Kata Hati

     Fikiranku melayang entah kemana. Kepalaku semakin pening hari ke hari. Seribu persoalan terbuku dalam kotak fikiranku. Kenapa semua ini harus aku yang harungi? Mengapa perlu aku yang terpilih untuk menghadapi kesukaran ini? Persoalan-persoalan itu menghantuiku. Aku terasa sebak namun air mata membeku dikelopak mata. Mungkin sudah terlalu berat. Tahun ini aku merupakan calon SPM. Namun, bagaimana aku hendak fokus kepada pelajaran jika segalanya semakin rumit? Kepalaku hampir meletus, pecah! Sejuta kali aku bertanya kepada-Nya, namun tiada jawapan. Apa aku tidak berhak untuk mengetahui tujuanNya memperlakukan hidupku sebegini? Apakah tujuan sebenar-Nya? Aku hanya perlukan jawapan. Aku mahu semuanya kembali kepada asal. Seperti mana aku menjalani hidup ketika diwaktu kecil dahulu. Aku mulai merindui kehidupan aku yang dulu. Aku tidak ingin menjadi dewasa. Ada masanya aku berfikir, “mungkin ada hikmah disebalik semua benda yang berlaku ini.” Tapi, apa? Apa hikmahnya? Apakah yang telahku lakukan dihayat lepas sehingga menyebabkan kehidupanku sekarang menjadi sesukar ini? Aku mahu berjaya dalam hidup. Tapi, jika semuanya semakin rumit, bagaimana? Aku semakin menyimpang jauh dari masa depan yang cerah. Susah untukku melihat cahaya terang dalam diriku. Cahaya itu semakin pudar dan kegelapan semakin mengambil alih. Aku tidak mahu. Aku mahu benar-benar gembira. Aku tidak sanggup melemparkan senyuman palsu di hadapan teman-temanku. Ia membuatkan aku menjadi seorang penipu. Aku mahu memberikan senyuman gembira yang benar-benar gembira dan bukan dibuat-buat. Aku juga berharap agar air mata ini senang membasahi pipi agar aku berasa lebih lega. Tetapi, tidak. Hanya hati yang semakin sebak apabila mengenang semuanya.  Semuanya nampak salah dimata ini sekarang. Sudah terlampau berat untuk ku tanggung semua ini. Ya, Tuhan. Berikan aku kekuatan. Berikan aku kasih sayangMu kerana aku amat memerlukanNya. Aku memohon kepadaMu, kurangkanlah kesakitan yang semakin bertambah-tambah dilubuk hati ini. Terangilah jalanku agar aku tidak menyimpang jauh. Berkatilah aku. Aku belum bersedia untuk menghadapi kesukaran ini. Jika sukar untukMu memberikan aku jawapan, berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk aku mengharungi semuaNya. Aku tahu, semua ini ada hikmah disebaliknya. Berikanlah aku pertunjuk. Satu pertunjuk sudah memadai.

Wish IF I Get Straight As :)

Annyeong, everyone :) Oh Yes~ we meet again. this is my 119th post. weehoo. *show off* hahaha :) anyway today i feel so tired lah because i have to stay at school for EST and thanks God, the choral speaking thing is cancelled. YEAH! LOL :) but still i feel guilty towards mdm. Patricia just now. yala, she put hope on us bah but we ruins it. hopefully this guiltiness won't last long :) urmm.. what else? ah, today also i got tuition. ehehe :) but today a bit different lah because we become a bit serious. LOL :) well, mum and dad was there watching over us. that is why we being serious just now. ekekeke :) we can't watch Bleach and Oh, My Lady! today~ miss few episode already de =.= nevermind la. as long as i won't get fail anymore. ehehehe :D


hah~ well, actually i don't have anything to write LOL. just want to write for fun de. hehehehe. homeworks still waiting but i don't feel like doing it. Maybe later i'll do it lah. uh, it almost 12a.m de. ekekeke :D relax~ after blogging i want to prepare things for tomorrow and i also have planned that i'm not coming for 3R club as well as BC class. ekeke :) tired de. besides, i want to finish off all my essays lah. need to change from now on before its to late later. well, i decided to change since i saw our senior result for SPM last year. i saw lots of them got As. so i was like "wahh~ i want As too~" ehehehe. i will be so PROUD of myself if i do get straight As for SPM~ weehoo~ i will jump until i reach for the moon later if i do get straights As. ngahahah :D i know and i believe i can get As! i may failed in many subjects but i will prove it to everyone that i can change that RED pen to BLUE pen in this coming exams which is predicted on May :)


