I'm Not A Multi-Tasker. I'm Sorry T^T

Well, hello!
Mrs. Lerman is in the house! ohohohohohohoh  Yeah, I'm officially married with Logan Lerman, mentally. hahahahahaha XD  Never mind if I just mentally marrying him, as long as I'm his 'wife' hahahahaha :) Everything isn't matter. ekekekeke  Oh well, what can I say? I'm somewhat Extreme Delusional Kiddo :)  I can't deny that fact. ekekekeke :) Besides, I'm single, he's single, nothing wrong with that, eh?  I'll 'divorce' him after he find someone that can take care very good of him later hahahahaha  As one of the Ten Commandment said;

Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's goods.

Hehei :) As long as he is single, then he's mine :0)

I wonder if he would smirking that way when he read this post. If he do, Oh God! He would looking so freaking adorable!!!!!  


hahahaha :) I'm just so friggin in love with this guy ;) Too bad, Just too freaking bad... He's not mine (  NOOO~~!! ) hahahaha :)  Oh well, Reality hurts :)


Enough about my husband, Let's go straight to the point! hahahaha :) ( Actually, I almost forgot what I wanna actually tell in this very post ) 

Okay, actually I just wanna tell that I'm going to postponed doing my reviews on Ghost Hunter : The Origin & The Renewal of Vampires Prophecy because I can't multi-tasking and my brain is kind of slow a bit. hahahaha    I won't deny it. It is seriously slower than my internet connection inside my room hahahahaha XD Yeah.. Besides, I want to focus on my current story which I was telling in my previous previous post, I was doing the Short Story for Ghost Hunter. My brain department doesn't want to cooperate with me and I'm now in deep dilemma    My brain and me always getting in this small fight about the idea. Seriously, I rarely write the story like I've imagined when I'm taking my shower. I've been imagining the whole story and I sometimes, had imagined the end part of it. But then, when it is come to write, there my brain messing with the whole plot I've imagined (  Why?!! ) Instead of writing like what I've imagined, I wrote something else like what my brain decided to   Yeah, I don't know how to handle this little rebellious brain. Anyway, I think I just let it do the thinking and I'm just write what it want me to write :) I'm just tired of having this little silly fight with my inner-self   So, Logan. Please stop looking at me that way. Blame my brain for being slow, alright darling? hohohohohoho XD 


Deary, Jaba :)
I'm very sorry. But I promised you, I'll do the reviews whenever I got time and when I'm sulking because of my rebelling brains :)


I'll do it no matter what!  AUUUUGAHHH!!!

About my story... For real, I don't have confident at all about doing it hahahaha :) I just wish I could jsut stop there on the spot. But, since Jaba has been reading it till chapter 3, I think I'm just going to continue on doing it. Well, I have few reasons why I'm not confident in keep on writing. So, let me tell you;

1. I have that seriously lousy grammar and vocabulary

2. I'm not good in describing the action of the character. 

3. I don't even use that bombastic kind of words

4. I'm a lazy writer. I took a very long time to finish one chapter.

5. I can't think of any good event to insert in my story.

6. I have that very little knowledge about everything and anything.

7. Sometimes, my character is off the rail.

8. I can't create a nice dialogue that can make my readers hear the characters voices. 

9. I have so many things in mind and I get distracted pretty easily.

10. I just naturally have no confident about it as I don't want to spoil Jaba's story. ( I'm doing short story version of her story, remember? ) I just can't deal with that later. hahahaha :)

Well, that's is my reasons. Actually, I have many but I just can think of ten of it. So, yeah   I feel like I'm underestimating myself. Yeah, Kind of. And last time, on chat with Jaba I've told her about this stuff and she was telling me that I have that potential to be a good writer as well. I was like, "Huh, I am?" hahahaha XD then, she told me.. A lot la. I'm quite touch with her words and I'm freaking speechless that time :)  Still, I can't boost up my confident on keep writing   no matter what she said, I'm always be that one lousy writer. hahahaha :) Just telling the truth though :D I don't know why is my confident being so rebellious like my brain,  But I know one thing though, I have reader who waited for my next chapter to come out. So, I'm going to get the story moving no matter how my heart tells me that I'm just being some freaking fan-fiction writers, or how my brain against my imagination's idea or how my confidence want to get low. I'm just going to write, no matter how bad it will be, I'm just going to keep writing! I know, writing is one of my  greatest passion in life. I've been writing stories since I'm 11 and now I'm 18. I can't lose to my 11 years old -self. I'm just going to keep on writing, no matter how hard will it be  . 


