Happy 1st Aniversary Bloggy! hahaha :D

Happy First Birthday Dear Bloggy! hahaha :D i was so surprise when i saw the date and my first post (last year post) hahaha :) i never knew today was the day i started my blog! hahaha :) whoa! can't believe it, its been a year. i think we have shared a lot of things, right bloggy? hehehe :) yeah, i wish you real person so that we could celebrate your special day with cakes and maybe a games. hahaha :) whaa~ i just can't believe it. my baby turns 1 today :) anyway, bloggy is the only person who know and understand me very well :) i just love bloggy so muchy! hehehehe :D i'm so excited right now! hahahaha :D

enough of excitement. ehehe :) anyway, 9 more days left and the christmas is here! wohoo~ well, i haven't buy any present for my dearest yet because i haven't went for christmas shopping. hopefully i can go by this week because next week, my cousins from labuan will come here to celebrate together with us. in fact, the whole family will gathered here this year. and all 5 of my mum's siblings will gathered together for the first time! this is the best christmas ever baby! anyway, my dad won't be around because hs boss don't give him any christmas holiday. well, i'm not quite dissapointed about that because its almost every year he won't celebrating christmas with us all. anyway, i wish him a very good christmas! heeheh :D talking about everyone will be here soon, i guess Phoebe and Isaac won't be here. so do Chyi and her family, i think. but i really hope that they all comes and celebrate this once a year special day. Christmas is totally an awesome day because this is the only day i can meet all my cousins and aunts and uncles gathered together :) just that, i really wish Phoebe is here with us. hehehe :) a little bit lonely without her. 

 ermm.. what else? oh yeah! i got my own little christmas tree. hahaha :) its just a small plastic pine tree but i really love it. hahahaha :) i put some empty boxes that i already wrapped under it so that it looks more real. hehehe :) i guess my christmas spirit this year is very high! hahahaha XD i'm just so excited to see my whole family comes. i can't wait to hug and give present to each other YAW! hahaha :) to bad Santa don't come to Asia, if he does, i would let him stay and celebrate it with us all. ngahahaha XD.

my wish for christmas? umm.. well, i have 12 christmas wish for myself, families and friends :) so, here are my 12 christmas wishes :]


1. i wish my family will stay blessed, happy and healthy.
2. i wish Phoebe and Isaac will celebrate christmas will us all.
3. i wish my friends will have a blast christmas celebrations
4. i wish i can have LG cookies or maybe LG icecream ^^
5. i wish i can have iPhone :)
6. i wish i can have Canon or maybe Nikon or Lumix camera :)
7. i wish i can study hard and smart next year
8. i wish my grandpa will healthy as before.
9. i wish me and my friends won't lost contact
10. i wish i can get good results for SPM
11. i wish i can makes my family proud of me.
12. i wish my brother will change and be mature.


hahaha :) so, thats my 12 wishes and hopefully it all can come true ;) heehee. anyway, right now, my brain is kinda blank. so, i think, if i have the mood to online later, i'll write again. so, adieu :)

so, thats it for today :) enjoy Younggi pretty face all!  :)

P.s : let your smile coverr your tears :)

The Same New Day :)

Annyeong, everyone! hahaha :) cute kan, the dog? yea.. i know! that is one of my favourite dog breed, Maltese. yepp :] i have one myself, i named her Chubby :] but she's old already. umm..talking about dogs, its been a while i didn't play with my doggies. *blaming facebook* haha :) oh, FYI, i don't play facebook anymore. i gave it to my sis Ina. i don't like facebooking anymore beside i don't have anything to do there. facebook games? neah, i'm going to abandoned it. hehehe :) well, i'll be facebooking again whenever my mood striking me again :) other account? umm.. maybe going check and approve request only de :) to be honest, i'm sick of facebook. i hate facebook. hahaha :D maybe because i've been to addicted to it before. i hate it when i've become very addictive. i guess, i need to control myself from blogging to or else, i'm gonna hate blogging as well. who knows? anything can happen. hahaha :D