8 months left to SPM :) short time heh? well, relax~ well for SPM, if i can get flying colours kan, i want few things from my parent. hehehe :) not many lah. just a few. maybe 5 only. hehehehe. well, first of all, i want iPhone 3g from them.. eh no, i want LG iceCream. ekeke :) cute lah~ hahaha :) next, i want DSLR camera. weehoo~ hahaha :) i really want this one. ekeke :D and the third things i want is.. urmm...ah, 2 tickets to South Korea :) weee~ why 2? well, i want to bring Jaba also. hahaha :) because we both like korea kan? hehehehehehehe :) next one, i want mum and dad pay for our expenses when we are at korea later on. ekeke :) well, actually, i don't think i won't be able to go there because our Ringgit Malaysia is WAY TO SMALL when convert into KOREAN WON :'( hahaha. but i'll find another way to go there. whatever it takes, i will get my foot step on Incheon Airport. ekeke :) and last but not least i want to ask mum and dad to approve me to go for community service. hehehe :) i really want to do this so hopefully they would let me if i get flying colours. besides, i'm old enough to take care of myself kan? hehehe :) hopefully, all of this can come true. hehehee :)


so, i guess, that is all for now. hahahaha :) got nothing else to writelah. oh ya, before i forget, me and sis Jaba is doing a story at out shared blog. well, we haven't start yet and sis Jaba is still brainstorming right now. hehehe :) i can't wait to read it up. well, i think the story will be very funny lah because we both don't really know how to write in proper english. LOL XD the results is, the story will be very broken just like my blog. ekekeke XD and yeah, i just read her part in that blog and walawehh~~ VERY GOOD DE~~~ i lost my confident. hahahaha :)




so, that's all for now. adieu :) 




P.S : let your smile cover up your tears :)

POEMS : Broken Hearted


filling this day with emptiness
depression is deep inside this wonder heart
tears nonstop falling to the ground
like the raindrops dropping on my window

its seem like the rain won't stop
so do my tears that won't stop falling out
this feeling
it came back to me
feeling of broken heart
a feeling that no one could stand

sighing is the only things i could do
crying may not the solution of broken heart
and laughing may not the best medicine
but it make me feel much better

again i have to walk away
this is the only thing i could do
for i'm just a sidekick in this story
call me coward, doesn't matter
because i love him but he don't deserve me
so this is just the best
the best for him and her

i wish i could just close my eyes
and forget about everything i saw, listened and told.
forget the worst part and left only the best part of life
so that i won't feel so broken
if i just can do like that
next time,
i'll just close my eyes to heal my heart









My Thought About : Stars In My Heart.

Annyeong, Everyone :) today is Sunday and few minutes left and its gonna be Monday. Urgh~ i hate monday >.< but have no choice, i have to go through monday first if i want to have my Saturday :) hahaha :) ermm.. today nothing much happen. as usual, i'm having fun with my dearest sisters and of course not forget my little nemesis shawny. hehehe. yeapp, he have to go home lah. no choice de TT. oh ya, just in case you are wondering
 <---whose picture is that, that is Park Won Cheol. one of my favourite ulzzang de :) well, he's not that famous but he is quite cute though. like KangHyukMin but HyukMin more lah. ahahaha :) errm.. what else? homeworks? me? do my homeworks? haha, nope. i don't even touch them. ekeke :) i failed. 


lets just go to the main topic for this post :) well, last few days me and sis Jaba had thought about what to do in our sharing blog. so, she came out with this idea. she said, she want to write a story in that blog. well, i thought that idea is quite cool lah. and today we've been discussing about the characters and the storyline and also the title. well, the title is just for a while i think. ekeke :) and yeah, the title is Stars In My Heart :) well, i don't think i want to tell you the storyline first, let it just be a secret for the time being because i myself not really sure about the storyline. ekekeke :) but i really hope we can do our best and of course i'll do my best on it too :)




well, actually i don't have much things to say today because i really want to sleep right now. ekekek :) i'm just going to sleep after i finish prepare things for tomorrow lah. so, i guess this is good bye lah. ehehehe :) adieu and good night. sweet dream everyone :D


so, here is photo of Kang HyukMin and the other UlzzangShidae's season 4 participant :) 




