Slow Dance With A Stranger

Last night
I called in the cavalry
Tonight your making it so hard to breath
Every time you wrap you arms around me
(haha)
Break down
Girl you know I'm feeling you
There's no sound except for when our bodies move
What have i got myself up into

Girl you make me feel like I'm walking into danger
(mmm) But i don't really care
You don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger
And i want you to take me there

(mmm) I think i'm ready for it
You're not getting no-where
Step on the gas and floor it
Everything you want and more

Cos' you don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger

Right now my heart is beating out my chest
Going down - yeah i'm the one that loves you best
Round and Round - you're making me obsessed
(got one request)

Lay it back - let me take the drivers seat
It's a fact that you make my life complete
Heart attack - you're every fantasy
Baby

Girl you make me feel like I'm walking into danger
But i don't really care
You don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger
And i want you to take me there

(mmm) I think i'm ready for it
You're not getting no-where
Step on the gas and floor it
Everything you want and more

Cos' you don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger

No-one else saw it coming
I should be here but running
instead i came right back into danger, danger, danger
You keep me up all night
i'd get you on my side
i want another slow dance with a stranger, stranger, stranger

Girl you make me feel like I'm walking into danger
But i don't really care
You don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger
And i want you to take me there

Girl you make me feel like I'm walking into danger
But i don't really care
You don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger
And i want you to take me there

(mmm) I think i'm ready for it
You're not getting no-where
Step on the gas and floor it
Everything you want and more

Cos' you don't think i'm ready for a slow dance with a stranger

Another Lesson In Love

She's the center of attention, she's a beauty queen with possibilities.
She don't care for my affection, she's my obsession in her black designer jeans.
What more can I say, she keeps me up at night in unfamiliar ways.
I'll send a message to you, but you won't hear. 
I'm hopeless and tired of waiting for you to appear.
I'm close, but you're so far.

Another lesson in love.
Why does it always have to be so hard?
I'm so desperate to feel her. 
I've come way too close to leave and let it be.
Throwing my love out to her, praying one day that she'll come take it graciously.
What more can I say she keeps me up at night in unfamiliar ways. 

I'll send a message to you, but you won't hear.
I'm hopeless and tired of waiting for you to appear. 
I'm close, but you're so far. 

Another lesson in love.
Why does it always have to be so hard?

Things :)

Cover it up
And keep a distance
The anger that burns inside of me
Won't put up with all
Your flaws and mistakes
Or how you take it out on me

Keep telling yourself
That I was wrong here
Believe all the lies he fed to you
'Cause girl if you wanted something sincere
I know that he'll never pull through

Waiting for the day you turn yourself around
Can't stop feeling the things I feel
Locked into something so surreal
You have me going crazy
Have it all wrong
If you think you can walk out on me

You said you're in love
And can't describe it
But has it ever occurred to you
While you're asleep alone in your bed
He's out all night with someone new

Waiting for the day you turn yourself around
Can't stop feeling the things I feel
Locked into something so surreal
You have me going crazy
Have it all wrong
If you think you can walk out on me

Waiting for the day you turn yourself around
Can't stop feeling the things I feel
Locked into something so surreal
You have me going crazy
Have it all wrong
If you think you can walk out on me

Can't stop feeling the things I feel
Locked into something so surreal
You have me going crazy
Have it all wrong
If you think you can walk out on me

Your Kind (Speak To Me)

I saw you standing there in front of me.
To some degree, thought I could be 
Someone who shows you possibilities,
But the latency is killing me. 

You crush me with your stare, I suddenly turn so aware.
You're not the type of girl I should be with, but I don't care. 
Caught me, inside I know i'm fighting. 
But I still keep on trying to get to you. 

Keep breathing. I know you're so deceiving.
But I can't help, that i'm so hooked on you. Speak to me. Wish you could see. You're always on my mind. 
The things you do. All your pursuits. Trying to keep a distance, I know your kind.

