I guess... *sighs*

Well, hello. hahahaha Yeah, this gonna be short post because I just want to uh, ya know taking some shit out from my head because it's very disturbing me lately. So, I just need to let it out ya know. And since I don't really have anyone to talk to, and yes, I don't feel like talking about it either so I'll just say it all here :)


That picture is all for show hahahaha it has nothing to do with what I wish to tell hahahahaha XDD *ahem* anyway, the things is that I've just finished writing my first short story of 2015. Neh, the one I've wrote about in my last post. So, apparently I've told sis Jaba about it and thought that she want to read it but then... *sighs* I didn't really get the reaction I wanted and honestly it just killing my determination to continue writing hahahahaha yeah, I should let it control me but I can't. I need someone to proofread it or maybe a simple comments about it like is it bad or is it good?

If I'm gonna read it, of course I think it's good because it's my doing, right? But meh. She just like, "Ah good. Post it on wattpad then.." And im like hahah...nah... I'll think about it because I want to change a bit of the story hahahaha *sighs* I just want her to read it but now..... Maybe I should just change the whole story line and make a new one or maybe I should just delete it.

*sighs* I guess I am a bad writer. hahahaha like honestly. Maybe because my story line is too cliche and my english is ya know how bad it is and I know I'm not capable to write something good or original. I'm so not original and never will. It just sucks feeling this way. I've been trying not to let it affect me but my brain is a shit. It keep on reminding me about this. about that moment. I hate feeling rejected hahahaha I mean, who doesnt?

I know that I'm not as good as all the other writers but yeah.... *sighs* I guess I'll just stop writing for a while. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not build for writing? I just hate this. Honestly.

I hope I can focus on my study instead hahahaha yeah.... or just continue reading because that's what I capable of. Just read other people stuff, not making it myself. yeah, I should continue doing that. What's the worst can it be.

I'll write again after I forget about this. hahahhahaha