 P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

CHORAL SPEAKING TEXT :)

TOMORROW PLEASE STAY AFTER SCHOOL. WE NEED TO PRACTICE BEFORE THAT WOMAN (YOU KNOW WHO) BURN OUR EARS! HAHA :D

ALL  GROUP1 GROUP2 GROUP3 SOLO

IN THUNDER AND LIGHTNING,
HERE WE COME!
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,
WE ARE THE CHILDREN OF TODAY
PRESENT TO YOU,
“ A BETTER TOMORROW”

MALAYSIA IS A MULTI-RACIAL COUNTRY
COUNTRY THAT BELONGS TO ALL MALAYSIANS
WITH A SHARED HISTORY AND A BELIEF IN A SHARED FUTURE
U-N-I-T-Y [SOLO]
UNITY!
ONLY A FIVE-LETTER WORD, YET
THE FOUNDATION OF MULTI-RACIAL MALAYSIA.

A CULTURAL MELTING POT
UDAH MAKAI, NUAN?
A UNIQUE HERITAGE OF DIFFERENT RACES
SELAMAT HARI RAYA! GONG XI FA CAI! GAYU GERAI NYAMAI! DIWALI VARTIKAH!
A HARMONIOUS BLEND UNLIKE ANY IN OTHER WORLD.
MALAYSIA, TRULY ASIA!

WE’VE DANCE FROM JOGET TO NGAJAT
ALL SWAYING BEAUTIFUL TO OUR ANGKLONG
IN OUR BAJU KURUNG, CHEONGSAM AND SARI
WE HAVE MALAYSIANS WHO HAVE MADE US PROUD

MALAYSIANS LOVE THEIR FOOD
THE MENU FOR BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DINNER
WILL BE AS VARIED AS IT’S PEOPLE
CHAR KUEY TIAW!
ROTI CANAI!
NASI LEMAK!
AND THE TARIK!
DON’T FORGET THE KING OF FRUIT – THE DURIAN!
EEEEEEE! [P]
NICE LA~ [L]
WHAT ABOUT THE SAGO WORMS?
YUKS! NOT OUR CUP OF TEA!
HEY! THEY ARE DELICIOUS AND NUTRITIONS
OUR FAMOUS SARAWAK KEK LAPIS
CAN BE EXPORTED TO THE REST OF THE WORLD,
YOU KNOW!
SO DEFINED…
SO REFINE…
SO DIVINE…
THE RANGE IS TOTALLY OUT OF THE WORLD!

MALAYSIANS, WE MUST HAVE THE SENSE OF FAIRNESS,
A COMMON SENSE APPROACH TO THE WORLD
PEOPLE WILL SHARE IF THEY HAVE THEIR FAIR SHARE

THEY WILL LISTEN IF THEY ARE LISTENED TO
SO, WE MUST CREATE A NATION
WHERE THERE IS A FAIR ASHARE FOR ALL
AND WE, MUST LISTEN, DISCUSS AND
HOLD ONTO OUR SHARED BELIEF OF BEING TRULY
ONE MALAYSIA!

FROM BULLOCK CARTS TO GEN-2
STEAM LOCOMOTIVES, MONORAILS AND [PAUSE]
BELIEVE IT OR NOT!
RM 9.99 AIR TICKETS TO BALI!
NOW,
EVERYONE CAN FLY!
TRAVELLING HAS BECOME A BREEZE
OUR FAMOUS PETRONAS TWIN TOWERS [G 1 & 2]
WAH!
A SYMBOL OF OUR ASPIRATIONS
CYBERSPACE HAS BECOME AN IMPORTANT PLATFORM
FOR PEOPLE TO GET WHAT THEY WANT
IT’S PREFERRED CHOICE
AMONG THE YOUNGER GENERATIONS [ LIKE US! ]

HERE WE COME
WITH OUR HANDSOME ANGKASAWAN[G2 & 3]
[OHH~~]
A SMAL STEP FOR DR.SYEIKH MUSZAFFAR
A GIANT LEAP FOR ALL MALAYSIANS
HE IS THE SYMBOL OF THE POSIBBLE
IF HE CAN DO IT SO CAN WE!

