I Wish, I Wish, that I'm gonna be Dan Howell's offical Wifeu xD

I've been officially missing from the blog since October, 2015. If any of you people still following me or like still getting updates from my blogs, I apologized for my long absence hahaha I've been pretty much getting lazier and lazier each day and things ain't getting better in my life but i'm coping very well. It's like everything is a part of me now hohohoho
<----- That's is the face when I still have my hair long T-T yes, bad news, some fucking so-called professional hair saloon cut my hair shorter than it should've been i'm like fuck this shit. I am so not gonna go there ever again. I feel like half of my soul been taken when they cut my hair half of the length oh god fucking damn it. Ugh. hahaha but now, I'm trying to live with the short hair version of myself hahahaha though I pretty much know how short hair doesn't really suit me at all. Like short hair make my face look longer? something like that I think. hahaha but yeah, thank God! they didn't cut my bangs really short, I mean, if they did that, I definitely look way uglier than I already am pfft. and How glad I am that they cut my bangs sideways and not like the straight bangs like korean girls always getting. Because hella, can u imagine how weird I'd be looking if I had a straight bangs. It's like my ultimate nightmare when I was still obsessed with straight bangs before. hahahha my dark past is getting on to me right now. hahahaha xD I'll just stop complaining about hair. Okay, let's move on to my life currently.


Okay. Have I ever told you about my new obsession on Daniel James Howell?? hahahaha i guess not. Well *ahem* actually I don't really plan to go deep into the ocean of Dan Howell because it was all started with a gaming video hahaha xD Like honestly. I found their gaming channel. When I say their, yes, I mean him and Phil gaming channel where they played games like the Sims, outlast, slenderman and some other games that quite fun to watch and then, I have this one fic in mind where the heroin is like falling for Dan and yada-yada cliche here cliche there and it was all very innocent. I mean, I seriously downloading his face for the sake of the fic that I'm currently writing BUT, its happen. hahahaha and the irony, I started as Phil's fangirls hahahaha Phil is definitely the cutest human being that ever lives on earth! well, second cutest, after logan lerman obviously hahahaha okay. Anyway, back about Danny. He's um. WELL, I don't actually know what's make me liking him or rather I should say that I'm falling for him LOL it just sounds so ugh. hahahaha

 But one thing that I can actually point out why I like him is because of those smile of his and his laugh and the way he talks and when he gazed on the camera and just how cute he is when he stared at his laptop screen, or just watching anime and being crazy when he saw an anime store hahaha in short, he just make me feel like I found my soulmate. HAHAHAHAHA

Kill me now, like NOW. HAHAHAHA okay. But seriously. How many Otaku's are out there that would look as good as he is? even there are some, they might probably be the closet otakus like *shrugs* So, Dan is like the love of my dream, my dream boyfriend or something like that. hahahaha. BUT I know exactly where I stand over millions of other hot, cute, pretty and talented seas of fangirls he has. hahaha I'm just like a puddle of fangirl that will never get noticed by him hahahaha seriously.

But if it God's will and that I'm going to meet him one day, I definitely tell him that I'm infatuated by him, not because he's famous and that I like his video or anything of sort, it just because he just perfectly fitting my ideal husband HAHAHAHA okay, I think if I really did that, he definitely call a police officer and put me into jail and probably label me as crazy ass stalker OR Worst, he gonna call the mental hospital and locked me there for the rest of my life hahhahaha ugh, I hate it when I happen to fell in love with someone who lives 281932894375 miles away from me. SIGHS

THe life of a fangirl.


SIGHS look at how cute he is. hahahahaha *ahem* okay. Did you know that I'm actually trying to lose some weight? hahaha BUT apparently, It's not working at all since my tummy always empty and I just feel like hungry all the freaking time. hahahaha like seriously. So, I think I'm just gonna give up on dieting but less eating though. Or maybe more vege and fruits? hahahha and yeah, I'm planning to bake a cupcake soon, maybe not today but this weekend, I shall baked em before I decided to finish all my assignments. hahahaha

Yeah, Assignments is being ass as usual. I have like 4 assignments that have the same deadline. hahaha fuck me. But yea, never give up and I definitely believe that I can finish everything in a week. wahahahaha never underestimate me. When I put my mind to it, I surely can do it. No worries xD and I got myself a new baby dog by the way hahaha and he's so black that I called him Chelum ngeeeeee BUT he's too actively naughty hahahaha but that's okay. he's gonna grow up somehow. I love him still, tho not as much as I love Chubchub.





