Emotional Part of The Year. *the first and the last, i hope*


        Ohayou! hehehe. long time no see~ i miss to write blog. i really want to but i don't know what to write T^T. Actually i want to write last night but my cousin borrowed my laptop as hers is damaged. so, i'm going to write everything that i want to write last night, today ^__^. as you see, i'm having a big problems with my brother. yeah, he did make my parent lost tempered again and i, once again become the victim of the situation. i'm so stressed out last night. i really want to cry but my tears won't come out. maybe because i'm feeling overly stressed. haiya! i wonder what is he thinking? i don't think he using his brain or maybe he don't have brain at all. sometimes, i really wish that he was never born and i rather become the only child of the family. he just acting too much! and now, my mum is sick and i completely blame my brother because he always make my mum lost tempered and mum always cry because of that. i wonder, when will he change? when can i lives my life peacefully? i just don't know what to do anymore. i really wish i can speak  up and give him a piece of my mind but im just to scared to do so. coward me! 


       But then, i'm so thankful to my cousins for making me feeling more better. Especially cousin Ina, phoebe and Juleetz. they really make me forget about those bad things and make me laugh really hard. hehehe. and to my maknae farah, buwbuw and malen, thanks for being there for me and make me happy ^__^ sarange <3 haiz! i'm feeling lucky to have them besides me. 


       
   - THEY LIGHT UP MY DAY AND MAKE ME HAPPY-


          Wah! i surely can't forget jiyong oppa! he's cuteness really make me going crazy. i thought, xander can replace his place but i was wrong. nobody can replace my jiyong~ T^T. oh well, he just like lee hyori right. just like xander. Xander also like lee hyori. who doesn't anyway? hahaha. seeing them both liking lee hyori, i'm now on my way to liking lee hyori too~ i'm in love with her song. Ahh~ well, now i'm feeling better as i can have my jiyong again ^_^.  from now on, i won't let him go no matter what. unless he get married. ehehe. ahh~ actually its all my fault because accusing him for something that he didn't do. hehehe *sound like real girlfriend to him* LMFAO! keyh keyh. enough about jiyong baby. eehehe

           tonight, i'm going to celebrates Gawai dayak with my family. proud to be Ibanese. hehehe. ah~ can't wait. really-really can't wait for tonight. Hopefully, tonight is the BEST GAWAI CELEBRATIONS ever! wohooo~ AMEN. ekeke. to all, ibanese around the world, SELAMAT NGINTU ARI GAWAI DAYAK, GAYU GURU GERAI NYAMAI! 

so, here's the picture of gawai dayak celebration for villagers and of course, its end my blog for now. Adios!'


GoodBye My Love - 8eight

this song is really touching deeply into my heart. i don't know why but its really-really makes me wanna cry. maybe because my namja's is being taken by others.

click here to see the vids, ne? : goodbye my love MV

Translation Goodbye My Love

Hello, have you been okay?
Is your face cute like before?
A bit of my late regards and our late parting, 
I put into writing. 

Won't you ask me why i send you a letter?
A message from someone's homepage is more common
Holding my pen, maybe i won't be able to express my feelings right
I feel like i can't do this in another way
It was very hard when i loved you
Nothing could ever be like i wished
I promised myself that I wouldn't bother you again
Even if I wait until I die, you won't come

Goodbye my love, I'll send you off now
The memories and remembrances, i'll forget them all
I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love
From my heart

They say if bodies separate, hearts separate too
That's pointless to me, it's all lies
As time goes by, everyday I get more tired
Everyday I asked myself if we can't go back
I could squeeze out my longing heart and scream out but you won't listen
At the end of our memories, after I got conscious of our break up
I send you off of my heart, goodbye

Goodbye my love, I'll send you off now
The memories and remembrances, i'll forget them all
I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love
From my heart

If time kept passing
I thought I would forget you
Again and again
You keep getting into my heart

No, my love, I can't send you off
You, you, I should forget you
Even if I erase and erase, I think you're the only one for me
I'm sorry

LIVING THE FUN LIFE FOR BEING A TEENAGERS


Aloha~ I'm back! wahh~ after a very long time I didn't update blog, I feel like I have abandoned it. Sorie, bloggy! Well, not much I want to talk about this time as I have not much extraordinary things happen. hahaha =D. well, maybe when I meet with Jiyong oppa next time, then i'll use the whole page to talk about it. LOL =D.

Well, as usual. My brother making mums angry again. And making me losing my mood to study. He never stop giving mum trouble. I thought he's already mature but dissapointedly I said, he'll never change. I hope he could be more mature and stop acting like kids. People who was the same age as him, had already plan their future and even they already start to look for
their own life. My brother are so different from everyone that I ever met and know. I wish my brother could do something good at least look for a job. whenever he hurt mum feeling, i really wish that i could stand up for mum and scold him. but i just couldn't do it because i have no courages to do so and sometimes, i even wish that i never have brother before. Well, i know I should do that but he give me to much pressure even that he didn't mean to give it to me. But as long as i see my mum hurt, i feel the pressure. I don't know what to do anymore. i just hope that i could talk to someone who could help me to cope with this problems. 

hahh! enough about the sad things. Well, today i have a very good laugh with my besties. they are so funny and for me, they are the funniest person in the world. i mean the second most. hahaha. ( because my first are my family ) They really got the guts. we talk about nonsense but still we have a lot of fun together. that is why i love them <3. my besties always manage to make me smile and forget about the bad things which happen in my life. sometimes, i wish i could spent more time with them. well, I am as 4 of us join the same clubs and activities at school. hahaha <3 sarange chinguya! 