WE, THE YOUTHS OF MALAYSIA WANT A COUNTRY
FOUNDED ON SECURITY, PEACE AND PROSPERITY
UPHOLDING THE PRINCIPLES OF OUR RUKUN NEGARA
WE WANT FORWARD-THINKING MALAYSIANS
TO MEET THE CHALLENGES OF GLOBALISATION
LET US WORK TOGETHER
HAND IN HAND TO CREATE A BETTER TOMORROW
ONE VOICE, ONE HOPE, ONE NATION
ONE MALAYSIA!

Random Day :)

Annyeong, Everyone :) or should i say Happy Saturday. when talking about day, it will reminds me to Rebecca Black Music Video called Friday. haha :) and whenever i remember the vids kan, i'll surely laugh like crazy. LOL as the vids look so AWKWARD and the lyrics seem to be nonsense. sorry to those who like RB but her voice is very annoying. i could not say much about her because i don't know her, i just judging her from outside. hehehe :) back to the topic.. today me and my classmates should have a choral speaking practice but WALA~ no one comes. only 5 of us who went practice. LOL XD yea, to be honest i was freaking angry just now but they aren't the one to blame anyway. let just blame me for i am responsible for everything as i'm the class leader :( but eventhough there are just 5 of us, we manage to make a sounds like there were 50 of us. hahaha :) we've practice quite hard and very full of spirits LOL XD i don't know whether the sentence is correct or not. hahaha :) our script? well, just copy and paste from the net lah. no time to make a new one beside, we have to perform on tuesday NEXT WEEK. when i think of this, my whole body is shaking. I'm SO NERVOUS!




Today also, i got tuition. but the truth is, we're not even studying. LOL XD but we watch BLEACH season 2 and Oh, My lady! LOL XD we're just study math at 7 until 7.30. ya lah, bleach started at 7.30 bah~ hahaha :) we did our best to make my parent go to our aunt house next door. LOL XD then around 9 we went to the kitchen and have dinner. LOL :) friday is always no class day. hehehe :) i love my tutor~ hahahaha :) same head with me. ekekeke :) but for sure, she really know how to teach me lah because in 30 minutes, i can understand 3 topic in a row. i was like " WHOA~ i really can do it!" 30 minutes, can you imagine that? 30 minutes for 3 topic. wuhuu~ salute to my tutor~ hahahah :D




ermm.. what else? ah~ yea.. later kan, i got meeting at BSMM HQ. yea.. typing the 'Meeting' words make me feel like V.I.P. hahaha :) anyway its gonna be held at 3.00 p.m and i think the meeting only take one hour la. hopefully. i don't want to sit for too long until my buttocks cramp. DUH~ hospital fee nowadays is very expensive. hahaha *what the connection?* anyway.. i decided to finish off all my essays BM or BI, even if i got chinese one pun i'll finish it hahaha :D and ermm.. this time i want to change lah. i don't want to fail any subject if can. because kan, everytime we got exams and when i get my results, i'll surely gets 5 failed and those that i get failed is of course the most important subjects that science student MUST NOT FAIL! T..T


But, nothing is impossible if we have the willing to make it, right? so i hope i can do better on this coming exams which is will be held on May, 9. T^T. i really hope i can because i don't want to disappointing my mum and preventing her from taking away my lappy :( if she did that, i don't know how will i survive my bored day without dearry lappy :) i don't want to lose my lappy because my hyukmin is in it. if mum kept lappy, then i can't see my hyukmin anymore :(( and that is the worstest part of my life :)


so, its 1.13 A.M already and my eye lids is getting heavier. i want to sleep lah. hahahaha :) last but not least from me, good night and sweet dream. hopefully i can dream about i'm getting married with HyukMin. in dream only pun enough lah. ahahaha :) so, adieu !!


here is photo of YoungGi which will ending this post. Annyeong!



