LIVING THE FUN LIFE FOR BEING A TEENAGERS

Aloha~ I'm back! wahh~ after a very long time I didn't update blog, I feel like I have abandoned it. Sorie, bloggy! Well, not much I want to talk about this time as I have not much extraordinary things happen. hahaha =D. well, maybe when I meet with Jiyong oppa next time, then i'll use the whole page to talk about it. LOL =D.

Well, as usual. My brother making mums angry again. And making me losing my mood to study. He never stop giving mum trouble. I thought he's already mature but dissapointedly I said, he'll never change. I hope he could be more mature and stop acting like kids. People who was the same age as him, had already plan their future and even they already start to look for

their own life. My brother are so different from everyone that I ever met and know. I wish my brother could do something good at least look for a job. whenever he hurt mum feeling, i really wish that i could stand up for mum and scold him. but i just couldn't do it because i have no courages to do so and sometimes, i even wish that i never have brother before. Well, i know I should do that but he give me to much pressure even that he didn't mean to give it to me. But as long as i see my mum hurt, i feel the pressure. I don't know what to do anymore. i just hope that i could talk to someone who could help me to cope with this problems. 

hahh! enough about the sad things. Well, today i have a very good laugh with my besties. they are so funny and for me, they are the funniest person in the world. i mean the second most. hahaha. ( because my first are my family ) They really got the guts. we talk about nonsense but still we have a lot of fun together. that is why i love them <3. my besties always manage to make me smile and forget about the bad things which happen in my life. sometimes, i wish i could spent more time with them. well, I am as 4 of us join the same clubs and activities at school. hahaha <3 sarange chinguya! 

This one is the most things that i hate today is that girl who was given a name as MIMI. she really piss me off. and of course val too. haiz! that girl never learnt a lesson. dasar perampas. I really hate her. not because she takes my besties' dreamboy but she always annoyed me. she annoyed everyone i think. even some of her friends doesn't like her. Ahhhh~ hate her. 4 of us hate her. hahaha =D picture of siwon and heechul. phiakk! so cutee.

So, the picture end this blog today ^^ see you people next time ^^

Fan- Epik High-

hehehei. on my first time of listening to this song, i'm kinda falling in love with it and i immediately online and search for the lyrics (in english) and then when i read the lyrics, i found that this song is very connected to me as you all know that i'm in love with celebrities which never know me. hahaha, so, just the lyrics then, you'll see what i mean =D enjoy ~ <3


fan - epik high




Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Oh baby don't you know, you don't even know my name

I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you

Oh so beautiful, your solo picture clutched in my hand

The heartbreak of my crazy love buried in the cheers of the world

You’re not even listening, you wouldn’t even know if I died

Even in your next life you will live without knowing who I am

I want you so bad and it’s too late to turn back

Even tonight I want to kiss you so I clutch my pillow tight



Today is our first meeting right?

Only you have this sort of dialogue

Again today I talk to your retreating figure

It’s always the same thing but still I give a nervous hello

Even though the whole world’s stops listening, I only need you to hear me

The further you are the hardened my heart becomes, please listen to me

Farther, and farther, fortune works wherever

Will I be able to see you? (Tell me)



Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Darling, why are you not smiling today?

It would be nice if it was not a big problem

I couldn’t look at your face filled with anxiety

It would be better if I was in pain but the impossibility of that brings regret

Hold me, the one who could respond to your question of “how are you?”

Can’t come close, can’t touch, you’re the one I can’t hold

I’m going to go meet you tonight in my dreams



Even if in my dreams everyone ridicules my love

Even though everyone says I am crazy and the entire world disappears

Babe you belong to me, but why are the worthless multitudes talking you away?

No, there is no way. I’ll make you see only me

I’ll give you everything, I’ll make your lips meet mine, I’ll go get the world and give it to you

I’ll make it so you can never leave me, I’ll keep you in my sunken heart

You are My star, I’m your no.1 fan

Baby please, take my hand



Oh! (Even if I can't have you)

Even if it’s only in my mind

(Even if I can't touch you)

Even if it’s only a meaningless dream

(Even if I can't talk to you)

Even if I hide and watch from far away

(You know I do)

I love you

(Even if you don't know who I am)



Boys and Girls in a crazy love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a stupid love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a meaningless love say oh! oh! oh!

