now. 
6. Been drunk and threw up?
*  The perks of having high alcohol tolerance I guess hehe

*Four? Hm... Black, Blue, Light Purple and Light Green.

1. Made new friends → 
* I did and I love them.

2. Fallen out of love →
*  Never.

3. Laughed until you cried →
* Aw geez. Yes, but not as often.

4. Met someone who changed you →
* Hm.... Probably. But change me for the better, of course.

5. Found out who your true friends were →
*  Yeah, I guess.
6. Found out someone was talking about you → 
* Hahahahaha I guess so?

7. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list? 
* Nope.

8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?
*  Almost everyone since I pretty much just accept those who I know in real-life?
9. How many kids do you want to have? 
*  Two. Better if I can have a boy and a girl.

10. Do you have any pets?
*  Yes. 

11. Do you want to change your name? 
*  Nope. I Like my name actually.

12. What did you do for your last birthday?
*  First time celebrating it with friends and make me realize that it's better celebrating with my fam instead xD

13. What time did you wake up today?
* 10 ish something.

14. What were you doing at midnight last night →
*  Updating blog haha

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for →
* Start working and continue with my life.

16. Last time you saw your father?
*  Few minutes ago hahaha

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life→ 
*  Having a better and responsible brother.

18. What are you listening to right now → 
*  Antidote by Faith Marie. This song spoke to me real deep.

19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom →
*   Uhh........ Tom who?
23. What’s getting on your nerves right now?
*  Pretty much everything. hahaha

24. Most visited web page → 
*  Currently, Blogger, Twitter, Pinterest and Instagram

1. What’s your name → 
* Fergiee Frederick
2. Nicknames →
*  Pgie Deryck, Gie, Ngeng, Bibi, Pigi.

3. Relationship Status →
*  Waiting for Logan Lerman to DM me on Twitter.

4. Zodiac sign → 
*  Capricorn
5. Male or female →
* Female.
6. Elementary school→ 
* Srk pujut corner, Sk Lutong
7. High School →
* SMK Pujut
8. Height →
* 167 cm

10. Hair color → 
* A bit purple-ish

11. good at → 
*  Being the family disappointment hahaha i'm kidding. Good at stay motivate, I guess?

16. bad at → 
*  Keeping contact with people.

17. What do you like about yourself? 
*  Mostly my determination and courage in trying something new. 

18: What don’t you like about yourself?
*Sometimes, I can be too negative.

19. Piercings →
* 3 - one the left, two on the right.
20. Tattoos →
* I'm thinking of getting one hahaha

21. Righty or lefty →
*  Both. Though I'm better with my right.

22. First fight →  Uhh... Fist fight or verbal fight? Fist fight, never. Verbal fight, once or twice.

23. First embarrassment →  Well, too many tbh xD

24. First best friend →  Valerie and being a bad friend I am, I hadn't actually go and find her U.U

26. First kiss → Waiting for the right person :) 

27. First pet → Scooby.
28. First vacation→ Labuan 

29. First crush → B-rock (BSB)

30. First Boyfriend → Andy and no, he's not the character name I've always used. He's a real person believe it or not HAHAHAHA

49. Eating → None for now.

50. Drinking → Plain Water.
52. I’m about to → Post this I guess? And probably write another entry cuz I'm on fire right now xD

53. Listening to → Gotta Let Go by Hollywood Undead. 10/10 Recommended tbh

55. Waiting for → Logan Lerman to realize that I'm the love of his life HAHHAHAHAHAHA

58. Want kids? → Sure, why not? Kids are adorable.

59. Want to get married? → If I met the right person, why not?
60. Careers in mind? → Youtuber? Influencer? I don't know. Either one is fine.