She quickly finds her way inside of me, bring me so close, I can't compete. 
My nerves are shocked from the anxiety. I'm trembling. 
But then it hits me, i'm not the type of man to sit and stare, I understand. 
But I keep gravitating to you, it was so unplanned. 
Keep setting aside everything, that I was told about you. 
Can't get you off my mind, can't seem to find a way to leave you behind and forget or rewind.

Speak to me.. speak to me. 
Wish you could see.
You're always on my mind. 
The things you do.
All your pursuits.
Trying to keep a distance.
Because I know your kind.

I'm suffering from Bipolar Disorder I (0____o)

Greetings, humans. We meet again. hahahaha :) Well, actually I just finished answering few psychology test because my curiosity about whether I'm a bipolar or not but after taking few question, now I know. (T____T) sadly, I am. hahahahahahahahahahaha XD Before this, I'm often saying that I'm a bipolar person but I never meant it, I mean, it just for fun, ya know, like entertainment between siblings. ehehei :) but I never thought it could be real. Well, being bipolar is not something to be proud of because it could lead to suicidal thought. Ha, I know one person who had thought about suicide ( You know who yo are, dude ) hahahaha :) I think she's a bipolar too. Well, honestly, we are. hahahahaha :) and now I realized, no wonder I invented Ally Menders and make it become part of me. I mean, like this few months, I've been feeling that I'm half Ally, half Pgie. I don't know how to explain this but I do feel like I'm being someone else sometimes. hahahaha :D but still, that someone is me. I know you don't get it, hahahaha :D Sorry for my bad explanation (=___=;)

How I knew that I'm a bipolar/ manic? Well, I after I'm taking those questions, I was googling about the symptoms, which is likely to shock me to death as I got almost like 3/4 of it. hahahahaha :D Adeh, anyway, here's the common symptoms. the one I highlighted is the one I have lah :)


Common signs and symptoms of mania phase include:

• Feeling unusually “high” and optimistic OR extremely irritable
• Unrealistic, grandiose beliefs about one’s abilities or powers
• Sleeping very little, but feeling extremely energetic
• Talking so rapidly that others can’t keep up
• Racing thoughts; jumping quickly from one idea to the next
• Highly distractible, unable to concentrate
• Impaired judgment and impulsiveness
• Acting recklessly without thinking about the consequences
• Delusions and hallucinations (in severe cases)

• Common symptoms of bipolar depression include:

Feeling hopeless, sad, or empty. Irritability Inability to experience pleasure Fatigue or loss of energy Physical and mental sluggishness

Appetite or weight changes Sleep problems Concentration and memory problems Feelings of worthlessness or guilt Thoughts of death or suicide

The warning signs of suicide include:

Talking about death, self-harm, or suicide Feeling hopeless or helpless Feeling worthless or like a burden to others

Acting recklessly, as if one has a “death wish” Putting affairs in order or saying goodbye Seeking out weapons or pills that could be used to commit suicide

So, yeah. I'm shock as much as you too. But no worry it still not too late to be treated. hahahaha :) But when I go and meet Psychologist lah. ahahaha :) Which is never happens. LOL :) anyhow, I'm feeling glad to have this bipolar thing because it really help me a lot in writing stories like Jaba once told me, when she read "Levedad Little Adventure" she felt like it was written by someone else because it is different from Saving Chrystella Mclaren. Well, I was like "(o.O) seriously?" hahahaha :) Well, then I thought, maybe it was Ally who wrote it instead of Pgie. Ya know, Ally is somewhat a little more creative than Pgie and her English is better, I think. hehehehei :) Still, that person is ME. huahahahaha XD I'm talented yaw! ekekeke ;) Just kidding :)
"Same Person, Different Personality," speaking of this, I feel like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. hahahaha :)  I never knew when will I change into another me, like Jekyll. He wasn't aware when he becoming Mr. Hyde. So yeah, hopefully I won't change face like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde do. ahahahahaha :)) Still, no worries for I'm mostly as Pgie, original me. hahahaha :) Just take noted, when I look more matured unusually or not very talkative or being sarcasm, that's Ally. hahahaha :) Pgie isn't bad because too cute to be badass.. huahahahaha :) Besides, Ally love to read and Pgie is a pro-slacker. Ally have lots of ideas and Pgie ideas only like fish on the hook. hahahahaha :D life-life-fish. ahahahaha :D But honestly, I seldomly become Ally, but when I do, I'm being productive and of course, my stories will be soooo long. hahahaha :) Hmmm.... Maybe Ally is more hardworking I guess. hahaha :) rest well, Ally. I need you to write my Saving Chrystella Mclaren as well. ekekekeke XD

