Turn away,
If you could get me a drink 
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded 
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors, 
My sisters and my brothers, still, 
I will not kiss you, 
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you. 

Now turn away, 
'Cause I'm awful just to see 
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body, 
Oh, my agony, 
Know that I will never marry, 
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you 


Deep, deep inside of your heart
There is a weight that still needs to be lifted
Cover it up, but the pain never stops
Sometimes I wish that you'd just listen

Deep, deep inside of yourself
There is a soul starving for some affection
Been waiting for years and the time passes by
All you ever wanted was to fit in

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know

Constantly waiting for life
Starving for love to surround it

If you only looked right by your side
You'd find that it never had left you

You've lived through so much and seen so many things
Through your eyes and I wish you could just see
If it were up to me I would construct a key to your heart
And finally set you free

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
'Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know

You can call me
You've got no reason to hide

You're so lovely
Built with a beautiful mind

Wait for your time, it will come (you can call me)
And you will realize just how special you are (you've got no reason to hide)

There's not enough hate in the world (you're so lovely)
To bring you down (built with a beautiful mind)

Built with a beautiful mind (built with a beautiful mind)

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
'Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know 

Ridiculous, but Worth it (^___________________^)

<--- Love my eye :) hahahahaha. It's pretty, I know! hahahahahaha :D Undeniable gorgeous. huahaha :D
alright, enough self-praising. hahaha :)
Greetings and yeah, I'm writing again. hahahahaha :) today, I got my internet connection back! WOOOO!!! I'm partying all night, hahahaha XD yesh! that's what I'm going to do tonight, partying all by myself, celebrating Internet Connection Comeback. hahahaha :D Oh damn, you never knew how bad is my life without internet. Everything sucks! well, except for Sherlock Holmes book. hahaha :D about the book, I stopped reading it for a while, maybe I'll read it up again after mum bought me the electronic dictionary, which is maybe take up 2 or 3 month ( waiting for my dad to come back from the sea) hahahaha :) Yeah, my dad is a mermaid. huahahaha XD he work at the sea. hahahaha :) Uh, to much haha-ing. hmmm... so, I got a lot to tell but not going to tell all lah. hahaha :D I want to keep some of it, which I think is too personal, for myself. hahaha :) Aww, don't cry... hahahaha :D Don't waste your precious tears, darling. hahahaha :)) So, let's get straight to business :)

Today, nothing much happen though. Just some random stuff. You know, stuff I hate and stuff I like. hehehe :) but everything kind of making me sick. Especially my brother and you know why. Seriously, I tried to hate him you know, but I just can't. But no, I don't love him or care about him anymore. In fact, most of the time, I wish for his life to be cut off soon for I'm tired of seeing him yelling at mum and make her look like some idiotic person. Urgh, feel like want to throw him into Sungai Miri already. hahahaha :P Honestly, I pitied him, actually. Because he doesn't know and doesn't even realize mum and dad loves him too much. He should be grateful for having such good and caring and patience parent right ours. Hmmm... seriously, I pity that guy like a lot. Wonder why he had that closed minded? and very low IQ. oh God, I don't know how to describe him. He is... like... the worst of the worstest guy I ever met in my whole life. I don't know if there got others just like him, cuz I don't care much about this walking dead breed. I don't know lah but sometimes, he scared the hell out of me even though he never mad at me. Sometimes, I just want to scream in front of him, telling him to GET A LIFE. he has no life, maybe he think he has one, but no. He has no life. He's dead. Call me bitch or rude, I don't care. He's not my brother and I don't need to respect him. My brother has loooonnggg gone. My brother is a good person, and that guy is not him. He's just some fucking stranger that happen to be called as brother. but no, I tell you. My brother isn't there anymore, he lose by the fucking stranger. Hmm..... stop cursing, Pgie. Get hold on yourself!
Ngeee :) and P.S I'm much stronger person now. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