 And yeah, last time when i was busy looking for photo kan, i found this mr.cardboard name Danbo. he just too adorable! i want him! hahaha :D Danbo is a figure doll that we can use as a model for photographing. hahaha :) i don't know how to explain de. anyway, i'm in love with him for now. hahaha :D i wish Miri got sell this little adorable cardboard figure doll. hahaha :) if got pun, must be very expensive as he is the most wanted for the time being. everybody want him. hahaha :) so, i wish he could give me the heart that he hold to me! hahaha :D I LOVE YOU DANBO CHAN!            

                      
on my last post, i did mention that i don't have girl ulzzang favourite. teehee :D i just found my favourite and that is Hong Young Ki. she and hyuk min are my favourite ulzzang for the time being. hahahah :) and they both born on 1992. hmm..hmm.. i wish they become couple de. LOL XD anyway, they are awesome and both playful and photogenics and funny :) actually i know Younggi before i know HyukMin. hahaha :) and i know the word ulzzang after i become Shu-I's fans. teehee :) and i know YoungGi from TV shows call Pretty Boys and Girls. which there i found my second ulzzang love, Park TaeJun. hahahaha :D wait wait! doesn't mean i like Younggi i like girl ha! NO NO! i'm adoring her cuteness. thats all. hahaha :D please understand that ^^. anyway, Younggi call herself as the nation pig. LOL i don't know why but i think that nickname just as cute as her. hahaha :D and she also the mascot for the Pretty Boys and Girls :) and i also found that she have eye surgery because she wanted to have the double-eye lids. well, to make her cuter of course. anyway, that is so acceptable. hahaha :) love her and HyukMinnie! hope they both can success in ulzzang world and always be the prettiest in my heart ^^

and today my mum and i got into a little fight because i accidently left the room keys inside the locked door. hahaha :D well, the one who lock the door is mum herself. well, i give up because i don't want to fight with her. hahaha :D but then, she manage to get the keys, i don't know how but for sure, she really creative. hmm..hmm.. my mum is a super mum. hahaha :D and this evening, i went to Emart to repair my phones. when i arrive there kan, i saw one of the vege seller wear the same Polo tshirt as mine. i was like "OMG! twins!" hahahaha XD anyway, my phones got nothing wrong with it just that i think the charger is the main problems. hahah :D so, i guess i just need to buy myself a new charger :) anyway, i like the gif. photo of me and hyukmin. LOL looks real. LMFAO! i wonder if hyuk min himself look at it, what would he think? hahaha :D i think he must said "crazy fans" LOL XD yeah yeah yeah, i'm crazy. crazy of you. LOL XD true la bah~ hahaah XD wahh~ how i wish that photo is true. LOL holding hands lagi~ haahhaah :D never will happen de. even when the world dooms. haahahaha :DD

so, i guess, this is goodbye for now. i have nothing else to talk about. hahaha :D beside, i really need to go to sleep as right now its almost 12 a.m. teehee :D so, be seeing you guys in the next post! adieu. so i let my photo and hyukmin to end this very post :)

P/s : i love my blog new look hahaha :)

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Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Arigatou for reading!

God Bless YOu!

My Dearest Ulzzang Baby :)

I suddenly remember about my Park's Brother. haha :D yepp HyungSeok and TaeJun. teehee :) No.. i don't forget them. well, at least not completely forget about them. hahaha :) anyway. they seem to be as hot as usual. and i found that HyungSeok got girlfriend already! Wohoo! chukae! *clapclapclap* haha :) TaeJun? urmm.. i've heard that he had girlfriend too just that i can't confirmed it yet. no solid evidence ma. hahaha :) so,  i just use this opportunity to congratulate both TaeJun and HyungSeok for being a very good model for Aboki and as well as being ulzzang. Oh Yea! and i'm proud to be their fans :) well, if they read this post la. hahaha XD. i love their fashions but too bad i'm a girl, i can't dress like them. hahaha :) so, i just looking for ulzzang yeoja :) for now, my favourite ulzzang is OBVIOUSLY my kang hyuk min. hahaha :) ulzzang girl? ermm.. i don't think i have one but if Minzy is ulzzang, then, there i have one. but unfortunately, she just too cute to be ulzzang. ngahahaha XD 