Boys and Girls in a love like mine say oh! oh! oh! 

~ Saranghamnida ~

-i kinda like this song for the meaning. hehehehe. well, i knew this song from one of my Facebook friends and thanks to him, 규현-아들, 정말 감사합니다 !! hahaha =D


Saranghamnida- TIM


-Romanization-


Nappayo Cham Keu Dae Ran Saram..
Heo Rak Do Opshi Wae Nae Mam Ga Jyeo Yo
Keu Dae Ttaemune Nan Him Gyeob Gye Sal Go Man Inneun De
Keu Daen Mo Reu Chanayo

Arayo Na Neun Ani Ran Gol
Nun Kil Jul Man Keum Po Jal Got Op Tan Gol..
Ta Man Ka Keum Shik Keu Jo Keu Miso Yogi Nae Gae Do
Na Nwo Jul Sun Om Nayo
Pi Rok Sarang Eun Ani Ra Do..

On Jen Gan Han Bon Jeum Eun To Ra Pwa Ju Gyet Jyo
Han Op Shi Twi-e Seo Ki Da Ri Myon..
Oneul Do Cha Ma Mo Tan Ka Seum Sok Han Ma Di..
Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida

Oje Do Chaek Sang-e Yop Deu Ryo
Keu Dael Keu Ri Da Cham Deu Ryot Na Pwa Yo
Nun Neul Ddo Bo Ni Nun Mul-e No Ka Heu To Jyo Itton
Shi Rin Keu Dae Irum Gwa
Hot Win Param Pun In Nak So Man..

On Jen Gan Han Bon Jeum Eun To Ra Pwa Ju Gyet Jyo
Han Op Shi Twi-e Seo Ki Da Ri Myon..
Oneul Do Cha Ma Mo Tan Ka Seum Sok Han Ma Di..
Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida

Ije Nomu Na Do Nae Gyen Ik Sok Han
Keu Dae Twi Mo Suem Eul Pa Ra Po Myeo
Heu Reu Neun Nun Mul Chorom So Ri Om Neun Keu Mal

Keu Dael Sarang Hamnida




-ENGLISH-

So bad..a person like you..
Why did you take my heart away without my permission?
Im living with so much difficulties
But you dont even know.

I know.. that its not me
That im not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes cant you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

Yesterday, I layed my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

As I look back at your image
which I got so used to it
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.

 

-HeartBeat-

- SUDDENLY THIS SONG HAUNT ME -

 -DEDICATED TO SOMEONE-

[romanji version]

Can you feel my heartbeat?

Heartbeat... Heartbeat...
Niga jitbalbgo ddeonan simjangi ajikdo ddwigo Isseo geugeotdo neoreul hyanghae

Ijeuryeogo amuri noryeokhaebwado
Saengro-un saramdeuleul amuri man-nabwado 
Gyesok dasi, ddo dasi 
Dolaseomyeon wae ni saenggagman naneunji
An hallae geumanhallae 
Amuri nae jasineul dallaego ddo dallae
Bwado amu soyongi eobseo nae
Simjangi gojangna beoryeosseo wae

Wae ajikdo naneun ireon babo gateun jiseul haneunji
Meorirok algetneunde gaseumeul wae ji mamdaerokji
Neoreul jabdo nohjireul mothae jigeumdo niga naui gyeote 
Itneun geot gatae ibyeoleul midji mothae