Just I hope that,
Keep supporting me,
Catch me when I'm falling,
Cheer me when I'm down,
Support me when I'm losing.. :)

I'm getting close to the closer. So, Umm... Logan Wade Lerman, If you ever saw this post... Please, 

NEVER EVER KEEP YOUR HAIR THIS LONG. IT DOESN'T FIT YOU, LOVE. TRUST ME. YOU'RE LOOKING BETTER WITH SHORT HAIR AND I LOVE YOU MORE WITH SHORT HAIR. I KNOW, OTHER FANS WHO AS CRAZY AS I AM, WOULD AGREE WITH MY STATEMENT AS WELL :) HOPE YOU'LL LISTEN TO MY ADVICE, THOUGH :)

from your, 'VIRTUALWIFE'

So, before I really ending up this post <----- that is my latest picture. i know, you guys probably already missing my cute face. ahahahahaha XD Yeah, I notice that too ( My eyebrows getting thicker )  Oh well, maybe tomorrow morning I'll ask mum or aunt next door to trim it down for me :) No need go saloon, it's expensive. huahahaha  I'm want to save money, I want to buy that one shirt. But oh dear, too expensive. I don't even working, how am I going to get it if I'm not saving? hahahaha :) Well, mum always give me money whenever I go shopping but I tell you, IT NEVER ENOUGH! hahahaha  Just kidding, It always enough for me, just that I always buy extra stuff. That's why it never enough. ekekeke :) I was thinking to stop buying unnecessary stuff like stuff lah. hahaha :) I want to buy clothes, I barely have clothes to wear when go shopping with my sisters.  always make my head spinning to find good clothes to wear. hahaha :) So, I think, I'm going to stop buying extra next time I go shopping. *Finger cross* HOPEFULLY!!

So, to end up this post, I put my most favorite Gif of my hubby :)
and my current relationship status as well :)
YEAH!
I'm going to wait for Logan Lerman,
until he found his true love
And until I find mine :)
*Which is obviously Logan Wade Lerman*

" SEE, HE'S SMILING, I KNOW HE'S PROBABLY WAITING FOR ME AS WELL"
ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha :D Just Kidding, don't freak out Logan! XD


As Usual, 

I would like to end up my post with prayer :)

The light of God Surrounds us,

The love of God enfolds us,

The power of God protects us,

The presence of God watches over us,

Wherever we are, God is,

And where God is, all is well.

Amen.


P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Logan Lerman Gif Compilation

So, here we are again :)

Yeah, I got time to search for my Hubby picture. huahahaha :)

I'm Half Dead now,

His cuteness killing me >.<

And So, THIS IS MY MOST FAVORITE >.< 

He is my Milo :) hahahahahha :))
Why I call him Milo? Well, check this blog out, there you'll know :
                                       Ghost Hunter and The Origin and The Renewal of Vampire Prophecy

Adieu <3
P.S Let your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)
P.S Don't Falling In  Love to my Milo :)

Crappy Poems; To The Little Scar That Never Leave

Scars that never leave

make my heart torn

I can't do anything to make it better

as the scars is to deep

Even it still bleeding sometimes.

I barely can feel my hearts beating

Its been slower each day

That little scar getting bigger each day

make me feel like I'm gonna finish one day.

Beats by beats,

I felt the pains

The scar that never leave

hurting all the way.

I'm crying

I'm smiling

I'm laughing

Still the scars remains

and can bleed anytime 

of the day.