He just to adorable to be true! KYAHH! i wish i have boyfriend as hot as him :D hahaha :) but i guess, that not going to happen. LOL :D because there is nobody, i mean NO BODY is hotter as him! hahaha :) anyway, hopefully i can found one, not exactly like him, but a little bit like him. if exactly like him.. i think i better find TaeJun, himself. LOL XD okay. enough talking about TaeJun. ha? Hyung Seok? nope. not going to talk about him because to be honest, i don't know anything about him. hahaha :) i just knew that he was a brother of Park Hyung Jun (shu-i).

while i search for Hyuk Min's photo, i found a lot of funny photo of him. so, i conclude that, hyuk min is a funny guy :) i mean, happy-go-lucky type :) and he also very friendly type of person because one of his photo his friends. well, yep :) he does have a lots of friends :) and i think a girlfriend too :) oh yea, he had taken a lot of photo together with other girls but i don't think they are his girl because the way they took it show that their relation is just a friend or maybe close friend but not special one * i wish* hahahaha :)) so, i guess, thats all for now. because after Alisa's end, i'm going to follow my mum to the post office to pay the bills XD so, adieu :D

One Better Day :)

Annyeong everyone! today is the 2nd weeks of the holiday in December. hahaha :) yeahahaha! 3 more weeks baby and there the SPM YEAR! OMG hahaha! anyway, do you notice my biggy spec? haha :) i just bought it last friday if i'm not mistaken. at toysRus, Parkson. hehe :) its look cute just that i can't use it when going shopping. hahaha :D so, yesterday was one better day for me because i have a very good laugh with my dearest sista! hahaha :D yepp. as usual la i know but just a better day for me because i really have go through a very tough day before that ^^ anyway, i want to personally thanks to my sista, Jon and Ina for making me laugh as usual XD. and last saturday, i had fun with my dearest jaba and sis Inut and also sis Jon and bro Jon. hahaha :) we watch horror movies together *saturday night is our movie night* but me and dear jaba make fun of the ghost.we laugh at the ghost. hahaha :) the ghost is scary but the story line is very easy to figure out. hahaha *with our high-imagination* hahaha :D

and like i said, yesterday i have fun with sis Jon and Ina but then sis Jon want to watch her favourite movie so there just me and sis Ina. we play my webcam. hahaha :) *showing that we all photogenics type* hahaha :) there a lot of funny photo's of ours but yeah, i pick the best, which show that sis Ina didn't notice that i've clicking the snap button while she busy looking for her pimples  then she notice, she laugh like a banshee. even banshee themselves will get scared if they heard her laughing. ekekeke :D anyway, we have fun, thats what really matter. ehehe :) well, its been a week she didn't come home actually because her husband came here, to miri but already go back to Labuan because of the work he had. oh yeah, her wedding day is postpone i think ^^.because as i can see, her husband is a very busy man and i know its hard for him to find a very suitable day for him to rest and spend time with his beloved wifey~ and yesterday also, i found that sis Ina brought Shawny to met her in laws hahaha :) and she said that Shawny become super active because there got little kid who almost the same age with him. hahaha :) i can imagine.