This one is the most things that i hate today is that girl who was given a name as MIMI. she really piss me off. and of course val too. haiz! that girl never learnt a lesson. dasar perampas. I really hate her. not because she takes my besties' dreamboy but she always annoyed me. she annoyed everyone i think. even some of her friends doesn't like her. Ahhhh~ hate her. 4 of us hate her. hahaha =D picture of siwon and heechul. phiakk! so cutee.

So, the picture end this blog today ^^ see you people next time ^^

Fan- Epik High-

hehehei. on my first time of listening to this song, i'm kinda falling in love with it and i immediately online and search for the lyrics (in english) and then when i read the lyrics, i found that this song is very connected to me as you all know that i'm in love with celebrities which never know me. hahaha, so, just the lyrics then, you'll see what i mean =D enjoy ~ <3


fan - epik high




Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Oh baby don't you know, you don't even know my name

I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you

Oh so beautiful, your solo picture clutched in my hand

The heartbreak of my crazy love buried in the cheers of the world

You’re not even listening, you wouldn’t even know if I died

Even in your next life you will live without knowing who I am

I want you so bad and it’s too late to turn back

Even tonight I want to kiss you so I clutch my pillow tight



Today is our first meeting right?

Only you have this sort of dialogue

Again today I talk to your retreating figure

It’s always the same thing but still I give a nervous hello

Even though the whole world’s stops listening, I only need you to hear me

The further you are the hardened my heart becomes, please listen to me

Farther, and farther, fortune works wherever

Will I be able to see you? (Tell me)



Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Darling, why are you not smiling today?

It would be nice if it was not a big problem

I couldn’t look at your face filled with anxiety

It would be better if I was in pain but the impossibility of that brings regret

Hold me, the one who could respond to your question of “how are you?”

Can’t come close, can’t touch, you’re the one I can’t hold

I’m going to go meet you tonight in my dreams



Even if in my dreams everyone ridicules my love

Even though everyone says I am crazy and the entire world disappears

Babe you belong to me, but why are the worthless multitudes talking you away?

No, there is no way. I’ll make you see only me

I’ll give you everything, I’ll make your lips meet mine, I’ll go get the world and give it to you

I’ll make it so you can never leave me, I’ll keep you in my sunken heart

You are My star, I’m your no.1 fan

Baby please, take my hand



Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Boys and Girls in a crazy love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a stupid love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a meaningless love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a love like mine say oh! oh! oh! 

~ Saranghamnida ~

-i kinda like this song for the meaning. hehehehe. well, i knew this song from one of my Facebook friends and thanks to him, 규현-아들, 정말 감사합니다 !! hahaha =D


Saranghamnida- TIM


-Romanization-


Nappayo Cham Keu Dae Ran Saram..
Heo Rak Do Opshi Wae Nae Mam Ga Jyeo Yo
Keu Dae Ttaemune Nan Him Gyeob Gye Sal Go Man Inneun De
Keu Daen Mo Reu Chanayo

Arayo Na Neun Ani Ran Gol
Nun Kil Jul Man Keum Po Jal Got Op Tan Gol..
Ta Man Ka Keum Shik Keu Jo Keu Miso Yogi Nae Gae Do
Na Nwo Jul Sun Om Nayo
Pi Rok Sarang Eun Ani Ra Do..

On Jen Gan Han Bon Jeum Eun To Ra Pwa Ju Gyet Jyo
Han Op Shi Twi-e Seo Ki Da Ri Myon..
Oneul Do Cha Ma Mo Tan Ka Seum Sok Han Ma Di..
Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida

Oje Do Chaek Sang-e Yop Deu Ryo
Keu Dael Keu Ri Da Cham Deu Ryot Na Pwa Yo
Nun Neul Ddo Bo Ni Nun Mul-e No Ka Heu To Jyo Itton
Shi Rin Keu Dae Irum Gwa
Hot Win Param Pun In Nak So Man..

On Jen Gan Han Bon Jeum Eun To Ra Pwa Ju Gyet Jyo
Han Op Shi Twi-e Seo Ki Da Ri Myon..
Oneul Do Cha Ma Mo Tan Ka Seum Sok Han Ma Di..
Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida

Ije Nomu Na Do Nae Gyen Ik Sok Han
Keu Dae Twi Mo Suem Eul Pa Ra Po Myeo
Heu Reu Neun Nun Mul Chorom So Ri Om Neun Keu Mal

Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida





-ENGLISH-



So bad..a person like you..
Why did you take my heart away without my permission?
Im living with so much difficulties
But you dont even know.

I know.. that its not me
That im not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes cant you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

Yesterday, I layed my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

As I look back at your image
which I got so used to it
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.