P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Just A Little Too Much Things To Say :)


Konbanwa~ hehe :) long time didn't write blog. Hmm..hmm.. quite missing my Mr.Blogger though. Ah~ yes, i've got my exam result. well, not bad lah (for me) but if those who has high IQ, if they get my marks, i think most probably they would commit suicide. LOL XD yea.. i don't get A, don't say A, even B and C also i didn't get. hahaha :) oh wells, i can try do better next time. So far i only get 2 failed and i think tomorrow will plus 2 more fail LOL because tomorrow i think i'll get my Physics and Biology paper :) if get half-dead mark also nevermind as long as i don't get 20 below. that's already enough for me :) i don't want tp put high hope on it because i know how i'm doing during exams T^T. regretting it by now is SO LATE oredy. just move on lah. look forward. i promise, especially to my loveliest tutor and parents, i'll get better mark on the 2nd trials :) i can't promise anything but i;ll try harder. trust me :) 


And so, what else? hmmm... my life? well, nothing much changing around here just that i'm less hang out at my neighbor house as mum told me not to sleep next door on school days and i only can spend time with sis Ina and Jon on weekends. well, 2 days is enoughlah. hehehe :) after SPM, i can spent 24/7 with them ~~ hahaha :) ermm.. mii brother? well, still the same and i think he will stay the same till whenever lah. i don't have much to say about him because i don't want to. hehehe :) let just say, he still doing what he always does :) i don't want to get involve in anything he's doing because it will causing me more stressful. enoughlah i get stressed out from homeworks and schools and peoples. hahaha :) anyway, i feel like being hated by everyone this few days and i feel like schools is getting boring from day to day. yeah, i use to say "this is my final year, relaxx~" and i'm still saying the words but i can't stop hating to go to school. i just hate attending classes and the co-curriculum things. urgh! i don't even have time to do homeworks. (just an excuses) tomorrow i'm gonna home late because i have RedCrescent Society. today also i should be home late but i get the woman things going on and my stomach growling and hurt so much so i go home early lah. and i also took a short nap on Maths period just now. haha :) teacher didn't teach bah~ i got bored so, i sleep lah. hahaha :) this Thursday i'm gonna attend the score A programme and will be home at 4p.m. i'm just being too grateful for not having tuition on that day. thanks to my tutor lah :D 


hehe :) yea, i stalk hyukmin again today and i found this latest pictures of him. walawehh~ he's getting cuter and cuter and cuter and .. thats enough ^^. words can't described his cutenesses~ hahaha :) i just love his look. i don't why i'm so tied-up with hyukMin. well, i know he's smoking (which i hate the most) and i know he don't speak english (which make it difficult to speak to him*if see himlah*) and he's wild child (which is not really my type) still, I WANT HIM TO BE MINE. LMFAO XD well, maybe because he just to adorable to be truelah (eventhough he's not that cute in ulljjangshidae vids) i can't deny it at all, i'm so in love with him. KYAHH~~ public confession. LOL XD crazy. talking about crazy, i think i've becoming more girly, you know. make me geli. hahaha :) i started to care about my weight and how fats do i look and i started to care a lot about my hair.. crazy right? I DON'T WANT! sometimes, when i come to my sense, i start to think, what make me becoming this kind of girl which is WAY TOO FAR FROM WHAT I REALLY ARE~~ i think because of the surrounding lah. and maybe i care to much about what people think of me. well, WHATEVER lah.. hahahaa :) stay cute and be cool. and yeah, my photogenics sense become wilder just that i don't have many good pose to share with. mmm....what else? uh, i can hear the rains. waaa~~ must be great to sleep by this time. oh well, i guess i better hurry preparing stuff for schoo, tomorrow and go to sleep as fast as i can. homework? neah.. don't feel like doing it. hahaha :) so, that's all for now. Adieu everyone :) God Bless.


as usual, Hyukmin will ended this post. thanks for reading :)


P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

HomeTutor Special Topic : What Will You Bring When Tsunami Happen?

Annyeong, everyone~ another day pass, another holiday is gone :( but still loving it. harharharhar~ but honestly, i hate going to school. i don't know why but i feel it. i don't feel like going to school. well, positively think that this is my final year going to school~ YEAH! hahahaha :) so, when i think this way, i'll feel much better :) well, actually i know why i don't like going to school just that i think i rather not say it loud and just keep it between me and my dearest Sis jaba and Phoebe :) Anyway, today i got hometuition as usual but not working out well because the three of us busy talking about Japan Tsunami. yeah, quite bad lah the Tsunami. everything is destroyed and tokyo, my favourite city also involved in the tragedies~ hopefully all my future husband is save :) so back to the topic, today the three of us talk about 10 things you'll bring when Tsunami happen :)


the question is like this, "If you are given a backpack that only limits you to bring 10 things only, what will those things be?" so, there a few things that we think important to bringlah. anyway there also a couple of nonsense things that we've listed together with it. hahahaha and we even imagine the SOS : Final Escape games. ekeke :) well, you wouldn't know what i mean because you weren't there with us. hehehe  and i also not a very good story teller lah. ehehe :)
so, here is the 10 important things that we list just now. well, i just take what i think important from what the three of us had said lah. i mean, like sypnosis. ekeke :)