I just have one wish,

I wish this scar would leave someday

For I'm tired of feeling useless everyday

I want to make myself a person

Not as a lost souls who shouting for helps

all the way. 

Every time I felt lonely on a day,

my hearts beating weakly all the way

make me feel like unworthy lass,

broke to tears for nothing grave.

Hear me spoke

dear heartless scars

I'm a human with a sense

I need to smile for once in a day

but with you here

it's unfeasible to do it that way

I'm sorry scars I have to say

I can't living nicely with you in me

tearing this little heart day by day

I just want a peaceful day

If you gonna stay

please stop hurting,

tell miss brain, stop memorizing

stop remembering all the scary feelings

for I'm tired for being hurting. 

Scars that never leaves,

you taught me something by experiencing

I'm sorry heart for make you hurting

but I'm not the one who choose that way

I'm just planning and wait for it

things happen for a reasons,

Scar that never leaves also have a reasons

I learnt so much from the scars I hate.

I still have long way to walk

I know I'm going to be hurt much more

and there will be a countless scars

So, I'm sorry, my little heart,

You have to suffer more.

To the scars that never leave,

Thank you for teaching me

about life and death

Now I can face them confidently.

Just Some Little Thought :)

Hey Hey! I'm back yaw! hahaha :)
Yeah, it's been a while ^__^

Well, I just about to write the review for chapter 4 & 5 but my mind got distracted. Now,my mind is in complete disaster. I was just having minor shock about what mum's told be just now. I just... I don't know. ehehehei :) I know this time would come anyway, I just can't believe it. hahahaha :D Well, sure its not exactly NOW, but I know, I can feel it in my bones, it will be SOON.

Mum told me that she and dad went to meet the one that they paid to do the arresting stuff. And they quite often seeing each other nowadays. As i could remembered before, mum told me that if they are about to arrested him, they will have to meet each other a lots. So, yeah... I think they are in progress doing so. Not likely I'm against what they're doing now, just that I don't think I'm ready to lose my only brother. You know how much I cherish him, right? He does hurting my mum a lot but still, no other brother can replaced him, he is my one and only brother :) I don't know... how to explain what I'm currently feeling right now, but yeah, It's just hard for me to just breathing, I'm suffocated with all the kind of stuff; like the way he treats mum, the way he yelled, the way he threw the ketchup, the way he rebelling, crashing his car, lying to mum, and so on. But seriously, even though he's being aggressive towards mum and dad, he never done any of it towards me, he would ask properly from me when he wanted to borrow stuff. he never mad at me when I told him that I want to borrow his PS2. He just the most wonderful brother, I don't know what's lead him to do this evil stuff but yeah... I know and I have faith that deep inside him, still have that humanity. He's a wonderful being. He always told me that he really wanted to join the U.S army and how he adored all the Nascar car, and I know, he's very talented. He modified all the car model and make his own racing car. I once watched him doing the modification and seriously, I thought he was very creative. He's one of my inspiration and the one who makes me fell in love to draw things. Once, I still remember, he drew me a car. I wish I still have it but I think mum had thrown everything away when we're moving out from our old house. If he didn't get involved with that shitty stuff, i think he would have been a very good brother, son and a father. He just choose the wrong path and lost...

I don't know how it's going to feel after I lost him later. I just can't imagine it. I know we never have that real talk as we both locking ourselves in each other's room. But, whenever he saw me around, he seems like searching for opportunity to talk to me and he would even talk about those stupid things, like games, how his pendrive didn't work out and how his lappy now turned into desktop, hehehei :) and how to install bluetooth mouse, where can he bought those headphones. hmmm.... I think I'm gonna miss him like a lot :) I wish I could turn back time and slapped his past self and told him not to do it. but things happen, Oh well, I just can accept the fate, eh? Mum must think that I don't care about that kind of stuff as I always put on my poker face when she talk about it, but yeah... I just don't want to make things worst. She doesn't know that i'm as well hurting inside. because I love my brother, I respect him no matter how many times people insulted him, how they call him beast, devil, lazy, I just respected him. because I know he's a good person and still is.  he did yelled, ONCE when he was drunk, that time I'm scared of him.. But all I could remember, that was his one and only time he yelling at me. He never did again.