 I just realized that nothing very excited has happening in my life lately hahahaha even my birthday is like MEh hahahaha yeah, birthday. OH, my parent did bought a house for me and shawny though. They keep saying that it was MY house but I can't help it but to feel like it was actually Shawny's house and I'm just there because shawny need a caretaker. YEah, maybe I think too much about it but honestly, my instinct and my guts feeling seldomly wrong so... HAHAHAH all I can do right now is just take everything as it is and just deal with it. like fuck it. I'm done with everything anyway hahahaha


OH, by the way. I'm going to go on a four days three nights trip with my college's friends in April hahahahahahah yes, Dan. like WHAAAAT? hahahahaha it still sound very surreal to me because like I'm not one of a person who go out other than my family members and going on a trip with friends? With people that is not my family?????????? I don't know if I can do it but yeah, maybe it's an opportunity for me so I'm just gonna snatch it hahaha it's not always that you go on a trip with other people and obviously, a trip is all i need right now. I mean, I could go crazy if I didn't go far from this place. Even for a while, I'd appreciate it hahahaha so, Thank you Lord for the opportunity. I just hope that we're going to have safe trip and nothing wrong will happen. I mean, what could be wrong? hahahaha....... *sighs*

And uh, well. I'm actually planning to start saving money for my UK trip which I'm planning to go before I settled down with anyone, if it's God's will. hahahaha I haven't found any boyfriend yet because as you can see, I'm always falling for the guy who will never know my existence. hahahahahaha *crying*

Though, I gotta say that I do set my eyes on this one guy in my class. After ages of not having a crush on real life people who is not living 839743 miles away lol, I found him. Well *ahem* he almost in most of my class and yeah, we're sorta friend and yes, he's gonna be joining me on the upcoming trip too. His name is Norman Jan, a chinese boy actually. He's smart, he's tall, awkward, cute, quiet, mysterious and he wore spectacles. Gosh, you know that I'm definitely weak for guy in glasses. HAHAHA and yeah, his voice, erghh magerrrrd, eargasm baby HAHAHAHA i could listen to him talking all day if he let me. HAHAHAHAHA I sounds like pervert there oppss. Oh, and he just reminds me of this one utaite name Shoose and hella, the resemblance is uncanny ahahaha wow, big word. BUT, i think i wanna give up on him though because I found out that one of my girlfriends, Ellan have a crush on him though she keep on denying it and i'm like duude, seriously? While everyone else could see how much she's into Jannie, she just keep on denying it. pfft. Oh well, shy-shy cat that hahahaha

Nevermind though, I always know where I stand and Ellan is double time prettier than I am and obviously way more fashionable and brainy than me. I'm just some airhead who likes yaoi and always do things last minute and always prioritize my games more than the life itself. who would like a weirdo like me? ahhahaha well, none except for myself. hahahaha even my parents always nagging about my priority lol. I'm sorry for being disappointing you two, parents.

But that's okay though. I still have hope to be Dan's official girlfriend. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA please buy a shotgun and aim it on my head. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I think that's all I'm gonna say for now. Because I have study to do since tomorrow, or should I say, LaTER morning I have midterm on my International Management subjects and I haven't start doing any shit lol. Fuck me.

Anywho, wish me luck!

Byebye :)

P.S: There's always a rainbow coming after the storm. lel.

Here's picture of dan's resting bitch face tho it's look so adorable. hahahaha 


 Just in case that he'll ever stumble upon this blog, Love you, Danny. HAHAHA 

Your future Wifeu. HAHAHAHAHA


Bye for real :)