Sometime I Just Need Some Break :D

Annyeong, humanoid. Yes, as you can see clearly, I'm not getting back together with my long lost love, Inseok Hwang ^^ YEH~ he's now at Japan and I kinda falling in love with him again last two month if I'm not mistaken. hahaha :D Because I keep seeing him updating his twitter with his so freaking adorable faces. =.= soo... since I'm not really good in coping with cuteness, so I fell in love once again with him. Miahahaha XD
Oh ya, I want to apologize for not able to updating this blog. seems like I've been neglected it for quite sometimes now. hahahaha =.= Komenasaiyo~ But seriously, it just my life is pretty damn normal everyday I'm doing the same thing and repeating all of it again on the next day. hahaha :)
Uh.. just that my social life kinda upgrading a bit since now I'm pretty much talking more to my classmates and even some only talking in Twitter. ekeke :) Like ShockHui and KahJee~ in class, we're not even talking. hahaha but in twitter~ we seems like a very good friend. hahaha Oh YES.. they are a good friend and we have lots in common too. ekeke we all like Kpop~ OH YEH~ Maybe they just like me, too shy to talk face to face. Like Shock Hui, its really obvious that she's a shy typed. ekeke and I kinda call her SeongYeol instead of her name since she likes him and I think that makes us more closer hahahaha and for KahJee, she's a funny type. she loves to laugh. hahaha :D and I called her Joonie-wife. ekekeke XD yesh. and today she ask me to play badminton with them but Nah, I say no since I was already set my mind to shop at PBB and bought some Conan and ShinChan's book for desserts. kiahahahaha XD
and speaking of twitter, I have this one friend name Marjie. well, originally she's Jaba's friend (shizu-san) and she's really funny typed and hyper. hahaha :) and today, she told me that she's a fanfic writer but she's too shy to publish it publically in the net. ekeke so I told her lah, to let me read it. and yeah, she promised that she'll let me read it tomorrow :D I can't wait!! FOR SURE, she's a good writer!
And if she said she wanna read mine, I shall say NO. miahaha sound unfair right? But really... I'm not even finish with any of mine yet -.- too lazy mahh~ what to do? ekekeke

<---- he is my newest husband. hahahaha KYUZIZI~ that's what his fans call him and he's the leader of group call Infinite! yesh~ hahahaha XD well, my real infinite bias is not him actually hahaha it is actually MyungSoo but I don't know why am I suddenly like him. AHAHAHA :D
I'm not so new with Infinite of course but just newly I know their names instead of only MyungSoo. Hahahaha :DD Fudge me, right? HAHAHAHA
Okay, uhh... school is quite normal to me and my homework is piling everyday. hahahaha especially Statistic. ekekeke :D the only works that I manage to finish is ... uhh... I think... none. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA not funny I know. and right now, I'm supposely doing my homework but I decided to update my blog instead ekekeke XD
And ohh, looking at SungGyu face reminds me about my newest fanfic. ekeke YES, I'm writing new one. DON'T CRITIC ME! i know what I'm doing! hahahahaha XD well, this time its about me, jaba and infinite Miahahahahahahahahahahahahaha XDDDDDDDD well, i planned to write it ending to be sad but I don't know if I can though since I'm not really good in expressing it in words and I find it really hard to write hahahaha I'm scared it won't turn out good gahh!! what am I doing?!
I was just finish reading my own story. hahahaha and well, it kinda good for myself (of course la, I'm the one who write it HAHAHAHA ) and I think chapter one is quite short. Oh, I've told sis Jaba to read it and tell me if the chapter one is short or not but she didn't say anything about it though.... ...... maybe she just forgotten hahahaha oh well *shrugs*

and Oh, today Dence message me and ask me to go for a movie with her tomorrow. Well, as usual... I won't say no. =.= ekekeke even if I don't feel like it but it just hard... REALLY HARD for me to say NO. not just her, to ANYBODY! hahahahahaha if I say no, I would feel like... guilty for a week or so. hahahaha fudge me, right? haish...anyway, I wasn't going with her alone okay? thank goodness lalan and her dad was going here to my house and i told her to come with me tomorrow. hahahaha XD
Well, yes. I do have said that I dislike her for ignoring Pearl before this but you know, it just.. I don't know... I can't stay mad for long. It not like it gonna give me any credits to hate her or whatever. hahahaha :D no matter she do, she always is my sister somehow. and now, I just can hope the best for her :) ekekeke :DDD but yeah, I still can't forgive her what she had done to Pearl and how she's being disrespect to my granddad's funeral =.=' but who am I to judge her? I'm just a loyal servant .. :)
And... uhh.... Oh YAA!! I almost forgot! Another Action Figure of mine has arrive!!! WEEWOOOO~~~ this time I bought Bakuman action figure hahahaha I don't have any idea what anime that is but the nendroid is so freaking CUTE! actually I was aiming for Okumura Rin's action figure but out of stock. hahahahaha and yeah, when the package arrive, my mum got angry with me. Heh >.> and she even critic my action figure saying like "What will you do with this junk?" "All it do is wasting your money," "Aren't you to old for all this?" and some words I must not mention here. hahaha but it's really hurt my feeling somehow. The tones she's using, it's seem like she's really disagreeing with this hobby of mine. Well, I do admits that I am using lots of money to buy this stuff.

But come on. This is what I dedicated my life for. She's obviously know how deep is my love towards this kind of thing, towards anime, manga, doraemon, action figures, cute things.... but why must she.. haish... Isn't it not enough for her to stop me from achieving my childhood dream of becoming successful mangaka? and now she wants to stop my hobby? I know that I'm not even using my own money to buy those stuff but... come on... I'm repaying it by studying the stuff that she and dad ask me for and what am I getting if I stop? does she wants to see me go study everyday and study, study and study??? psh... I'll be crazy in no time. But seriously. this is what I really want and I know this may seems childish and trashy in her eyes but I've dream to do this since forever and at least, after crashing down my dream, AT LEAST La... she respect this weird hobby of mine. I'm not wasting money with some trash or junk like she said. I'm doing this because this is what I really want, what I've been wanting forever and only through this thing, I can chill myself and face the fact that I will never be a mangaka like I wish for. And this is what I want. I just wish she'll understand and respect my decision one day.
At least for once.
I've been doing a lot to please them both and this is only wish I have for now. If they both agreed to respect this hobby of mine. with all my heart, I shall drop my dream of being mangaka and learn what they want me to learn. I mean it. and if they still want to stop me from doing this, then... My life is over. I will have no reason to live. and maybe I will just live to please them.. maybe that what they want me to do.

OKAY! enough. hahahahahahaha XDDD
Oh look at the time! almost 11 :))
I shall retreat now since I still have assignments and few homework to deal with fuhh... first time, no tears. HAHAHAHA XD well, no reason to cry though. I'm just wish for my hobby to be respect :)
P.S : I'm seriously going to buy the Okumura twins' action figure even if I have to secretly buy it. Oh well, that is exactly what I'm going to do, PEACE OUT! XDD

and yeah, I'm being crazy for a moment there. HAHAHAHA enjoy my pics and my two top husband for now HAHAHHAHAHAHA :DDDD

 P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)