68. Lips or eyes →  Both
69. Hugs or kisses → Both
70. Shorter or taller →Taller
71. Older or Younger → Older
72. Passive or aggressive →Both
73. Personality or looks →Both
74. Quiet or loud →Both
75. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
where is 76? → Running off somewhere.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → Both

78. Kissed a stranger → Nope
79. Drank hard liquor → Yep
80. Lost glasses/contacts → Definitely
81. Told a big lie…or joke → Sure
82. Broken someone’s heart → Yeah
83. Had your own heart broken→ Countless of time.
85. Been arrested → So far, no.
86. Turned someone down → Of course.
87. Cried when someone died → Duh?
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Yep.

89. Yourself → I do
90. Miracles → Definitely
92. Hell → I literally just crawl back from there. It's in my head.
93. Santa Clause → Yep
95. Kiss on the first date? → Yes?
96. Angels → I do

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → 
    I do. I wish to be with my grandpa and grandma for one last time and ask them for advices.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
    Nah. Unless you counted Celebrity crush?

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? 
   I am. I mean, why did I even wasted my few minutes to answers all the question if I'm not even posting this? *eye rolls*

So I Tried A Numerology Compatibility Test of Me and Logan Lerman

So, here's the result HAHHAHAHAHAHA and it's a little scary because it's pretty much correct in my part. I'm not sure about Logan, but mine is like 75% correct HAHAHAHA


Compatibility level: 25% - A relationship that presents frequent challenges and requires much compromise.

Logan Lerman is attracted to Fergiee's strength and stability. Fergiee is the grounded force, offering almost unconditional love and protection. Logan feels safe and secure in Fergiee's love. Fergiee thrives on giving love, comfort and protection, and in short, Fergiee is Logan's haven.
Fergiee recognizes and is attracted to Logan's free spirit. Logan has courage and curiosity and brings excitement and growth to the relationship. Logan's Life Path number 5 and Fergiee's master number 33 complement each other very well.

It is interesting to note that this kind of partnership is somewhat rare due to some initial distrust these two have to overcome when they first meet. Logan- and Fergiee's archetypes have very little in common and usually don’t reach out to bridge the gap. As a consequence, although not impossible, love at first sight is rarely found in this match.

When people like Logan and Fergiee are drawn to each other, it is usually very physical and sensual. Once they connect, the attraction quickly grows powerful, overshadowing just about everything else in their lives. This physical attraction is a strong foundation and while many couples, after a period time, often lose interest in the physical aspect - at least to some degree - in this particular case the physical attraction will last a long time and remain powerful. This physical attraction is particularly important to Logan, who is by nature a sensual person.

Once the initial distrust is overcome, Fergiee realizes that there is much more substance to Logan than Logan initially revealed. Fergiee found out that Logan, in spite of a reluctance to commit, is extremely loyal and trustworthy.

The popular notion that people who change so easily and adapt to new circumstances quickly may not be so strong in their commitment is proven wrong when applied to Logan. In fact, Logan is less likely to cheat than most people. On the other hand, Fergiee can become a source of frustration and jealousy for Logan because Fergiee gives love freely and generously. In order to keep harmony, Logan needs to understand that this is simply Fergiee's nature. Logan is quick with hugs and shows of care and love to other people, but this should not be a reason for Logan not to trust Fergiee, or to be jealous.
Fergiee simply has a lot of love to give. Teaching, healing, and counseling - even if they are not part of Fergiee's career - are major ingredients in the Fergiee's makeup, and Fergiee needs avenues to express them. It is important that Logan keeps that in mind and does not let misplaced jealousy come between them.

The most difficult challenge Fergiee may have to overcome is to accept the fact that Logan is certainly a social animal. For Logan to be happy, Logan must live a dynamic life; full of impulsive decisions, changes, social activities and travel. With some exaggeration, one might say that Fergiee loves the home while Logan loves the pub. Keeping that in mind, they will both need to offer their partner a lifestyle that is in harmony with what they want for themselves.

ALSO, I have realized that Logan and I have similar facial feature. Look at this picture...

I mean, look at our eyes shaped. They're look the same and our smiles too and our face shape its like augh. too uncanny HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Help me.
ok that's all byebye

Mrs. Lerman is out