1. 2 big bottle of clean water
2. foods
3. personal belonging ( ID card, photo, driving licence..etc)
4. lighter
5. pad (you know~hehehe)
6. first aid kit
7. pocket knife
8. crowbar
9. jackets / sweater
10. torchlights


well, this is only things that we want to put inside our backpack lah. sis Jaba also suggested that we should wear trousers that have maby pocket so that it easier for us to brings more things, small things like pocket knife so that more spaces la inside our backpack kan? hehehe. anyway, this is one good way to survive. yalah, better ready before its late kan? hahaha :) hopefully malaysia won't get hit by the Tsunami waves. amen ^^




so, short from me for Japan people ::


"あなたの最高の日本行ういつもあなたをサポートしています頑張って!! XD"


-is it correct? - teehee :) just trying my best to~ so, hopefully God Bless All Japanese People and Give Them His Grace and Have Mercy On Them :) 


so, adieu :)




P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

KhunToria Addict :)


AnnyeongHaseyo~ hahaha :) long time no see since my last post, which is about my teeth~ hehehe :) well, i'm not that busy and yes i wanted to post something in blogger but i just feel so damn lazy to do so. ehehe :) ekk, ah, yeah. and for this few days also i've been watching WeGotMarried. i was syok sendiri. LOL XD last time my favourite WGM couple is GaIn and JoKwon and this time KHUNTORIA IS MY NEW ADDICTION~ kyahh~ well, both Nickhun and Victoria is not really my favourite celebrities. just that when i watch the show kan, i can feel that they have SPECIAL FEELING towards each other. LOL :) i wonder if they will be married real life. hehehe :D

They are so perfect for each other~ hehehe :) nickhun is Prince Of Thailand and victoria is Princess Of Sea~ ahahaha :) prince and princess bah~ Nickhun said he wasn't romantic enough to make Victoria happy but for me HE's romantic enough. i really wish i'm victoria. LOL XD anyway, eventhough he doesn't prepare much but i still love everything he done for Victoria. and Victoria, whenever they meeting each other she always get her both hands full of stuff. hahaha :) she always bring something for their date. and last episode i watch is about they were just moving to their newlyweds home :) hehehe :)  love it! and last time i surf  Youtube kan, and i type "Khuntoria Kissing Scene" LOL and i found one. just that i'm not sure whether they really kissing or just ALMOST kissing. Uuuhh~ i wish they really are. so, here is the vids that i told you guys and you guys tell me, are they kissing or almost kissing or they just playing around? please oh please tell me~~hahaha XD
(just that the repeating of victoria voice annoyed me a little. hehehe )


hahaha :) love it!

so, that's all in this post. Adieu :)



P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

I feel like 90 years old Granny :)

Annyeong :) today i went to dentist to remove my two front teeth. LOL XD its hurt a lot on injection part and i feel like i don't have any nose because of the medicine. then on the removal part kan, i feel nothing la. yala, if i can't even feel my nose, how can i feel the doctor removing my tooth? and for sure, i'm really losing tons of blood because of it. hehehe :) anyway, i'm looking really really superb funny right now. Sis Ina kan, she waits for me to talk because she wants to laugh at me. ahaha :D and yea, that's mean i have to wear those fake-teeth. T^T i'm fake :) hahaha XD. but eventhough i lost my two front tooth, i can tell, i'm very grateful of losing them because i can't barely have them hurting me and wasting money to cement them. hehehe :) so, here is some shots of my tooth :)


long heh? and that blood kan, that just beginning lah.. actually i use more than 10 cotton already and it still bleed a lot :) love it XD