Sometimes, I wish I never would talking about him as it would making all the sweet memories we had together flowing back in my mind. and I would ended up crying hahahaha :) yeah. I am, now. ekekekeke :) Silly me...thank god, mum and dad went out, and he is in his own room with one of his minion.

Sometimes, I really wish that I'm a boy myself. If I'm a boy, I would be his friend and maybe I could dragged him back to reality and make him a better person. I would have that courage to stop him doing such stupid things, and yeah...If i'm a boy, I would be his friend and he wouldn't have seek for other friends and getting involved with wrong friend like now. I would tagged along with him, playing games with him, sharing stories, lives together, giving each others advice in love and games, sharing thought, and shared interest. How I wish I'm a boy. things would get better, mum and dad would have happy life. I know, he's lonely... he needed a friend that's why he took the chances to do drugs, as he thought that was the only way to get friends. Those fucking people aren't his friends, they just want to share with him the fucking pills.I know this because his rebellious self shows after the death of brother Jose, he's one and only best friend. They were like twins before. Where my brother go, Jose would be at his side. That's why, I really wish I'm a boy, I would replaced Jose perfectly and be his companions. I would have done that. I would have....

Well, I guess I better stop writing now, ahahaha :) Overflowing tears, will cause flood inside house. ekekekeke :)) Just to tell few last things; He may be the dumbest and the craziest and the eviliest person in your eyes, but I won't change my mind about that he's the greatest brother that ever lives in my world. He just the most amazing person, One day... He'll show you. I know because I have faith on him. because I respect him, because I Love Him.

Dear Father in Heaven,King of KingTrue God of True God,I humbly say this prayer to you,With great hopes filling this scarred heart,I would humbly ask from you,My Lord,Blessed my brother and show him the true pathShine your light into himCast the evil spirits that attached to himShow him you grace,Forgives all his sins,Make him believe in You like I do,Guide him towards the path of truth.I know I did ask a lot from You,but You are my only hopes,My Lord.Cleanse his souls from all evilHeals his wounded heartsMake him stay away from evilsLet him not falls into evil temptations. Amen.
P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Impacto De Café (=^___^=)

Ohaiyou!

Yeah,  it's morning yaw~

Anyway, I'm pretty much feeling extraordinary today

Believe me or not

I woke up at 7:50a.m and I was like 'WTF?!'

ahahahahahaha :)

Well,

I guess my bad habit is home again.

But at the same time,

I think its all because of the coffee I've tried yesterday :)

Moon drank the same brand of Coffee as well,

BUT

She seems to be pretty sober this morning.

hahahahahahahaha :)

I took it like yesterday.I kinda love it ^___^The big one, mum bought it for me and the small one, sis Inut bought it :)Yeah~Actually, I was thinking to buy the big one for sis Jaba as well.But I forgot to bring my purse along.SO,Maybe next time :)Yeah~We both have the small one already.And we're kinda assuming it as 'Badge' heheheiwe're a VampireSlayer wannabes YAW~ YEP :)that's us ^___^

I was doing this like on 2nd of FebYeah, I was thinking to update my blog that timebut something terrible struck my heartand I have no mood to updating.So, yeah :)Ummmmm...Well,To be very honest,I really-really have no confident on doing it As yeah,I seriously want to write my own story plotmy own character ( only ++ a little from the others)Like I've always wrote when I was 12.I kinda love that moment.When I wrote this one,I feel like fanfics writerI don't want thatNot that I despised those fanfics writerI do ADORE them like a lots A Lot.They help me with my grammar. ehehehei #truefactsBut SeriouslyI want to make my own story line :)So..yeah :)

Jaba was sick yesterday :)I knew it from twitter :)So, last night we have chat lahAs usual,She wanted a comment from me about her newest storyYeah,Seriously, I just told her half of what I thought. ehehehehehei :)I'll tell the whole story in my Reviews :)So (Wait for it, yeah babe?) ~~Ohohohoho~~So Logan and Jake's shook hand is special for herHopefully,she'll felt much better after seeing the picture"Get Well Soon, Dear!"
 