that is just one of my random pics :) i just took it just now. hahaha :) anyway, thats new one from me. and i don't have anything else to share about. oh yea, just one more things. now, i'm addicted to Katy Perry and Ke$ha's Songs. i like to hear Fireworks, Your Love is My Drug, BackStabbers and Blah Blah Blah, We R Who We R :) i do like Like A G6. hahaha :) i don't know why but for FireWorks, i love the lyrics because it give me strength to keep living ^^. hahaha :) and the song make me made a sentences that i make for my life motto : "ignites your light and burst your color like a fireworks" hehehe :)






so, thats all for now. if i got another things to share, i'll write again soon :)
to my dearest bloggy , sometimes i feel like you the one who gets me, you're my bestfriend, Bloggy :)
so, here i post a photo of me and my dearest hyuk min :) hahaha :DD cute neh? hahaha XD i know! anyway enjoy :) CL -annyeong, goodbye, adios!* hahaha XD

God, Please Hear Me Calling Your Name

i don't know why i keep feeling broken. i can't figure it out and this stupid feeling always surrounds me and make me..hmm.. i wish i know how it make me feel like. i really wish i can go somewhere else right now and run away from all this misery. i wish i know how to drive so that i can bring myself away from this area and how i wish i have a lots of money so that i could use it to buy myself a plane ticket and away from this state, away from everyone, away from everything. how i wish alien come and abducted me and turns me into alien and deleted all my memories, pain and feeling that i have. i hate to have it. how i wish i can connect my brain to this lappy and delete every memories that i hate like i deleted all the broken files in this lappy. and how i wish there the most wanted murder suddenly appear infront of me right now and stab me 100 times and cut me into pieces because i think its better than being hurt in the heart. how i wish there a group of vampires come and bite me and tear me into hundreds part. i hate to live. i don't want to live this life any longer. i do have thinking of suicide but i'm too scared to do so. that is why i wish there could be someone who can kill me. but i don't think God let me die at this very moment because this is His test. He want me to find the solution, myself. how i wish i can. Oh God, forgive me. i don't think i can do this, i don't think i have the guts to survive in this test. i just want to give up. i give up in life, dear God. I'm sorry. i just can't take this any longer. i know, giving up is not the solution but i just can't take it anymore. i have enough. too much. i can't take it anymore. but still, i can't leave my mother alone. she had more too worry than me. she have to face my stupid brother everyday, who breaks her heart every night and day. the one who burden her and dad. how i wish i can met a fairy and the one first things that i would wish for is, " i wish he wasn't my brother." but still, even though, he always hurt mum's and dads. i just can't hate him. he is the one of the last person that i ever hate. i don't know, God. i wish you could give me a sign. a sign that i can use to survive this life. a sign that could help me get through all this. but i guess You don't get me either. You don't understand what i want and what i really need and maybe You just don't care about me because You care about those who serve and faithful to You only. i know. i'm not a good believers and i don't deserve Your attention. but i hope, You could spend some times on me and put me in the easier level of life or maybe you could guide me how to be a better person and how to get through this level strongly. i'm weak, God. i'm weak.. i feel like i have nobody and yeah, i do have mum, dad, brothers.. but they don't get me. they don't care about me at all. i'm invisible. they do buy and gives everything i need, shelters, clothes, food and loves. but it just not enough, oh God! i'm calling your name! give me sign! give me sign! why are you doing this to me? what is your purpose? what should i do? what is your reason? what do you want me to do? i have to pretend that i'm okay in front of my mum so that she won't notice that i'm hurt. i don't want to be the one who makes her cry because i want to be the one who shed her tears. the more she hurt, the more i feel it. the more my family hurt, it hurt me twice. God, please make me stronger to face all Your test. if you can't give me clue on what your purpose is, just give me more strength so that i could get through all this and put aside all the despairs. i will continue lives this life for my parent. i only lives because of the both of them. hope you could hear my prayer.

