Randomly Post :D

AnnyeongHaseyo, Bloggers! yeah, i'm back! hahaha :) it's been a while eh i didn't update my blog. kinda busy lately as my sis Ina is around so i don't have any chance to only for too long. ekeke :) yeah, she is quite strict you know. Oh well, for my own good lah that :) i've been doing my History Notes for this weekend and finally i finish until 3.1.1 LOL XD improving eh? hahaha :D crazy. actually i'm about to do chapter 7 of my history's workbook but oh well, maybe after i update this baby blog of mine, then i'll do it or maybe i'll wake up early morning later on to do some of it before my history teacher kick me out of the class. hahaha :D and for English tomorrow, i'm guarenteed that i'm going to stand outside tomorrow for i haven't hands in my Holiday homeworks. ekeke :D not that i have no time, but my lazybones always said no. Not my fault. blame my lazybones and spines. ekekeke :) 

this week, nothing unusual happen. just that i'm worried about birthday party next saturday. Urgh! i'm so worried. what if i wear something that is not suitable? what if? ahh~ i'm so worried and yeah, to be honest, that is my first time going to the party of others. haiz~i did being invited last time, but i turn the invitation down. so, its just all my fault. hahaha :D hopefully everything will going smoothly. i'm not just worried about the costume but also the present. i don't know what to buy for her and fortunately, she's a girl. LOL XD if he's a boy, ohh~ i don't know what to give to him. ekekeke :D well, maybe on this week i'll try to bring my parent to maybe to ToysRUs or maybe to ToysWorld to get something for her. hehehei~ we can't just simply attend the birthday party without any present eh? ahahha :D that's rude. anyway, i'm worried about all of it. ekeke :D

and another things that i am very demanding for the time being is a brand new phones. Urgh! i can't stand to use my old phones. it just i'm bored listening to only two song. can you imagine that? that is just too limited for music-freakos like me! hopefully i can confronted both of my parent and tell them that i really need to get new phone a.s.a.p if they want me to stop loitering on the web. hehehe :) yes, my reason of surfing the web is because i want to listen to music lah. haiz~ if i can get new phones, i just put every song that i have in my Lappy and put it all inside the phones. ekeke :D urghh~ i'm so badly desperately want a new phone! oh God, hear my wish. hope i can have the phone that i desire the most! AMEN!

and also, i've been started to make story again. i make two new story this time. ekeke :D about what? well, that's a secret as i'm just getting started. I'll post it here after i finish writing it all :) it just short story, hopefully. ekeke :D so, i guess, that is all i wanted to tell for now. it's almost midnight now. so, good night and God Bless all of you~ thanks for reading (even if you guys only wanted to download the pictures :))

P.S : let your smile cover up your tears :)

VISION OF HELL FIRE AND FALLING FIRES

RAPTURE MIGHT BE VERY NEAR, STAY PREPARED ALWAYS AND MAINTAIN YOUR VIGILANCE.
by Apostle Chris Barnabas-Kargbo on Friday, June 16, 2011 at 8:03pm


PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD, I AM NOT WRITING THIS VISION TO YOU TO MAKE YOU PANIC, SELL, GIVE AWAY YOUR BELONGINGS OR STOP WORKING IN ORDER TO WAIT FOR RAPTURE BUT THAT YOU DO EVERYTHING WITH ALL CAREFULNESS KNOWING THAT THE SECOND COMING OF THE LORD, WHO IS JESUS AS ANNOUNCED BY THE PROPHETS AND THE APOSTLES IN THE SCRIPTURE IS VERY NEAR AND SOON AS WELL AS THE DAYS OF SCARY BURNING FIRE. PLEASE! PLEASE!! PLEASE!!! LET US WAKE UP; RAPTURE IS AT OUR DOORSTEP ALREADY. TODAY, THE 16TH OF JUNE 2011 AT ABOUT 3.00 AM, I WOKE UP TO A MORNING PRAYER AND AS IN BED SINGING CHORUSES AND PRAYING, I FELT THE HOLY SPIRIT CAME UPON ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PRAYER (MY EXPERIENCE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT IS WHAT I CAN DESCRIBE AS A CHILLING, FRIENDLY, ENJOYABLE AND EXCITING SHOCKS THAT RAPS AROUND OR CLOTHS ME AS I PRAY, PREACH OR IN VISION AND DURING REVELATION)



AT CERTAIN STAGE IN THAT PRAYER MODE, I NOTICED THAT I WAS ALREADY SPEAKING IN TONGUES AND MAKING OCCASIONAL DECLARATIONS UNTIL I LOST CONTROL OF MY PHYSICAL AWARENESS.