Nogool mannado maeum sok hangoseun yulji Mothago gaesok ni jaril biwonwa

Ol liga eomneundae oljido moreundago wae Minneunji gaseumi wae mareul an deunni

Listen to my Heartbeat...
It’s beating for you 
Listen to my Heartbeat... 
It’s waiting for you
Ggeunnatdaneun geol ajikdo molla 
Wae ireoneunji ihaeha anga
Listen to my Heartbeat...
It’s beating for you 
Listen to my Heartbeat... 
It’s waiting for you
Neoui saenggake ajikdo apa 
Gaseumi ddwil ddae mada saenggagna

Ijeoya hae ijeoya salssu isseo 
Jiweo beoryeoyaman hae an geureomyeon naega jugeo
Stop trying to get her back, she ain’t coming
She’s gone, gotta be moving on 
Gasseo oji ana geunyeon ni saenggag haji ana

Geunyeoneun naega gidarineungeol 
Jeonhyeo moreun chae jal salgo isseo
Geunyeoneun imi nal ijeosseo wanjeonhi jiweosseo
Wae naneun geureokhe mothani

Listen to my Heartbeat...
It’s beating for you 
Listen to my Heartbeat... 
It’s waiting for you
Ggeunnatdaneun geol ajikdo molla 
Wae ireoneunji ihaeha anga
Listen to my Heartbeat...
It’s beating for you 
Listen to my Heartbeat... 
It’s waiting for you
Neoui saenggake ajikdo apa 
Gaseumi ddwil ddae mada saenggagna

My heart is beating...
Faster and faster
My heart is beating...
Faster and faster
My heart is beating... 
Faster and faster
My heart is beating... 
Faster and faster

[english version]

Can you feel my heartbeat
the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it’s beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don’t want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it’s no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i’m holding on to you and can’t let go.
it still feels like you’re next to me.
i can’t believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can’t open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there’s no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn’t my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you
don’t i know that it’s over. i don’t understand why i’m like this
listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don’t, i’ll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain’t coming
she’s gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won’t come back. she doesn’t think of you.

she doesn’t know that i’m waiting for her, she’s doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can’t i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it’s beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it’s waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster
my heart is beating faster and faster 
my heart is beating faster and faster 
my heart is beating faster and faster 

I Surendder In A Game Of Love But I Find Real Friendship

   Good Evening everyone! Long time i didn't write here, heh? hahaha XD. I miss my blog too. I want to write but i feel soo lazy to do so. Well, yeah. I have new boy now. hahaha. meet GiKwang. LOL. <3.He's kinda cute right? hehehe. I KNOW! thats make me feel in love~ 
   That is just for my introduction. hahaha =D. hmmm, yhea. As you know, I like Changhyun right? ahahaha. thats what i want to talk about today. Changhyun.. Changhyun..Changhyun. hahahaha... i should write this last week as i know this matter last week. hahaha :D. Its all about Changhyun is in love with someone else LOL! Thanks God I already forget about him and stop hoping that he is mine. LMAO! i laugh at it. really-really hard as i know that someone very very well. hahahahahaha ^___^. I knew about this from my besties. Oh well, im happy to know this. hahaha so that i can completely let go of him. YAYY!! I have my Kwang now. LOL. what? you said, what about Jiyong and the others? They still mine. nothing to worry about. hahaha. but for now, im more to Kwang. hahahhahaha >___0.

    What else ha? hmm. oh ya! Fiona wanted to tell me something that can make me faint. but till now, she haven't told me anything. I'm waiting for the books as she said that she would write about it in that book. can't wait to know. hahahaha =D. thats the other things. hahaha. arrr.. homework? as usual. i had them all. and they are getting more and more. the teachers never stop giving me homework. yhea. my own fault. ahahah. laziness is conquering me. i really really want to change my habits you know. avoiding online for the whole days. and maybe for a month. but i just can't i don't know why. well, for sure, i blame Facebook for that. hahahahaha =D i hate it but still i can't avoid it. 


  Oh! happy part. and of course totally my favourite parts. hahaha ^^. I have all my besties back and that is the happiest things that ever happen in my life. well, for my friendship. 4 of us is getting along very well and i hope this will be last forever. hahahaha =D as you can see in the images below, Dence is park Bom, Valyie is Sandara Park, Fion is Chaerin and Me is Minzy!! i hope that our friendship will be as fun as 2nE1's.