So, yeah. We're getting closer to the end of the post. Woohooo! So, I want to tell that I'm still AnnaJosh shipper. hahahaha :) I wish one day they will be together, have kids and happily ever after. God! I really can feel the chemistry between them. Sometimes, I kind of feeling irritated when I see Josh or Annasophia filming with other girls/guy. hahahaha :) I guess I'm just being over obsessed with this two, eh? About Dramione/ Feltson. Well, nah... Not shipping them anymore. After I read Emma's 'popular'saying in Tumblr last time, I don't really like her anymore. It's hurting me like a lot a lot (T___T) of course she doesn't understand about people being so obsessed with their favorite celebrities because SHE'S THE CELEBRITY. DUH! Hell, i thought she would be as clever as Hermione =.=; it's insulting, for me because I'm a fans too, and fans got feelings. They being obsessed with their favorite celebrities because they love them and because of the obsession of the fans, they won awards and they are famous also because of the fans obsession. What the hell is she thinking? I think, if not because of all the freaking obsess fans, I don't think she would ever show up in the big screen anymore. Just saying. No offence :) Just stating out my thought :)

So, here we are. Ending!! And yeah, I supposed to finish writing this post like an hour ago but ya know, i'm full of randomness. hahahaha :) I suddenly thought of adding new cast for Levedad Little Adventure story and changing Terri's part ( as he already took part in Saving Chrystella Mclaren ), So, I change his part with Addy or Adrian. Well, I don't know what happens later, as I haven't thought of it yet. But I really hope that I won't change Addy's traits in here. hahaha :) ya know, I'm too creative. hahahahahaha XD Just hope for the best :) and Hopefully I can make a very good friendship among them. hahahahahahaha :)

SO, ENJOY! :) ( the picture, I mean )

and next time, I'll put Saving Chrystella McLaren's Cast :) Still choosing the cast. hahahaha :P

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

*My broadband didn't work properly (=____=;) Daddy, COME HOME FAST!*

Me Out Of Ideas =________='

<---- Jaba, I edit this one :) This one is totally my personal likes hahaha :)
Well, I just finish editing her pictures, which I took from her Facebook page. huahahaha :) Imma stalker ma.
And I edited like, 4 or 5 pictures of her. I know she'll be reading my blog later, in this very post, I will only use her pictures that I edited. ekekeke :D You Mad, Bro? hahahaha :)) Besides, I realized that every post I posted here, always got her name in between all the sentences. hahahhaa :D

Anyway, greetings. Reason I'm writing in the middle of evening or whatever the time is  hahahaha :D I got no ideas to continue chapter 10 or 3. hahahaha :) Chapter 3, I think I got the idea, complete one but umm... I still thinking of the good words and sentences to describe the character's movement. Yalah, they surely need to move right, it would be awkward if the just stood like a statue when interacting with each other. hahahaha :) It's does awkward and no one will ever wanted to read my story if I did that. ekekeke :) So, I was thinking to write my blog instead of sitting here without things to do, later my mom would scolded me and call me freak, or weirdo later. Oh well, not that I'm denying the fact that I'm weirdo. hahahahahahahahaha :)

