Confused ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜”

I don't know what's gotten into me lately but I just don't want people online to know that i'm a girl.
Don't get me wrong though. I love being a girl and i love dressing up and all that. I can't even go out without a simple make up on my face. And hell, i love my face because i find myself to be quite cute and good-looking hahahaha xD But it just well, let just say that i have masculine side in which I could only unleashed it online, well certain social network where no real-life people knows the real me. A place where i can freely cursed like a pirate without worrying about how it gonna affect my image as a girl. I know, girls do curse too but for me, they shouldnt curse too much, just okay-okay amount. 
And today there this people in my kiba's blog that tagging about the mun day and all that and it has gender in it. So i kinda told sis jaba that i would put batman as my gender and so she ask me why i want to hide my gender and so i told her like Because. Hahaha well, honestly.
Because i dont know. I'm confuse okay. Because there this one time i was thinking that maybe life be better if im a boy. I could help my parent in lots of things and they can trust me more doing things independently and i can protect them because being a girl, yes you can do all that but there's a limits. i don't know ehat i'm talking about hahaha 
Maybe im just confuse. I'm very easy confuse like this. At some point, i think that because i've been acting like myself more in front of sis jaba and maybe at some point she kinda judge me for ya know, obsess with cute girls just as much as i love guys, and now i dont feel like revealing my gender online because yada yada hahaha well, it actually because i've been behaving like a guy hahaha and uh, i don't know. i think i should take a break from tumblr. Probably because of all that many types of genders confused me already.