So, I guess I reach the end of my post :)Short but worth to read lah. hahhahahahaha :)and Yeah,Kind of sorry a bit because I'm lacking using the animated gif :)I'm having flu Maybe because I woke up to early.ahahahahaha :)So,GOOD BYE~God Bless YouStay Blessed ! :))
And the picture below,I dedicated to Mr. Logan Lerman.Hahahahahahahahaha :)Peace!   

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Chapter 2; Young Fugitive & Chapter 3; Hidden Dagger ( Review

*Curtain opened*

Ola, amigo!

Well yeah, I know I've skipped yesterday.
So, I'm very sorry
I'm falling to pieces yesterday (Aisehmen)
What can I do? hahahaha
So, as for the punishment, I'm gonna write reviews for two chapter :)

Hope you'll forgive me
So, let's begin (^___^)
Before that, I wanna to introduce my loveliest dog, Chubby. hehehe :) she just got haircut, when this picture taken and seriously, her fringe so much looked like mine by that time =.=; hahahaha :D Miss that old times, my best buddy ever

Okay, now we're going to be serious :)
As usual, let's start with short synopsis

In chapter two; Young Fugitive. the writer had wrote about the main character arrival in Milan, Italy. There they were sent there by there grandfather, who I believe to be one of the mastermind for the whole strange things. hahahaha :) I mean, everything that connected to SEAMUS lah hahahaha . Well, then... In this chapter, the writers as well shows that Jaba's bipolar attitude. I know why but I can't say now. as I'm going to tell in another chapter preview. ehehei :) If I'm not mistaken, it will be reveal in chapter 4.  ( if it real, then its mean, I'm totally into this story  as I rarely remember anything after I read something ) In the morning, she would be very grumpy and in the middle of the night, she would behave as herself again. But her sisters -Moon and Pgie- didn't believe that it was her bipolar action but she was possessed. still they have no clue about it. Then, in this very chapter as well, they run away from the hotel ( where they SUPPOSED lived lah ) as they can sense something bad will happened. Jaba told them to believe her for that night and they have to as they seriously have no choice. hehehe :) And here also, they met with an angel, who is very good-looking and extremely cute namely as Zadkiel. ohohoho  and Pgie asked Jaba whether they should believe him (as at this moment, Pgie didn't recognize the angel) and jaba replied, "I think we can," ( that was actually my favorite part, the whole running away thingy, hehehe. I kind of loving it) So, they successfully ran awaylah. hahahahaha :)

WHAT I THINK WHEN I READ THIS CHAPTER;

Yeah.

As usual I'm waiting for this chapter like crazy!

ahahahaha
SO, what I've been thinking when I read this very chapter is that,
Why are they being sent to Milan?
Well, obviously Vatican city is around Italy. But I still don't get it thought
Was their grandpa thinking of handing his grandchildren to the Vatican?
and after all of them arrived, I wonder, where have their grandpa go?
and one more thing that makes me wonder ( maroon 5, ahahaha )
Where did Jaba meet with Zadkiel?
When? How?
yeah, all this keep playing on my mind :)
So, I'm looking forward for the answer in any future chapters. hahaha :))

End of Review chapter 2; Young Fugitive.

Now, I'll be writing about chapter 3; Hidden Dagger.Well, this one is one of my favorite chapter (Honestly, I think I've been typing the same sentences since Prelude review.)ANYHOW~let's started! LET'S GO!