<---- my second favorite :) Yeah, she's cute, right? I know! I'm cute too... hahahahahahaha :) But she has low self-esteem, saying that she's not cute la, not pretty lah. But of course I know, she's a beautiful person inside and outside :) Like me. hahahahahahahahaha XD

So, just now I read her blog and I saw one section on that very post was for me. hahahahahaha :D I was like "O.o" hahahaha :D and then when I finish reading it, I was like "^_______________________^ " hahahahaha :) feeling WOWSOME. hahahaha :) Well, that post was about, she's telling me that she kind of like my stories and I got improvement in my grammar setting. ehehei. and then, she likes my story line but then she hopes that I'll post faster lah the chapters... because she's tired of waiting like 1 or 2 weeks per chapter. hahaha :) Well, speaking of that, I want to do the same too but yeah, whenever I want to concentrate kan, there will be lots of obstacle like mum needs help lah, my good neighbor need helps or ask me to hang out ka, or if it weekend, my son will be here and disturb me since the moment I woke up until night came lah. haish. and then, blink-blink, saturday came and Jaba wants to read it and guess what? Not finish T^T.. I broke her heart. Oh God, why? hahahaha :D Yeah, and if not humans gave me all the obstacles, there would be my social network, my scumbag brains, my window media player lah, and newest obstacles for me is Spider Solitaire. Yes, I'm addicted to that classic games. hahahahahaha :) Aduii T___T But, I do try my very best to finish it up. Well, its does seem like I'm making an excuses about it but.... Well, maybe I am. hahahahahahahahaahahahaha :D where's there a will, there's a way. But still, we have tomorrow. then, tomorrow it is. hahahahahaha :) Just kidding :) I will do it later :)

So, right now I'm busy tumblring. hahahaha :) Yeah, I got something else to tell actually but I forgot =___=; never mind. Not so important I think. ehehehei :) And I just finish tumblring. hahahaha :) Listening to Used and Abused by Danger Radio. ehehei :) I told you, I'm addicted of their songs. Anyhow, I'm gonna start writing chap 10 around 5 o'clock. And oh ya! Before I forgot, I'm pretty much into Forever The Sickest Kid too. hahahaha :) Well, I do like them before but Kpop stopped me and now, TAADAA, I'm back listening to them. hehehei :) and I just knew that FTSK got connection with Danger Radio. OHO! my two favorite band is connected with each otherrrrrr ~~ hahahahahahaha :)) for FTSK, I like their song entitled "Coffee Break" and "Do or Die" uh-huh, pretty awesome. Should go and listen to it if you want to know how awesome it is :))) And after writing all this, I conclude that my real music passion is Rock and Roll, bebeyh! and of course now Emo-Punk is included. hahahahaha :) Complete package. hahahahahahaha :) And No, i'm not emo. hahahaha :) Just extremely emotional :) Anyhow, I'm kinda confessing that I also love to listen to Marilyn Manson. Despite his too-much-make-up-on-his-face-make-him-look-scary and the controversial about he worshiping the devil wasn't really affect me because I like his song, and music not him. hahahaha :) and I kind of adoring his fashion sense. GOTHICNESS everywhere! XDDD

So, yeah... hate to say good bye but I'm out of topic right now. hahahaha :) It's mean, we're getting closer with the closing line. hahahahaha :) And it's half past 5 and I haven't continue chapter 10 yet. Oh God! WAEE ?! hahahaha :) Hopefully lah I can finish it up before going MSN chat with Jaba later >.< Tonight, I'm gonna rebel again. Going to sleep late today. huahahahaha :) Besides, tomorrow is Weekend yaw ( seriously, everyday is my weekend ) hahahahaha :))) Anyhow, I'm gonna pushed hard my brain worker after this for I want to post chapter 10 as I can't wait to write chapter 3. hahahahahahaha :) I don't have idea with that one as well =___=; I'll be damned T____T. Doing two story at one time, is not so new for me because once, before this, I make 4 story one time. ekekekeke and in the end, none of it is finished. ekekekekeke :) Aduii... I'm so fucked up. hahahaha :) but now, I won't watch anymore interesting action and adventure movie or TV shows because these kind of movies always inspired me and tempting me to write a new story. I can't afford it anymore. I must finish this two story first before I wrote new one *finger cross* hahahahaha :)) Wish me real good luck, y'all :)