Fun-Tiring Day :D

hahaha :D ohayou, tomodachi-des! its 12 :26 a.m and i'm feeling so damn sleepy right now but i want to share what have happen to me today (refering to 6th december) Its been a while i didn't laugh so hard and squezzing my brain like today. LOL XD and i also never been this tired. hahaha :D today, uncle spone and uncle john is playing riddle with me and my dearest sis. its just so fun. hahaha. there one question that took time to answer because the question is a little bit of sound like dirty. LOL :D but the answer is way no dirty. hahaha :D we all answer what we thinking and all nonsense. but at last, we figure it out. hehehe :D my uncles promise to give us RM 500 (100 per person) because we all can answer his riddle. LOL  :D but actually, i'm not really wanting the money, and yeah, i want it but truthfully, i don't mind if he didn't give us. hehehe :D

 and what tiring me today is me, sis jon and sis ina went for Arabia and HipHop dance class. LOL :D sound ridiculous and impossible, right? but its true. hahaha :D i don't really like the Arabia because i don't think i'm suit the dance. LOL XD i can't shake my hips like Shakira or Beyonce. hahaha and my hips isn't that pretty. hahahaha XD anyway, i love the hiphop class because it really fun and a lot of dance move i got today. hahaha :D i love the last move. i wish i could show you here but i'm too shy. LOL :D and maybe tomorrow we'll go again. hehehe :D and right now, all my body are in pain. i feel like already being crash by a train and being hit by the bus full with 56 people in it. LOL XD especially my arm. and my waist hahahaha XD it may tiring but it is fun and healthy ^^. you people should try too :DD *promoting*

hmm... what else? aaa...okay. i'm out of idea. LOL XD oh ya, about my homework, i haven't start doing any of it and thats mean, i'm going to be the real DeadMeat next year. wish come true LOL XD hopefully, i can get away from my lovely lappy and the seduction of Facebook so that i could do some of my homework. at least, i finish my BM and English Essays. that would make me very very very happy de. hahaha :DD and on wednesday, i'm going to see dr.Wong again to check up. hopefully nothing wrong. hehehe. scared de. who knows? and i hope that the dr will said that i have improvement. LOL XDD oh ya! did i ever told you that i'm allergic to chicken and eggs? YEAH! SUCK! hahaha :D but i have to deal with it. when i heard about this, i was like "WTF?! what am i gonna eat?" hahaha :D all this time, i thought i was only allergic to seafood, dust, hot weathers and blueberry. i was so freaking shock~ and now, i'm gonna be vegetarians. but being vegetarians is awesome because eating vege is healthy. hahaha :D and its been almost 3 weeks i didn't eat chicken and eggs and i can't eat KFC T^T. ahahahaha :DD

Long time didn't post Teukie's photo here :D i think i never post his photo. here la. only facebookers always see his pretty face. LOL xD. anyway, i think this is goodbye because my body is really in real pain right now and i really need a rest. tomorrow i have to wake up early and forcing myself to do my homework if i don't want to be dead by next year. hahaha :D so, i guess this is goodbye. so, i let photo of my Teukie's to end this post because i think HyukMinnie need to rest. ngahahaha :D so, see you guys next time and enjoy :DD

cute hoh? this is my favourite photo of him :D LOL XD i just can't take my eyes of him but unfortunately he can easily take off his eyes over me. LOL :D anyway, love him till death call me. hahaha :D so, good morning Asia~ saranghamnida, Korea, Aishiteru, Japan, I love You, English and SAYA CINTA KAMU, MALAYSIA!


p/s : let your smile cover up your tears :D


annyeong ! and gomawo for reading :))


God Bless All Of You Always :P

Counselor Of Love :]

Annyeong and Ohayou everyone! again, i wrote my blog early in the morning. only today is earlier. its 12 : 25 a.m and i'm still unsleepy yet :] maybe a little sleepy. teehee :] today, sis Jaba will sit for her 3rd exam. best of luck to her. hopefully she can do her very best! and yesterday may not my best day ever but still everyone is arrive! dearest Sis Ina is home! woohoo :D dearest boboy and family also here :] everyone is here except for my Labuan's cousins, my unseen phoebe and long-lost Chyi :( anyway, its been really fun because i'm having a nice laugh today. yeehiee! i help sis Ina cooking cooking just now. she cook the crabs. haha :D i only help her with the onions and washed the stensils. anyway, its been really fun. its been a while i didn't cooking. ngahahaha :D