Ulzzang Facts :) *base on self-observation*


AnnyeongHaseyo, Everyone! hehehe :) we meet again. well, actually i'm not suppose to online by this time as i'm REALLY need to study for my addmath. But suddenly an idea strike my brain and Taa-Daa~ i'm here. LOL XD yepp :) the reason why i'm here right now is that i want to share few facts that i knew about people who was called as ULL-JJANG @ best-face. yea, everyone adores them, well i admit.. i, myself adore them too because their faces in their photo WAO~ so kawaii~ hahaha :) BUT, do they really that kawaii? hahaha. so, if you want to find out, read this post from beginning till end :)


First thing that i figure out about this so-call ulljjang people is that they aren't pretty nor cute like what we saw in their photo. they look berdouble-double different than their reallife :) for example, Kang HyukMin, Hong Young Gi, Park Hyung Seok..so on la~ i kinda know this when i saw Ulljjang Shidae on Youtube. i saw their real face.. i was like "WHOA~ is that really them?" especially HyukMin. you know kan i LOVE him more than anything else in the world (metaphor) then i'm so SHOCK when i saw him in Ulljjang shidae season 4, he look so different but that's not going to change my love towards him lah. hahaha. same goes to YoungGi. she looks very Adorably CUTE in her photo but TWEEW~ when i saw her, also in Ulljjang shidae season 1-3.. she looks different. hmm..hmm.. and based on my observation, the reason that make them so different from their photo kan, i think their teeth lah the main reason. their teeth is too big in front and jonggang ( if you know malays then you know what's jonggang is ) and some of their teeth kan, you know, like saw~ (the chain saw one)  hahahaha :D not complaining la.. just sharing :)


Second things that i manage to figure out about this ulljjang people is they are SO NOT CLEVER. once, i watch this one episode of ulljjang shidae kan and i saw part HyukMin and YoungGi ( obviously ) and there i knew they aren't that clever. they don't evern know simple english like " what you want to be when you grow up?". well, that still can be accepted lah for me because there are many people who don't know how to speak english very well even myself don't really know english. broken english, i know lah~ hahaha. But the most unacceptable one is when once YoungGi was being question a mathematic question like 7X6 ( something like that lah ) and she answer it wrongly. hmm..hmm.. maybe because she too dependable on calculator during her school days kowt. hahaha :) not judging, i said.. just sharing. hehehe. 


Another facts that i knew from this lovely people is that they are Wild-Child. I oftenly found their photo was taken at nightclub or karaoke center. i think they use most of their time to enjoy themselves and think about how pretty and cute they are. hmm...hmmm.. until they don't even have time to study english.. i mean, SIMPLE ENGLISH. hahaha :) that crack me down deeply when i knew HyukMin don't speak english :( okay. back to topic. these ulljjang people kan, in my personal opinion lah, they only care about their looks and how their appearance. if i were them kan, i would put study on top then beauty :) kan if they clever and they beauty, doesn't that people will think they are PERFECT in every angle? haiya~ why don't they ask me first on how to be perfect ulljjang? hahaha :)


so, for conclusion.. i would love to say that ulljjang is not that perfect as we thought they were but SO WHAT? hahaha ;) i know that you guys love to see their pretty faces. i know, it just hard to resist them. hehehe. but this is just to bring you guys back to reality so that you guys won't ended up, addicted like me. hahaha :D so, i hope this post could bring you guys back lah. ekeke :) well, again i said.. i'm posting this is not to judge the ulljjang. i have NO right to judge. this is just what i observed :) yea i also think they are ulljjang and they are really suit by being called as Ulljjang~ :) so thanks for reading. Adieu (and p.s : TaeJun is one of the example of REAL ULLJJANG. :D perfect in every angle. ekeke :) )

Private Tutor :)


Boujour~ hahahaha :) first time use that word. well, today i got Physic and Addmath exam :) ermm.. i think i'm gonna fail them again this time. hahaha :) because kan, i just do what ever i think is make sense *for physic la* hahaha and for addmath, i just put any formula i know~ ehehe. hopefully i can do well on my other Addmath and Physic paper T^T. anyway, tomorrow i will sit for Chemistry 1, Physic 1 and Chemistry 2. so, i hope i can do my best on Chemist tomorrow or mdm.MallWorld will slit my throat. hahaha :D 

<--- this cat lady over here is my sister, sis Jaba a.k.a Private Tutor. YES~ as you know, i don't want to got tuition, so mum and dad think of one  solution and Taa-Daa~ they make sis Jaba as my private tutor. well, she just started today and well, as i see now everything looking perfectly go well. just that we can't solve some of the problems. hehehe :) yalorh, our brain is equal-equal ma~ hahahah :) dumbest sisters~ XD today, she teach me Chemistry and there our brain twisting like twisters. we both went blur. hahahaha :) and yea, we have fun together though eventhough lots of stupid and random mistakes we've done. ekeke :D

And so, yesterday i went to church with sis Jaba, Phoebe, Isaac and Uncle Spone. that was my first ( i think) time seeing Bishop. i was like "Whoa! is this going to be long?" LOL XD sorry God! i didn't mean it actually. just that, ya la. kan Bishop is above Reverand, so that's why la i wonder if he got more important think to share kan? hehehe. anyway, the prayer wasn't that long and its only took One And A Half Hours only :) on our way home, me and sis Jaba as well as Phoebe took some.. i mean lots of photo together. some look funny, good, idiot, gorgeous.. etc..etc. hhaha :) so here are the photo :) *and i make it as collage because to many bah~ and i like all of it.*


Nice kan our pictures?! hahahaha XD i know! we feel like celebrities when taking photos like that. ekeke :)


I just cut my front hair :) (new cut : left) so, which one you think is mopre suit my big face? hehehe :0 actually i'm regretting to cut it because i don't really like it though T^T but i can't turn back time and save it, right? anyway, it will grew soon enough ^^.

so, i think. that's all for now. i need to sleep because i want to wake up early later. want to study chemist and a bit physic :) so, adieu everyone :D
So, here is the photo of HyukMin and Younggi together! XD i'm so addicted to them especially KANGHYUKMIN




P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

I feel like G6 :)


Annyeonghaseyo! its 12 : 36 a.m and i'm still alive! hahaha :) well, today i'm going to start sleeping in my own bedroom :D. well, quite boring because i'm usually with sis Ina by this time :) still talking nonsense and stalking those abnormal people hahaha XD. anyway, i feel soo like G6 right now...G6 is a Gulfstream jet that costs $58.5 million and flys at speeds of Mach 0.90 or 572 mph... just in case you don't know. hahaha.. and in other words, G6 is rich people lah. hahaha :) well, i'm feeling so good right now. LOL XD because my dream comes true~


YES! i got iPhone from my dad! weehoo~ i never expect he would buy iPhone you know. LOL :D actually the phone is belong to him but i asked him whether he can give me and Taa-Daa~ he gave me. whoa! i really love him now. LOL XD anyway, having iPhone is always being what i really want, including the Canon DS camera. yeah! now i got iPhone, next hopefully mum and dad would considered about buying me my dream camera. LOL.. whoaa~ i feel so MATERIALISTIC right now. ekekeke :D my iPhone is from Thailand you know~ when my dad told me this, i was like "What The? Are you kidding me?" LOL XD well, no matter where it came from, as long i have the iPhone, that matter the most. LOL XD now, i really feel like HyukMin. LMFAO XD




And still, i'm so into HyukMin. ekeke :) i can't resist his cute face even just for a second. ehehe :) addicted ma~ anyway, i found few more fact about him. 
1. he had iPhone
2. he lives alone now
3. he's on ulzzangshidae season 4
4. he now be friend with Taejun :)
5. still cute as usual
6. but mostly his photo is looking mature + cute = matcute :DD
7. his hair is shorter now :) love it!


so, for now, that's all i know. hehehe :) i knew this through my observation de. ekeke :) yea.. crazy fans ma~ ahahaha :D anyway, as usual, i really hope i can meet him personally in the future :) i'd say to him, "anatawa kawaii des!" hahaha :D


took with iPhone :)
ermm.. what else? urmmm.. ha~ later i've got Moral test :) hopefully i can do well later :) hwaiting! hahaha :D last exam? well, not very good i think. i think even if i'm not failing, my marks should be in Nyawa-nyawa ikan later :) hahahaha :D so, i just hoping that i don't fail any subject :) so, i guess this all for now.. if i can online later-later, i will write again la. hehehe :) so, good morning! wish me luck!




so, here is my latest photo and hyukmin's later photo as well :) enjoy and adieu :)





P.S :) Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)