So, here we are againClosing. I'll update again. hahahahaha :D I know,It's almost 7 now. I told you, I get distracted pretty easilyhahahahahahha :DSo very sorryMaybe I can't post chapter 10 today T______Tbut tomorrow morning I willBUT I don't want to promise though..Very sorry, Jaba! >____<

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

The Day When Nothing Else Matter.

<---- Vampire look. hahahaha :)
Yeah, I just edited this one just now and decided to make it look a bit of vampireness. hahaha :)
it's my old picture actually and I think I've post this picture few months back. If I'm not mistaken lah. hahaha :D
It's been a while I didn't self camera. Uh, I feel ugly. hahaha :))

Anyhow, Greetings to you, you and you!
We meet again. hehehe :)
Well, today I got no extraordinary story as my life is plain simple. Which the reason I love it so much! My life is beautifully gorgeous. hahahaha :)
Want it, you can have it if you want :)
I'm very contented to share it though. Ehehei :)
Anyhow, for starter I just want to say that I spend most of my day today playing Spider Solitaire, Solitaire, Free Cell and yesterday Minesweeper. hahaha :) and after that on 9gag.com, and not forget Window Media Player and Microsoft words. hehehei :) All these accompany me from the minute I rise from my beauty sleep until I fall back into dreamland at night. hehei :) My best friend, to be exact. Well, today as well I finished chapter 9 of SCM and LLA chapter 3 also supposed to be posted today but my lappy go crazy and shut down on it owns before I manage to save LLA. Yeah, right now I'm still constructing my writer's mood back. I don't think I will write after this. Maybe later morning lah. I'm sulking. hahahaha :) I almost finished it and SNAP! everything gone. I was like "Oh God, Why?" hahahaha :D

As usual, I chat with Jaba ( which is pretty much my routine lately ) and as usual, I started the conversation. hehei. But I really wish she started it sometimes. And one time, I purposely not make the first move, hoping her to start it first. But in the end, I'm the one who do it. hahaha :) Oh well, I'm pretty much annoying anyway, so I don't care that much though. But honestly, before this I do care a lot but now, I'm just like "Neah...." hahaha :) No harm is included. So, yeah :) And today, our topic is random. As usual. hahaha :)) We're full of randomness, what can I say? It's kind of our natural talents. hehehei :) and I'm the master of it. ekekeke XD anyway, we're talking about character pairing up. She confessed to me that she shipped Shia X Milo. I was like "Whaaa.... what about Fina X Milo?" and then she was like "hahahahahaha," and I was like "T___T" hahaha :)) But oh well, this is free country though. hahaha :) we free to shipped those character according to our own desire. hahaha :D I teased her like telling her that I'm gonna make a special broken heart poems about Milo. hahahahaha :) But nah, I'm tooo freaking lazy to write one. Besides, I kind of agree with Shia X Milo though because Shia is so freaking cute and Milo is also cute and he always treat Shia very good. and besides, Shia's classmate thought that Milo is Shia's boyfriend. hahahahahaha :) I love that part, kinda make me smiled like crazy. ohohohohoho XD but I kinda pitied Sammy though. ekeke :) Don't worry, Sammy, I'm single and pretty much available hahahahahahahaha XDD JK JK, Sammy is too quiet, Nah... hahaha :) But pairing Shia with Milo won't change my mind cuz I'm still gonna become FinaMiloshippers :)))

Oh, I almost forgot! Today also my best friend, Prudence called me. hahaha :) Yeah, at first we were chatting on Facebook but then her aunt wanted to use skype, so she phoned me. We talk like for I think more than 10, 12 minutes like that. hahaha :D She told me about her crush. Well, it's top secret though. hahaha :) I can't write here, who knows one day, she'll found my blog and read it. Uh, I'm screwed. for I already promised her not to tell anyone. Then after we finished with our excitement about her crush, she kinda confessed to me that I'm the only person who knows about her crush and the only person who knows a lot about her. ( Pshh, 12 years yo ) hahaha :) No kidding, she also told me that I'm the only person who stay friend with her since forever. hahahaha :) Well, I'm a dog, I'm loyal. What can I say? Just that, once I felt betrayed, then no chance buddy :) Sorry. hahahaha :) Well, after hearing those words came out from her own mouth, I felt proud though :) I never thought I'm a good friend and a sister too :) hehehei :) I always thought I'm a very bad friend you know. But now I know, hahaha :) And besides, Prudence is much like my own sister to me though and besides, she has no sister kan ( as she's the eldest ) So, why not? I volunteerily becoming her foster sister. hahahaha :) Oh well, I can't say that she's annoyed me sometimes, but what the hell? For friendship sake's, I keep my optimistic on :) Imma Miss Optimist anyway. muahahahaha XDD

And if you realize, my blog song is all by Danger Radio. Yep, I thought I'm over those guys but No, I'm full-heartedly saying that I'm obsessed with their songs and Andrew voice really melts me. huahahaha :) But no, I don't have bias on anyone of them though including Andrew himself because what I like about this band is the voice, the music and the lyrics. Oh God, compilations of perfections. hahahaha :D and my most favorite song from this band is "Slow Dance With A Stranger", "Your Kind (Speak to me)", "Things", "Kiss N Tell", and "Alive For The First Time", and newestly I love "Alibis" which I just found in Youtube. You can listen to it in my blog playlist though :) and oh, besides Danger Radio, I love to listen to The Scene Aesthetic and obviously, my favorite song is "Humans" hehehehei :) First time I listened to this song, I cried so hard because I could feel that they were singing to me, their voices touching my hearts and instantly cured it. It was the most beautiful songs that I ever heard in my entire life. Maybe not the most, but it is one of the most :) Respecting Andrew de Torres! Thank you, God for such talents. I now have hopes in music industries :) I really hope that Danger Radio or The Scene Aesthetic would make comeback album soon :) I want more!! I really do thanking my one and only sis Jaba for introducing me to this two awesome band. If not because of her, I would never know the existence of awesome band like them. hahahaha :)) Oh YEAH! Love her much for this! XDDDD

<---- Moon's edits. hahaha :) yeah, she's the one who dragged me back into pic-editing mood. hahahaha :) Oh well, editing pictures is fun anyway. Just that it is awkward when editing own pictures while got someone else in the same room. hahahaha :) That's why I always doing the editing before going to dreamland. hahahaha :) No ones bother to watch anyway. ekekekeke :) So, we're getting closer to the closing here. I'm gonna sleep earlier today for yesterday I slept too late. hahaha :) Usually, I already sleep by this hour and yesterday my rebellious side of me, conquering my eyes. hahaahaha XD so, today, the good side of me beating my rebellious side. So, no sleep late today :) Besides, I got to wake up early tomorrow, though because if I don't my mum will got pissed and it's really scare the hell out of me. When she mad, nuclear bom also aren't as scary as her. hehehei. Mums, we all scared of them. ekekeke :) Oh well, I better stop writing now. My eyes is getting heavier. Hopefully they aren't doing it just to troll me over. hahahahahaha :)) So, good night and sweet dream. May God Bless You All and keep holding on when you're feeling down, remember God and keep faith :)
Pray before sleep and never ever forget to live this life to the max :)

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

and oh, last time, when I search for Niall Horan's picture, I saw this :

He just can't leave me alone, can't he? Oh well, he just love me too much. I think. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D