And today I chat with sis Jaba. YEP :) We're back with our usual routine. Weeee ^___^ Gosh, how I missed to talk to her in virtual world! hahahaha :) Well, yeah.. we do seeing each other every weekend but that's doesn't count lah. this one is different. hahahaha :)) When we chat in MSN, I feel like, you know, we're getting closer with each other ( even though we are closed ) hahaha :) Yeah, I feel like umm... talking face to face with her and yeah, seriously when I read what she type kan, I sometimes can listen to her voice as if she was talking to me and I also know how her tone is. hahahaha :) creepy ehh? I know.. But that's make it a lot realistic. hahaha :)) but maybe it because I got this huge tank of imagination and that's make me can hear her voice. hahaha :) Speaking of imagination, yesterday I watched bridge of Terabithia with my mum and I cried a lot hahahaha :D feel like watching it for the first time :) I think, I've watching the movie like 10 times or more. hahaha :) I just love the movie. and when I watched the movie kan, I learned few things about life and friendships. Leslie and Jess taught me to cherish my friendship and no need to care about what others think about how weird that friendship would look like, as long as we're happy, then just go on with it. And then, they both also taught me that gender doesn't matter in friendships. well, I know this since forever of course, but I just want to make reminder for myself though. hahaha :) And there are few quote from the movie which I really like which is;
Jesse Aaron "That's what Leslie Burke says. She told me to keep my mind wide open"
Ms. Edmond " Leslie Burke is right. Mind like yours wide open, you could create a whole new world."
Leslie Burke "My dad says the TV kills brain cells. " ( I kinda agree with this one )
                   " You are who you are - not your parents"
Jack Aaron "She brought you something special when she came here, didn't she? That's what you hold onto. That's how you keep her alive. "
Mrs. Myers "Be forewarned. If you download any essay off of the internet, you will be downloaded into detention."
and my favorite one is by Leslie Burke  "Just close your eyes, but keep your mind wide open." 
Right now, even just reading the quotations, my eyes is teary. hahahaha :D oh god~why~~~ hahahaha :) Leslie taught not only Jess, but me as well. She told me that when your mind is wide open, you can have anything you wish for, imagine things that seem impossible and brought it to lives. With mind wide open, we also can make our own world and no one else but us can control or destroy it. huh, this movie is the best Disney movie that I ever watch in my entire life. Now, movies all bored, everything about loves, fame and what-so-ever. I kind of missing the part of the movie where it shows how important Art in our life and how arts bring all the cartoon characters to life. hmm.... Tim Burton is my only hope now. Hopefully, he'll continue producing Art's movies :) So do to the director of Pirates of the Caribbean, harry potter too :)

These guys are my favorite since forever. hahahaha :) from chapter prelude, hell they caught my heart. hahahaahahha :) Milo always be my number one in my heart though, but if according to my personal interest, I think I like Quinn better and then Terri, and then Sammy, and last Hendrik and Milo :) hahahahahaha :D yeah, if you could read my Saving Chrystella McLaren, I pick my top 3 Seamus guy to join the Levedad on their adventurous journey :) hehehei :) Well, of course Hendrik and Milo will take part in the story too but not from where the real adventure begins. Hehehei :) And I try real hard to connect the Seamus boys character with their original characteristic in GH, Jaba's story. I just hoping that I won't wrote them until they came out to be different people. hahahaha :) I can't afford that when it happens later. ehehei :D and speaking of story, I post the Levedad's newest story today (haven't publish it yet la ) hahahaha :D And I've told Jaba to read it up but still I don't know what she thinks of it because she said, she's gonna review this saturday, 2 more days yaw! ahahahaha :D Uh, I can't wait! Please time come fast!! XDD And so, the latest story is also about the Levedad, the Seamus Boys and this time they will have adventure around America Country. The levedad, not all of them will taking part though. In this one, I want to focus more only on Jaba and Pgie and for my future story, Moon and Kevin will be the main character :) So, the title for my newest story is 
which tells about the two girls on a mission taking Moon's back to Laurencia safely before Erik Minions know about her wandering around America, without her guardian Kev. 
So, here is my cast in the story. ehehei :)

Notice Terri? Yeah, I put him again because I often described him as a good friend of Pgie, like in SCM, I make him as Myth Geeks like Pgie and they both pretty much open with each other though. Ekk... I know! I should have ask permission from the character owner first. ( jaba la, who else ) But I think it's too late now. hahaha :D Nah, hopefully she read this post later morning. hahahahaha :D so that, I don't have to ask her, and explained everything then, get killed. huahahaha XDDD
And yeah, Introducing my own character ( support character only la hahaha )
Asa Butterfield as Alias
Demi Lovato as Demetia
Kevin Mchale as Neal
Who are they? Well, just wait for the story to finish. hahahahahaahahaha :DDD
PS ; Do read Ghost Hunter Fics to know where I got all this character, alright?

Actually I got Chapter 9 and 10 to catch up with :)
I've been working on my ass out on Lev Lil Ad for the whole week 
and almost dropped dead the SCmclaren. hahahaha :D
But no, I didn't forget about it
whenever I open LLA, I'll open SCM as well.
Yalah, who knows kan
when I don't have Ideas on LLA, I can continue on SCM
I'm multifunction anyway?
hahahahahaha XD
just that I don't functioning very well lately
ekekeke :D
Just got stuff bothering my head,
Nah, this one, I'm not gonna write it up la
Like I said
It's more personal that you thought.
hahahahaha :))

So, I'm gonna end this post as usual, with prayers for protection.

Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray;
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host -
by the Divine Power of God -
cast into hell, satan and all the evil spirits,
who roam throughout the world seeking the ruin of souls.

Let Saint Michael guard us where ever we are
and deliver us from all evil
Pray that He will take a good care of us, mind and souls
so that we can keep on sing Praise to our only Father.
and keep our faith stronger 

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)