Okay! ( reporting it's now 1:33a.m and like seriously, I'm feeling very-very energetic  ) 
In Chapter 3; Hidden dagger, the writers were telling me about Jaba is mad at them all as they aren't be in the hotel, well.if we recall back, it was her idea to leave the hotel, right? So, the rest ( Pgie, Moon and Kevin ) feeling quite confused by that time as she seems to be very mad about it, insisting them to go back to the hotel and then, she even insulting the others and left Zadkiel's house immediately. Pgie decided to go after her,asking her what is wrong with her as she had made kevin cry. Yeah, Kevin did mentioned that Jaba never ever shouted at anyone before and she also never ever called Kevin coward. Kevin quite feeling down by that time. Pgie was angry at Jaba. As they finally outside the house, Pgie called Jaba and asked her to stop. She'd called her like very often and pissed her off. So, she took out hidden dagger from her pocket and stabbed her sister directly on chest. Pgie was so shocked that time, Jaba left her half dead and smiled satisfyingly at her before she left. Then. Poof! to be continue on chapter 4. hahahahaha
Well, if I ended it there, Jaba would probably stabbed me with dagger in actual world. ahahahahahahahahaha XDDso, to prevent from actual dying   please proceed :)
Alright, the things is. The scene change to Kevin and Moon, who was being told to stay at ZadKiel's house. They sense that something wrong is happening to Jaba and Pgie and they started to worry about it. But as they trying to think positively, two vampires stormed in zadkiel's house and looking at the two delicious teenager. (hahahahaha XDD kevin and moon must look like a fried chicken to them, alright?) So, without thinking any further, Kevin and Moon burst out, jumping from the second floor house to save themselves from the two predator. Shortening the scene, they run aimlessly and finally they arrived at the Park. there, they met with this cute-piercing looking guy name Sam. At first Sam was really trying his best to lying but then he admitted that he can't longer lying to them and asked them both to believe and follow him to somewhere safer. As they have no other choice, Kevin and Moon have to put trust on Sammy. As Kevin wanted to step in Sammy's car, the creepy monster pulled him and threw him towards the dustbin and wanted to eat him (something like that) but fortunately, Sammy stabbed it with silver cross and now it aiming Sammy. Kevin still in shock and Moon trying very hard to make his consciousness back again. As they both were running towards the car, Moon saw a girl who is about to be eaten by the vampire beast. Kevin stunned. She told Kevin to stay there while she went towards the Monster to save the innocent girl.. Kevin didn't know what to do but he was mused by Moon's braveness by saving the girl and he doesn't want to see his sister being hurt by the monstrous creature. So he threw rocks towards it and successfully dragged the monster attention to him. As he was feeling responsible and he accidentally activating his hidden power. YEAH, did you read that? HIDDEN POWER  YEARGHHH~ so, that's it. he then fainted. Now, I'm serious about going to be continued on chapter 4 :)
WHAT I THINK WHEN READING THIS CHAPTER;
like seriously,I've been wonder as now I already now that Kevin have that special power,So, I'm wondering if the girls also have it?hahahaha :)And and, I also wonderWhere had Zadkiel go?Why he left the kids alone in the house?Why didn't he put protecting charms around?And why there is no security alarm?ahahahaha :D the fourth question is just something random, ignoreAnd aside from wondering,I'm quite amused with Moon brave act as she willing to sacrifice her life just to help the innocent girland I'm also amused by Kevin not-coward act at the end of the chapter. He killed the monster. and that's totally worth of receiving a WOWSOME!^______^

What I Feel When I Read These Two Chapter;

So, overall I'm PRETTY MUCH EXCITED when reading this two precious chapter.

Never in my life, I'm being addicted reading something (Other than comic books)

I feel like reading the real vampire story

And last time I feel this kind of feeling is when I was reading *Shadow Forest* my first Novel and also the first novel that I love the most, which 3-4 years ago, when I was around 14-15 like that.

So, now... I'm pretty much addicted to this story :)

Thank you so much for writing awesome story like this. 

I'm not just falling in love with her grammar but also her story line. OHMYGOD!

Definitely WOWSOMENESS!! :)

I'm soooo looking forward for the upcoming chapter :)

Anyway,

Thanks for reading this lovely review

Reporting the time, 2:39a.m

Getting a little sober.

hahahahaha :D

*Bowed 720 degrees*

*Curtain closed*