as usual, i use my all free time with facebooking. and i did a little of my homework. hehehe.. only did the introduction. LOL XD i really wish i could rid out of my lappy and start doing my homework. it is now or never~ hahaha :] and yeah, today i've been emm..counsellor. hahaha :D counselor of love~ i've been the middle person of Dence and Christyan. they got fight last time and they both told me what happen. Dence didn't tell me the whole story and i totally blaming Christyan for everything but then, Christyan told me every single things that really happen, there i change my mind *sorry dence* and i advice Christyan, don't piss off easily when they are fighting because girls are very sensitive, one simple hurtful words can brought to tears, depression and misunderstand. haha :) trust me, i know because i'm a girl. well, actually. i blame them both for  in my opinion, they both are guilty. why? lets start with dence. as i was told, she was suppose to tell the 3rd party to leave her alone and stop telling the bad things about her boyfriend which that is refer to Christyan. but, in fact, what she did is she chatting nicely with the one who has been talking badly about her BF and ignoring her BF chat. wohoo *idk if this is true. cuz i wasn't there. this is what i've been told* and then whe Christyan piss off, she blame him for being overly protective and there, let me ask you, who should be blame? okay, now, Christyan. he shouldn't to easily piss off like that. he should ask Dence calmly and ask her why she talk to that 3rd party nicely? then, he shouldn't be so jealous and mad like that because he really need to take care of Dence heart. and i heard that he's the one who apologize first. so, who should apologize first actually, him or Dence? if in my opinion, Dence should be first because when her BF told her to stop chatting, she should stop and..inversely, i also think that Christyan is right, he's the one who should apologize first. hahaha :] because he really hurting Dence feeling.. well, for the conclusion, they both should be blame ^^

Well, not saying that i'm professional pr anything  in this love things because truthfully, i never been in love. only in crushing level. hahaha :)) but still, they always look up on me whenever they have anything or needing advice. not just them but most of my friend do. is that mean, i'm a good advisor? hohohoho.. maybe but i don't think i am because how can i be a good advisor while i can't even advise myself to be good? and how can i tell people to be strong while i'm not that strong? haiya. hahahaha :) stupid. anyway, i feel so relief after hearing that Dence and Christyan is back together again ^^. and honestly, i did my very best to squeeze my brain to let off the ideas and perfect words to give to mr.staynner just now. hahaha :) and dence, i don't have chance to advise her for she's not really seem to want to talk about it. its okay :) not my problems. ngahahaha :D in any case, i really do love to help when people in trouble. and i believe, i can give them my bestiest advice of all to help them change their life because i may can't change my own but if i did this, i may change theirs and so that they won't have to suffer like i do :) their happiness means mine too. just that, i may be envy of them later on. teehee :]

I did search for HyukMin new photo and there i saw his new hair is black~ wohoo! and i think i change my mind on dye-ing my hair. ngahahaha :) i want to stay naturally. LOL :DD in fact, as my sis Ina said, i'm still a school girl and i don't need to dye my hair yet. so, i guess she's right ^^. so, i guess thats all for now as the weather is rainy outside and my eyes are getting heavier. ekeke :D its nice to sleep on rainy days like this. especially night. sooo cold. just love the weather, hahaha :) my mum is already sleep very soundly beside me. i can hear her snoring. LOL :DD ermm..this week, i'm going to make an appointment with the skin specialist. i'm so freaking nervous. LOL :D anyway by this week also, my sis Ina is going to be marry and i think i've mention about this few times already. hahaha :) i just can't believe it she's getting marry soon. i'm so EXCITED! ngahahaha :D i'm looking forward for her weds hopefully she can find the happiness that she's always been wanting for with the one that she loves with all her heart. ^^. 

so, before i ended this post, once again i want to wish my sis Jaba and all her friends a good luck in STPM.. may God always be with them! Unnie, Hwaiting!

and here the Alice9 to end my post. 

Arigatou for reading 

p/s : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears.