Random Post (^___^)

Annyeong and greetings! Well, seriously, I just know how to put gif picture on post. hahahaha  I'm so out-dated already.. ekekeke :) Yeah, I always wonder when I saw Jaba's blog but I don't dare to ask as I;m afraid that she'll laughed at me. ekekeke XD shy le  back to the topic. hahahaha :) Well, I don't really have stuff to tell for the time being. Maybe later night as my phone is still charging. ehehehe :) Yes, I have few new pictures today XD And today, I skip my breakfast and lunch. hahaha :)) Lunch, can't be said that I'm skipping it la because I have some chicken mushroom soup and twisties today. ekeke :) That's my lunch. Hmm... I really am serious about getting down my weight. I just can't take it when people keep saying my fatso. It's hurt a lot. I know I have this sexy butt and yeah before I did learn to love it there but then, everyone keeps saying i'm fat and my butt is too big and this and that. Then, they say they don't care. OH PLEASE! just be honest that you think I'm fat! I can deal with it though. and yea, dealing it with teary eyes. ehehehe :)) Well, it's almost a week I didn't eat rice and maybe I'll continue on this diet until I can get rid of my big butt and I'm targeting to weight about 55 Kg. ehehehe :)) sometimes I feel like chopped down my butt hahahaha :D Well, in my dream la. ahahaha :) in reality, I just pasted on my fake grinned and lying that I don't care about it too much ( in fact, its hurting me too much )  so, skinny people out there, please don't insult the chubby people. its seriously hurting their feelings, like A LOT A LOT :)

I know how it feel for being call as fat, so just don't okay? ngee ♥ 

Today as well i'm on rampage as mum again said that I'm wasting money on junk. Seriously? Junk? that what she call my stuff. JUNK? Junk means RUBBISH and my stuff is NO RUBBISH! I bought it because I need it, how hard could it be for her to understand? I never buy something I don't need. She should be grateful that I bought something that see- able than my brother who asked for thousand per week and seen nothing is brought home. well duh?! why didn't she told my brother that?! why don't she just call the police and threw him in the prison for buying stuff that unseen? I don' t know what's wrong with buying stuff I need. Well, pretty obvious eh? She just doesn't approve me to buy Manga and anime DVD. Freak all that! I don't care. She can stop me from being Mangaka, but hell NO she could stop me buying Manga!   if she doesn't want to give me money, then I'll go to work. Neh, easy ma... NO NO and NO~ its enough that she disapproving my dreams ( which I'm dying to achieve ) and I already let her choose my path. I let go my childhood dream because I love her but I just don't get it. Why?  

So, I guess that's all for now. I'll be writing again later after I finished charging my phone but still depends on my bones. hahahaha :) I couldn't do anything if I turning on my Lazybone instead of my hardworking one. ahhaha :)) My back is aching right now. ahahaha :)))Well, last but not least from me, Stay Fabulous Like Me and Pheles :))

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

My 4th Anime of 2012 (^______^)

Konnichiwa, minna-san! hahaha :) and not forget my usual greeting, Annyeong! *Bows* As you can see well enough, I'm just finished watching my 4th anime! Wee~ Monochrome Factor is my last DVD I am feeling very-very happy right now ^____^ but still =.=; i don't feel so good. the loneliness inside starting to  fill me once again. T^T this is why I hate it when some good movies reached the end so fast like this. Urgh! Even though Monochrome Factor is some what nice story to watch, I still hate it as the story seems like has no end. They just ended it just like that, and the king of shadow didn't even die. I was like WTF?! then I turned on my optimist mind and told myself that "Maybe this good story have 2nd season," so I looked up for it lah... ( as this one is seriously old anime, I'm just out-dated. LOL :D ) BUT... T^T they didn't make the second season. I was like " Y U NO MAKE SECOND SEASON?!" So, I really-really wish that the anime director would look up my blog and read this very post as I'm dying to watch the second season. I want to know what happen to Shirogane-san? Will he able to meet with Akira-san again? What happen to the King Of Shadow? and where did Lulu had disappeared too? URGH! I just hate it when my minds fills with such question! >.< So, I'm praying that the director would saw this and think about it. hahaha :D P.S : Please make second season for Ao No exorcist as well :D

Even though I'm pissed because the anime didn't have proper ending, still I'm really glad that I bought the DVD :) I just love the story line and the relationship between both character (=^.^=) hehehehehehehehe :) I told you already, I'm not against Yaoi but I just don't like it. its seems so wrong for me.. but... this pair, I mean Akira and Shirogane, I can see the chemistry between them. huahaha  I kinda love the way they threat each other. MOE~  Well, to be honest. I don't find that their relationship is wrong because they we're destined to be together and they are paired, I mean, some what soul mates, just that Shirogane wasn't human ( as he was the shadow ) their fate was forbid by that. So, I kinda into this pair. huahahaha  don't blame me. You should see this anime for yourself, then you'll know what I meant. Omonah~ I'm so in love with their intimacy  and besides, I wasn't eyeing on Akira nor Shirogane. I'm more into Kengo, the supporting character or Akira's side kick!  Yeah, I think he have more charms than the main character itself. huahahahaha XD ( that's why I'm not against Akira X Shirogane ) ehehehei, very easy to find out, eh? Yeah, i'm quite predictable ya know~ ohohohoho

hahahaha XD that is my Kengo ♥ He's the joker in the story and he's spirit to stay near Akira very fascinating me and as well make me falling for him. ahahahahaha XD I sounded really crazy, no? Well, no doubt at all, lads. I am though ekekeke XD Many people may think that his character is annoying but I'm not. If not because of his presence in the whole story, the story would be dull and boring as there was not jokes only fighting  can you imagine that?! that will totally creep me out. hahaha :) Any how, I kinda respect how big his heart for Akira as Kengo willing to sacrifices his own life just to protect Akira. He did everything he could to protect him. And then, he always stay by Akira's side no matter in happy or danger. No matter how much Akira despised his action ( as he tailing Akira's like 24/7 ) He still stayed beside him because he knows that Akira may treat him badly but that's how Akira's shows how much he caress about him. hahahaha :) Yeah, if there would be Yaoi fanfic about Akira and Kengo, I may as well can accept it. hahahaha :)) But as long as they write something rated K > T, it's okay with me. if it more than that, Sorry... i'm 102% against it  ehehehei :)

 Right now I'm wondering.... why am I talking about Yaoi? =.=; ahahaha :D No, please don't jump to conclusion yet. I just been wondering about it though. hahahaha ^_^; I may agreed with some yaoi paring for example, Akira X shirogane but there are couple that I don't find chemistry between them and some of the couple as well don't make sense. Anime fans sometimes making some twins brother become Yaoi, I wonder where can they get that kind of non-sense idea? they're twins, well duh~ hahahaha :) Even if they look like they care so much about their twins and make you feel like they're in love or what so ever, just noted that THEY ARE TWINS AND TWINS DO ACT LIKE THAT. T^T, i just don't get it. Well, not to write this way to insult others idea anyway. I don't have that kind of permission to do so. ahahaha :) Even if I have it, I won't do anything about it, because it have nothing to do with me :) Just that, I'm expressing what I've been thinking lately...  don't tell me that I'm thinking about Yaoi for all this time?! OMONAH~
So, before my mind filled with Yaoi stuff, I think I better stop now. hahahaha :) I'm already infected much by this stuff. hahahahahahahahahaha ^__^; so, Yaoi Fans! Gambatteh Kudasai!








And come to realization, i was actually not only attracted to Okumura Rin but as well his other three brothers. hahahahaha :) Well, I kinda found that I'm as well attracted to Sir Pheles, Amaimon and as well as Yukio. And what's surprised me that I'm more into Amaimon rather than Rin. huahahaha :) Sound Legit eh? Oh well, Amaimon has that very mysterious character and I found that he's quite cute. He just resembling Lawliet from death note. they both like sweets and that would make them look so freaking cute

So, as I was saying... the four of them are mine now. hahahaha :D

So, that's all for now.

Meeting you guys again on my next post (^___^)

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

P.S : I'm gonna get few more anime next time! please pray for me, Minna-san!

The Epic Story ~ ♥

Annyeong and greetings! Huaaa ♥ it's been a while i didn't blogging eh? Well, lots of things happening lately but I just don't feel like writing though. Sorry, Mr.Bloggy. ehehe :)) I was too busy with my anime, manga, facebook and twitter. hehehehe :) Currently I'm obsessed with Ao No Exorcist or known as Blue Exorcist. I was falling in love with the main character completely. hahahaha :) Yep, i'm mentally taken by Okumura Rin now. hahahahaha :) Call me crazy, well I am. if you don't know about it then, YOU MUST BE NEW~ hahahaha :D Only those who never met me will call me normal. hahaha >U< no kidding. ekekeke :D

I was just came back from my Cyworld. I just remember that I have one Cy account. LOL and yeah, I just upload few pictures and drew something and even updating my diary over there :) actually, I have no friend in Cyworld. ekekeke :) and plus, i don't know how to add people and how to interact with others. ekekeke :) And as I was just about to move onto mr.Bloggy just now, I look at "numberOfview" for my Cy and Taa-Daa! I'm so contented. LOL XD I got 73 viewers. that already a lot for me. huahahaha :3 but none of those 73 viewer add me as their friends T^T. never mind though, someone will add me in the future. ekekekeke (( Forever alone )) hahahaha :D

Just now I tidy up my room and I was thinking to re-arrange all my manga :) And taa-daa~ my comic section is almost full. I wonder if sis Inut returned the manga she borrowed, will it fill all the empty spaces? hahahaha :D Urgh, I wish it won't hahahaha :) because I still have lots of manga that I want to buy and i know, more to come! and currently, i'm waiting for USER2 by Zint ^U^. And I was thinking to collect helios Eclipse and Maid Maiden by Kaoru. But I have to wait until my money state is balance. right now, I'm almost broke. hahaha :D I have to sacrifices my RM 70 for Ao No Exorcist. LOL :D But never mind because it worth it :DD Omonah~~ I'm so grateful that I bought it! >.< hopefully, sis Jaba took a very good care of it. hahahaha :))) I want my children to watch it as well Old School punya Anime~ :D

Speaking of anime, last few days ago.. I was feeling so down and i don't know what to do. so i decided to buy myself some good anime to watch and to heal my broken precious heart lah. So I bought three of them, Nyan Koi, Monochrome Factor and Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi. So, when I arrived home, I go straight to my room and decided to watch Sekai-Ichi first because I was fell in love with the character cute look. hahahahaha :) and then, the first epic story begun. hahahahaha XD Stomach cramp! hahahahahahaha :) aduh... So I start watch lah kan without hesitancy in my heart. hahahaha :D I can't stop laughing right now. hahahahahaha :D Akaidai~ and then, there was a sequal, and the main character, Onodera Ritsu was telling lah that he loves someone, at first I relaxlah and then he told me that he was deeply in love with Saga Masamune, a guy as well. I was like WTF?! hahahahahaha :D well, that was just for a moment though. So, I kept on watching lah.. hahahaha :D innocently keep watching. then around chapter 3, Masamune try to rape Ritsu, I was like o.O WHAT THE..?! and chapter 4 or 5 like that, something very disturbing was shown. my eyes grew wider as I saw that Masamune kissed Onodera..  I was like WTFF?!!! hahahaha :DD and then Masamune said to Ritsu, "Touch Me," and he put Ritsu hands to touch his... ya know, his device....by that time,  I MENTALLY SCREAM IN TERROR! hahahahahahahaha XD Aduhaii~~~ So, freaking me out.... I can barely breathing. hahahaha :D Aduii~ then I decided to stop watching it.. because I'm overly disturbed by that, just two words..and an action T^T. I slowly turned off my lappy and tuck myself under my blanket. I reach for my phone and twitted, "Forgive Me My Lord" hahahaha :D Haishhh~~ I swear, I will never ever watch that anime ever again and yes, I'm not regret that I don't watch it till the end but I do regret for buying it T^T... and on the day I bought Ao No Exorcist, I saw that the YAOI anime have seasons two. WTF?! hahahahhaha :D and I did some research as well and I found that the anime was one of the best-selling.. Seriously? hahahahahahaha :D Akai~ but P.S: I'm not against YAOI but I'm also not a fans of YAOI.. hahahaha :)) Peace yaw!

And here goes the second Epic story. hahahahahahhahahaahaha :D aduh~ right now I'm seriously trying to control myself from laughing out loud. hahahahahahaha :D akaidai~ this one happens on last two days ago. The story goes like this ( Clear Throat ) Sis Jaba had promised me that she's going to teach me how to drive properly lah as I'm going to have my driving test on February :D So, she drove towards Curtin there as there was some abandoned road and very good spot to practice. So, there we go lah. at first, nothing happens. hehehehehhehehehehe :D that epicness start when she taught me to do three pointer. hahahahahahahahaha XD ADUH~~~ I don't know how to tell this but... hahahahahaha :DDDD as I was doing the three pointer unsuccessfully, there was police patrol stop next to our vehicle and they asked us lah what are we doing there in the middle of empty road. hahahahaha :D what's make it funny is that we both shows poker face, and explained all the details even though the police didn't even ask about it. hahahahahahahahaha :D and I can't forget the way sis Jaba told the police that she got her license with her poker face. hahahahahahahahahaha XDDDDD maybe you guys don't understand what i'm trying to tell, but doesn't matter, because it surely does make my day! hahahahahahaha XD akaidai~ i'm gonna die laughing alone!

Today, I went visit sis Chyi for she was celebrating Chinese New Year. I go there with sis Jon, Bro Rajuna and My lil' shawn. I got angpau~~ RM 10 lah. hahahaha :) and plus ferrero rosche. hahahahahahahaha :D yep, I got tapau. hahahaaha :)) I'm very grateful for that though. ehehehe :) and then I play lego with both Jayden and Shawny. and then the three of us played outside. hahahaha :) i feel like I'm almost the same age with them both. ekekekeke :) And around 7, we went home... the weather isn't good lah.. rainy like cats and dogs. but i kinda like it though. hehehehe :) remember, that's my favorite weather :D And just now, my brother pissed my mum off by asking some money. Can you believe it, he just asked for 150 around 10p.m and now he called again and asked for another 100. I was like WTH?! haishh... I don't know what had gotten into him. I think the devil already control him completely and grew and become one with his soul. haish~ I just could shook my head right now. Before, i would cry over this kind of stuff but now, I won't cry... I won't waste my precious tears for some stupid brother like him though. very stressful! >.<

And this morning, as I was tidying my room lah, I saw one manga that I haven't read yet. So, I took some times to read it up, ehehehe :) and as i finished reading the whole story, I saw the extra page which manga-ka always used to tell their life as Mangaka. I read it up and I suddenly felt my heart was heavy. My chest hurt so badly and suddenly i recall back about when my mum told me to stop buying manga and anime cds. I was like "WTH?" Well, duh! isn't enough kah they disapproving my childhood dream to becoming mangaka?! now they want me to stop buying stuff I like? The only stuff that I used to make me feel better.. that is so not damn fair! I love Manga and I love Anime, if they think I wanna be mangaka because I read to much Manga, they are sooo freaking wrong because I want to be mangaka because I love to draw. Its always be my dream to be Mangaka since I was 5.... I just couldn't believe it.... i thought parents is the person who understand us the most but I was so wrong.. maybe others parent, but I don't think my parent does. they keep disapproving everything I want, everything I like. Well, they do buy me stuff that I like, I mean electronics stuff but I had enough of all that and seriously, none of it satisfied me. None of it could make my heart felt contented and joyful like after I treat myself with couple of Manga. I wish my parents would understand how much my hearts loves anime and manga. And I'm sorry to tell, that I can't grew up according to their plans.

I guess, that's all I wanna say.. hahahahha :D right now my hands is shaking. hahahaha :D Seriously, I'm so mad right now.. ahahahahah :D i told you, I'm emo. hahahahaha :) anyway, I hope things would get better soonlah.. and Oh, by the way... right now I'm currently engaged to Cha Bo Sung :D hahahahahahahahahaha :)) don't believe me? Take a look at my facebook profile :) Yeah, HE JUST SO DAMN CUTE! I WAS LIKE OMG!! hahahahahahahaaha :D akaiii~~ actually, sis Jaba found him and yeah, I 'tackle' him first. ahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha :D I've been 'together with him since last year on 27 November.. ekekeke :D 2 month eh? hahahahahahahahahahaha XD ( lungs cramps! ) but P.S I'm still with Mir. ekekekekeke :))) and oh ya.. i wanted to recommend you guys a song, which I really love for the time being. you guys just click on my music player's playlist and try listen to In My World :)) I love the sound of the guitar at first and then comes the drums.. OMONAH~ I'm in love with the song and actually, the song was the second opening theme for Ao No Exorcist *nodded* first time I listened to the song, i straight away fell in love with it beats. I wonder who sang it.. maybe after this I'll search for it. ekekekekeke :)) So, we're reach the ends of my post :) Hope to see you guys again soon :) hahahaha :)) pray for my happiness yaw! hahahahaa :D Stay blessed and thanks for reading my crap ^..^ And to end this very post, I would like to introduce my current boyfriend. hahahahaha :D Enjoy~

Ngeee ♥  i'm blushing right now. ahhahahahaa :D I'm sooo freaking in love with this guy! :D

SO, wish us happy ever after.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~ ♥

Peace Out!

P.S : I love his eyes and his serious looking :D hahahaha :D Kawaii~~ >.< ♥

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Your Tears :)

Not Gonna Tell Because I Want To Keep Smiling :)

Hehehei, what's up? Annyeong and Greetings :) Today I'm gonna tell a fairy tale. hahaha :) Just Kidding. I'm not really good in telling story XD  Anyway today is another falling day for me which make me feel like want to ripped off my heart from my body so that I would stop feeling hurt. ehehehe :) Emo-ish... Well, that's new me :) So, my day wasn't have a good start today. first, I don't get enough sleep because I'm watching special KingDom Hearts MV on Youtube last night. then, I found out that flu got me. Oh yea, I miss having flu.. it's been a while though. hahaha :D third, I have three story to deal with which is my CuCO, and the two, I just got it since yesterday. Gosh =.=; and fourth, as I drew just now, suddenly I feel like crying as you know, my parent disapproval for my ambition. (( suddenly conquering my mind bah )) and then, my parent fought for something ridiculous. Ahh, what a lovely bad day, eh? I know, some of you might envy with my life, right now. ekekeke :DD I'm in the middle of world war III and Oh YEAH! I had fun with it until my tears of joys won't came out anymore. hehehehei :) I have such a beautiful day :) Don't you agree? T^T. and right now, my heart is sinking like titanic. ahaha :) I wanted to cry but I try not to, because.... my room isn't private enough for me to cry. ahahha XD as my parents got my room key. they can burst in at any second :D

So, yesterday I was playing kingdom hearts II and I'm now successfully level 20+ I don't exactly remember the exact level. hahaha :) and suddenly I felt my heart is so heavy when I watch Sora fighting the nobodies. Then, I realize that I want to play as Roxas not Sora. I know that Sora is the main character but he have a very good life; he have friends, he's very joyful, he have family and he have lots of love from people around him. Unlike Roxas, once he had everything but then he lost everything that he once had as he sacrificed himself for Sora. He was one of the nobodies as well.. he is part of Sora and he was never exist. He just, Umm.. How to say this, um... A heartless soul of Sora, the bad version of Sora. Well, I knew that he's a protagonist in the game but I'm kinda pity of him as he never knew who he really are as he wasn't even real. he's kinda zombie; he's moving but don't have memories. I don't know how to explained (( I've told you, I'm not good telling story )) hahaha :) so, I recommending you guys to play Kingdom hearts yourself, then you'll know what I meant or too make it easier, just search for Kingdom Hearts videos on Youtube. ekekeke :)

And today, I got driving class and my instructor complimented me. hehehe :) he said that I can take my driving test soon, maybe around Mid of February. Hopefully I can mastered all the driving skills soon so that I can pass my driving test easily. wohoo :) then, as I arrived home, I felt like writing my newest story line which I would love to entitle as "The Secret 7: Sacred Hearts. The character will of course consist of me and my lads (( my loveliest brothers and sisters )) and also some of it would come from Kingdom Hearts and my imaginations. ehehehe :) I can't wait to write lah as It's been a decade, I didn't do handwriting's story :) I think, I'm gonna leave CuCO for a moment though as right now, I'm not really feel like Kpop freak. hahahaha :) Now I'm hardcore otaku and a gamer too :) Umm... What else? oh yeah, the other story I made is about an ordinary girl who have family crisis and met with a boy who is very mysterious but very friendly to her. he was pale, have blue eyes, and a golden blonde hair. So, what I was trying to tell here is, I'm thinking of doing some vampire story.. but I don't know about it yet or maybe instead of a vampire story, I would make ummm.... Oh well, I can't think of anything right now. hahahaha :)) a prince charming maybe. huahahaha :DDD Just Kidding :)

<----- if you notice, I kinda love to take my pictures from the side nowadays. LOL :D I don't know why... maybe it making me look even cuter than usual. ekekekekeke :) and yeah, I haven't took any pictures since forever. LOL XD I don't have feeling to take picture and not just taking pictures, I don't have feeling to eat as well. I felt fat and especially when someone mention about weight or fat or anything related, I lost my self-confident. Well, I am fat.. hahahahaha :) if I'm not born tall, I'm totally an overweight girl. Seriously, I am.. hehehe :) I try my best to control myself from eating but I just can't especially when I'm feeling down about something and eating is my only solution and the only thing I can do to make me forget about that kind of feeling is food. =.=; Still, I have tons of food in my room. hahahahaha :D and today, I bought some and kept it to myself again. well, just in case I'm feeling down in the middle of the night and felt lazy to walk to the kitchen. hahaahaha :)) Oh well, maybe I am destined to be fat. LOL :D but I wish i'm not... T^T

Today, I asked my parent to send me to Boulevard as I wanted to buy Anime CD's and that's was their punishment for making my day worst today. ahahaha :)) And I bought this three anime CD's. I'm thinking of watching it starting today. and seriously, I actually wanted to buy Blue Exorcist and Starry Sky anime.. but Boulevard Speedy doesn't seem to have it. Kinda disappointing actually. Oh well, maybe it's not really my day.. I can buy it next time though :) Just wait! Urgh, hopefully nobody will bought it before me! >.< hahahaha :)) and today as well, I was thinking to buy Bleach CDs but as I saw it has too many episode, so I change my mind. huahahahaha :D not enough money to buy all de... I only can afford the three CDs. Oh well, maybe next time. I will buy it "ansur-ansur' ehehehehe :)) and maybe I would buy One Piece as well lah. hahahaha :D Wish me luck for that :)

Today is really not my best day but I'm not going to tell about it as it just going to make me feeling more bad later on. hahahaha :) So, I'm just telling the best part then. hehehehehe :) I just wanted to be happy, and contented with life... I do have beautiful life. Just that, bad day ruining part of it. And I'm really are looking forward for something better to happen tomorrow as I'm just feeling restless today. And besides, this isn't the first time I felt this kind of feeling and yeah, i'm sick and tired of crying over it. Now, I hope that I could keep on writing something good and valuable starting today in my blog even though how sad I am by that moment. *sighed* hehehehehehe :) I just want to keep it for myself from now on though... and even if I wrote it here, when I feel like reading my post all over again, I will feel down again and I don't want that. I want to be happy and I want to keep the smile on my face.  I don't want to tell people how hurt I am. I don't want to be pity, I don't want to be love by pity. I just want to be Happy. Yep, that is all I want for... Happy :) So, that's all then. needing bath. hahahaha :D Adieu XD

Last but not least, I distributed this picture to my loveliest sis Jaba. hahahaha :D 

* You must be New~* ahahahahahahahaha XD 

(( just the two of us knew the history behind this.LOL XDDD))

P.S: Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

updating thru phone :)

annyeong and greetings, readers! today is my first day and first time i.update my bloggy through phone :) actually i'm just testing it lah and accidentally i saw that i can update mr.bloggy through phone. ehehe XD just that i'm not reqlly use to the.keypad lah. ahaha :D umm.. actually, i've got nothing.else to say here.as i was.just going.to.test how does.it.feel.to.update blog by phone... ehehehe :) so, that's all. i'm sorry if there got.so.many typos.yah?! adieu XDD

p.s : let your smile.cover up your.tears :)

I'm 18 and I Know it

Annyeong and greetings, readers! Yep, I'm officially 18 years and 3 days old today. ahahaha :) I got lots of presents from my family members :) and <------- that Domo-kun bags is my favourite one. it's from my sis Jaba ahahaha :) Yes! I brought it shopping today :) It matched my watch though =) mum even said that sis Jaba really know how to choose present for me (( does she meant that I look cute with the bag? ahahahahaha XD )) And, about my blog songs, I kinda like it though eventhough, some of the singers, I don't really know much about them. ahahah :) seriously, the songs resembling my mood this few days :) Especially Lonely Days by S.O.A.D. I don't know why but yeah, I'm so lonely, lonely lonely, lonely, lonely ~ ahahaha :DD 2NE1. but I'm okay with it though, like I'm used to it though :) I'm strong enough to keep surviving my lonely days :D Anyways, lets stop talking about lonely days as I have lots to tell about today though :D I have lots and lots of interesting and very new that happens in my life :) Well, maybe that's what we get when we are 18 years old. ekeke :D

This morning, I go to driving institution to start my very first lesson. At first, I was so nervous, even my hands shaking but after a moment of driving, I get use to it and my driving tutor starts to ask me drove to Lutong. I was like, "Whoa!" ahahaha :D so fast! I had great laugh with him though even though I sometimes don't really get his jokes, I just laugh. ahahaahahaha :D Bad ehh? But honestly, he's very nice :) I did few mistake but he just laughing at me instead of mad at me. ehehei :) I'm just learnt bah. so , tomorrow, I'm gonna go again for my second lesson. I can't wait! I wonder if he'll ask me to drive to Lutong again tomorrow, Oh how I wish! XD Um... then, right after I finish my driving lesson, my parent said something about buying me phones. At first, I go blurred as before, when i asked them to buy me one, they was like "Why do you want phone anyway? you already have one?" I just shrugged and grinned that time. ahahaha :) yeah, I have no reason to buy new one though. ehehei :) Well, they did bring me to Boulevard and ask me to find my desired phone O.o and Taa-daa~ I got my dream touch screen phones and it was jeng3 N8 plus 1. ahahahaha :D N9 to be exacts. Yeah, i've been telling that I want an N8 before but when I saw N9, I quickly falling in love, ekekeke :)) so, now I officially have my N9 :) but I haven't use it yet because my sim card didn't fit in. and even if my sim card fit in, maybe I won't use it for some times, because I still love my LG 580 :) that is the longest phones that could stand me. ahahaha :) I'm so deeply in love with my LG GD580 :)

And at around 2p.m I went to Phoebe's house to tutor her as she is SPM candidates for 2012. Yes, I don't want her to repeat the same mistake that I've did last year. ekekeke :) she must be prepared starting from the early month. I want her to pass this time :) ehehehe :) Well, I'm not saying that I'm very good in subjects, (( In fact, i failed it all, before )) hahaha :)) but I'm seriously trying my best to tutor her :) she's clever enough and I know I can make her understand more about her school works. Umm.. I'm focusing on her form 4 syllabus... because last year, when she was form 4, she was always ringo-ringo and failed most of her subjects except for English. seriously, her english is dang good! ahahaha :)) she's an English people. ekeke :) Even her BM is very not in good state. ehehehe :) not saying that mine is very good but when she making sentences in BM, it always sounds like sentences that primary schools always make. =.=; I don't she's a malaysian. ahahaha :D just kidding. Anyway, I'm going to try my best to her tutor. and P.S I'm doing it for free. ahahaha :D seriously, I've think about this last few days ago as I'm thinking that I've been so bored at home and I have nothing else to do.. and of course I'm sick of playing facebook games, online-ing, lacking of ideas to continue my story line, and playing my PS2 (( actually, I'm just don't like playing PS2 alone though )). So, why not I'm making something beneficial by tutoring, right? Besides, I can moved my brain cells by doing the thinking and solving those twisting code of chemistry, biology, mathematics and add math ;)



So, that's all I want to say though :) be seeing you peeps in my next post :D Adieu 
*ME GUSTA*

Currently addicted to this game :)~ Kingdom Hearts ~
I prefer Roxas (the blondie ) than Sora.. but to bad, the main character is Sora T^T. ahahaha :)
P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

My Real Wish on 2012 :)

Annyeonghaseyo and greetings  It's my first post of 2012. wee♥ I'm still alive! hahaha :)))Anyway,  its seriously just the number of the year that changing, my life? non changing ehehe :D well, of course I'm looking forward for something good to happen this year :) If I could just wish. And yep, it's gonna be my third year together with my Mr. Bloggy. ahahahaSo, Umm... what else?  Oh ya, actually I'm just about to continue on my story but I was suddenly have the mood to write my blog first as I haven't yet wrote anything since the 2012 is here, so... here I am... hehehe :) And seriously, I want to apologized first to those who read lah... because what I'm going to write is going to be a little sad though. Yeah, I shouldn't start with sad stuff. But it's what i felt though. Don't blame me... Blame my feelings. ehehehe :) And Oh, <--- that's my old picture. I found it inside my hard disk ngehehehe :) cool eh? I know right? Always be photogenic one :) Anyhow, let me start with it... I just need all my tears to flow like a waterfall tonight or i'm going to stay with this fake smile until I can't hold it any longer. ahahaha 

Okay, seriously my 2012 start real great because I have surrounded by my loveliest family :) No kidding, I have blast. I woke up on 1 Jan 2012 at 1 p.m. hahaha :) I was drunk by drinking to much of juice. ehehehe :D Nah, I'm not an alcoholic person, I hate them. ehehehe :) But none knows that even though I look like I'm enjoying myself, I still  have that little funny feeling inside. The sad feeling. Well, I don't know.  I just automatically thinking of my big brother. As this year, he didn't celebrating New Year with us all and it was the very first year he didn't join us. He was here, in this very house. But I can't feel his existence. It seems like his body is here but his soul isn't here. I don't know how to explain, but it something like it lah. heehee :) Anyway, he seems to keep on avoiding us and he didn't even take a peek on what were we doing. I did wish that he could just walk over or stood there for a moment, it's already matter for me. But I didn't even see him go out from his room. Haish, (( Right now, I'm wondering... why my tears won't fell off? As long as it stay there, I'll be forever sad :( Uh )) ahaha :D just kidding though :D like seriously, I felt that my new year celebration is nothing special... I felt empty. My mum especially... She does look happy but I know she's hurting inside. She have the toughest stuff to deal with in her life but I salute her for her big patience in life and she never show any sign of giving up :) That what I love the most about her. And on that very new year night, my brother ask another hundreds ringgit and his usual friends came over and they keep themselves locked inside the room doing what ever things they do lah... 

And just now, I reminisce back how happy my life back then. When I was still just a little girl. My brother treat me so well and he even shared everything with me. I remember once he bought me stuff like food, toys... he was the best brother that i ever had. Well, literally he is my only brother though. hahaha :) I still remember the day he picks me up from school. He's car was becoming the talks of my schoolmates and I was like "Oho, that's my brother," ahahaha :D yeah, I'm proud :) and no one dares to put their hands on me because of him, he just protective you know... And one time, I remember the day I help him tackle this one girl. ehehehe :) I help him with my cuteness. that was the best memory I ever had with me. and we both often celebrates our birthday together as we both born on 9th ( but he's on December and i'm on January ) I still keep the picture you know.. and I think, that's the last picture we took together though and it was almost 10 years ago, we all still young that time. still budak hingusan and sis Jaba still telling me her Ghost Hunter story. ehehehe :)) I wish he never choose this wrong path. it may not hurt him, but its hurt me a lot as he is my brother and yeah, I did tell that I hate him but I found that I can't hate him no matter how much he hurts my parents. He may be stupid, and I may say out loud to other out there that I hate him so damn much but it just an empty word. I could never ever ever hate him. even if he was caught murdering someone, I will still always forgive him and will never hates him. I know, he may done wrong. He just some rebellious adult. and people out there may think or say that he's useless but no matter how useless or how stupid he behave, he always be my only brother, the one that I love, the one that I respect, the one that I hope that he'll turn back to live the right path. I never lost hope on him because I believe, everyone deserve a second chance and I do believe that he'll change one day.

My real wish on New Year 2012 is that I wish that my brother would change and be the son that my parent always dream to have. I wish that he could turn back to the right path and behave like others normal brother.  I hope that God would open his heart so that he would believe in Him and always pray for goods and healthy. and I wish that he could be someone better and stay out of trouble. I wish this 2012 would happen something that can reset his mind and make him change into someone better. I wish that he would grow up and be matured. I wish that he never breaks mum hearts and never ever make my dad lose hope on him. I as well wish that all his negativity would be replace with positivity so that he could differentiate the good and the bad things to do. I wish I wish that he would never getting involve with drugs or anything related to it anymore. I wish he'll stop doing all the wrong things and start to do the good things. 
                 

So, that's all I need to say about my brother. Yes, I realize that was my real wish on New Year :) I really hope for the best for him. I want my brother back, this person who live in my house isn't my brother.. I don't know who he is.  My brother never done anything bad like for years. My brother was someone who believe in himself, a gamer, protective, creative, dreamer and I know he may acting aggressively before but past is past.... I will always try to find something good about him and always try to forgive him in no matter what he will do. Because I Believe, God is with me and He will always protect me. I'm not afraid to this new brother.  and I as well believe that my Father in Heaven will bring my brother back to our family. :D
P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)