I think thats all for now. i will write again soon.  ^^ Adios~

Good Friday. haha xD (Late)

  Happy Belated Good Friday. Hahaha ^^ Sorry for the late wished. I didn't realize the time as it move so fast! Haiz. The more faster the time, the shorter my holiday will be =___=;. 
    Today, my cousin from Sibu came to my house. You can see her picture there( in the middle). Her name is Ebi. Well, i don't know her real name YET. But i will know A.S.A.P. haha ^^ Right now she's watching Trick Or Treat with Bulan. A very good movie to watch at this time. hahaha.
    Well, I have a story to tell here. hahah ^___^. Its about my Kekantoian. hahaha.. i wish i never wrote about Changhyun here and because i did so, now his friend know it T____T. I made a promise with her for not telling Changhyun about this and i trust her. ehehe. Hopefully she can kept the promise. When she said this, i was just like "OMG! how did she know?" ahaha ^^.Well, i explained everything to her that i don't have feeling to that Changhyun anymore as i giving up. haha ^^. he don't like me anyway. he likes my Bestfriend. which friend? Let it be a secret. hahahahahahaha ;D. Okay, enough about that.
        My grandpa is still not in very good condition. Well, last night, my omma and the others thought his going to leave us all. but fortunately he have a very strong spirit which make him could stay more longer. ^^. that the happy news. Today, i sat there to accompany him. and we have a very nice talk and he told me that he catched ikan ketapah. then we laugh at that. Then, we took a picture together. That is the bestiest part ever. Well, i'm so going to miss that. Huh! 
       I think this is all for now. I want to watch Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak. hahaha ^___^ right!




See You Later Alligator ^___^

<-- This Changhyun is cuter. hahaha. Like people always said, Original one is better that the non-original ^___^ xD

Homework is True Killer

Hi again! Hah! long time no see. i want to write last night but i don't know what to write. Today also i don't know what. Haha! Well, there's nothing special going on today. Just like the other ordinary day and my homework is getting more and more. I'm going to be very hypertension after this. Haiz! my teachers never stop giving me homework. Well, I don't blame them for that because its all my own fault anyway. I'm too lazy to do my homework. haha! I don't hate my homework it just that i don't know how to do it especially addmath, chemistry and physic. In class, YES! i do listen to what the teachers teaching. but after i arrived home, i will forget every single things that i've learn on that day. Hmmm.. i wonder..haiz! i'm having headache right now because of too much wondering..

     Talking about homework. I always wonder, why my friend can finish up their homework while i need a very long time to finish my homework even the homework is very easy to do? hmmmmm...my friend kan, they always finish their homework. Well some of them did only half of it. but still its okay. at least they do right? but me, i don't do anything. At home, i pretend to not having any homework at all. HAiz! sometimes, i really hate myself. And yeah, i blame facebook because it make me addicted to it and make me sleep late everyday. second things that  i hate about facebook is, they have a lot of interesting games and all the games is like a drugs to me. once i played, i never ever stop play it again.. Sound very dangerous eh? hmmm..scary..

          And once again, back to main topic, homework.. homework. I know homework is good as it can help us improve our weaknesses in a subject e.g, addmath. yeah. addmath is the best example. On my first time in learning addmath, i think addmath is very easy to learn but now, urghh! its killer subject. I don't think i can pass my addmath in SPM next years. T____T. I never do any addmath work. In class, i sleep. At home, I Online. When i realize that online is only wasting my time, i feel that i've been fool by the internet and so Facebook. I'm so stupid. Why don't i use the time where i spend to online with doing a revision and do my homework? very very stupid! 

          

I think this is all for now. Maybe if i have mood to write again next time, i'll write la. haha ^^ so, wish me luck! hopefully i can finish all my homework in time and never waste time in Facebook again! Last but not least, HOMEWORK IS A TRUE KILLER

 Thank YOU.

Pgiederyck