FIRSTLY, I SAW MYSELF SUFFERING AND WORKING SO HARD IN A BAKERY AND BEING VERBALLY ABUSED BY THE OWNER OF THE BAKERY WHO HAPPENED TO BE A WOMAN. THEN, JUST AS I WAS SITTING SOMEWHERE FEELING SAD, I OVERHEARD SOMEONE FROM AN UPSTAIRS BUILDING SAYING; LET US MAKE CHRIS A GREAT MAN OF GOD, AND THE OTHER PERSON WHO’S VOICE I RECOGNIZED TO BE THE VOICE OF A PASTOR I KNOW PHYSICALLY SAID TO THE FIRST SPEAKER; WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO MAKE A GREAT MAN OF GOD! (MEANING I ALREADY GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO MAKE A GREAT MAN OF GOD BY MY PERCEPTION IN THE VISION) THEREAFTER I FOUND MYSELF IN FRONT OF A LARGE HALL WHERE BELIEVERS BOTH YOUNG AND OLD, BLACKS AND WHITES, MALE AND FEMALE WERE PRAYING VERY VIGOROUSLY TOGETHER. I COULDN’T GET IN BECAUSE MY SHIRT WAS VERY UNKEMPT (THE VERY ONE I WAS WEARING IN THE BAKERY TO DO WORK) SO I TOOK A THOUGHT TO LEAVE THE CHURCH PREMISES. AS I ATTEMPTED, I FELL IN FRONT OF THE CROWD THAT WERE AT THE OVERFLOW. I BECKON FOR HELP BUT NO BODY CAME TO SUPPORT ME STAND ON MY FEET, RIGHT THERE, I STARTED FELLING SOMETHING MOVING INSIDE OF MY BODY MUCH LIKE I WAS GOING THROUGH DELIVERANCE. THEN, OF A SUDDEN, I FOUND MYSELF NO LONGER AT THE CHURCH PREMISES WHERE I FELL INITIALLY BUT AT A PLACE THAT LOOKS VERY MUCH LIKE A TRASH-GROUND SOAKED AND SOILED ALL OVER AND STILL STRUGGLING AND UNABLE TO STAND ON MY FEET WITH NO ONE AROUND ME, I STARTED NURSING HOPE THAT JESUS WAS GOING TO COME AND HELP ME OUT OF MY SITUATION. JUST AS I WAS THERE STILL STRUGGLING TO PUT MYSELF TOGETHER, A YOUNG MAN OF MY SAME AGED 36, WALKED TO ME AND STRETCHED FORTH HIS LEFT HAND TOWARDS ME. I TOOK A GRAB IMMEDIATELY AND STOOD ON MY FEET, WE STARTED SETTING OFF LIKE GOING SOMEWHERE STILL HOLDING HIM HAND IN HAND WITH HIM IN FRONT LEADING, SO I TRIED TO TAKE A LOOK AT HIS FACE IN A WAY TO SEEKING TO KNOW HIM SO THAT I COULD INTERACT WITH HIM BUT HE WOULDN’T TALK TO ME; I NOTICED. HIS EYES LOOKS FRIENDLY, BEAUTIFUL AND ATTRACTIVE, SUCH THAT I HAVE NEVER SEEN ON ANYBODY IN THE WORLD. HE WALKED ME A LITTLE DISTANCE FROM WHERE HE HAD HELPED ME STOOD ON MY FEET AND I STARTED SEEING FIRE FALLING FROM THE SKY LIKE HEAVY RAIN HITTING ALL OVER AND BURNING ALL GRASSES, WOODS AND JUST EVERYTHING AROUND WITH FLAMES LIKE A BURNING MASSIVE FIELD. THEN, IT OCCURRED TO ME TO LOOK AHEAD AND I LOOKED AND BEHOLD, A FIERY BURNT LARGE AREAS WITH NOTHING IN SIGHT OTHER THAN HOT-RED FIRE WITHOUT FLAMES THAT COULD ONLY BE DESCRIBE AS A BURNING FURNACE AS THE BIBLE PUTS IT OR LIKE A FIELD OF MANY BURNT RED-HOT IRONS LOOMING TO THE HEIGHT OF THE SKY AND POURING OUT PARTICLES OF FIRE AND MOVING GRADUALLY ENGULFING JUST EVERYTHING AND TOWARDS WHERE WE WERE COMING FROM. ON SEEING THIS, I PULLED OFF MY HAND FROM HIS HAND AND SET OFF TOWARD THE DIRECTION WHERE HE HAD EARLIER HELPED ME STOOD ON MY FEET AS HE DISAPPEARED. IT IS NOT ANYTHING TO COMPARE WITH THE FIRE OF A VOLCANIC ERUPTION. WE WERE NEAR TO HELL FIRE, I PERCEIVED. THE FIRE WASN’T YET MUCH AT THE AREA I RAN TO, BUT IT WAS STILL POURING FROM THE SKY. THEN, I LOOKED UP IN THE SKY HAVING ESCAPED THE HOTTEST REGION IN ANTICIPATION TO SEEING A SIGN OF JESUS COMING BUT THERE WAS NOTHING EXCEPT THESE PARTICLES OF FIRE RAINING FROM ALL OVER THE SKY. SUDDENLY, I MET A GROUP OF BELIEVERS I RECOGNIZED ARE FROM THE CHURCH I CO-FOUNDED WITH A BROTHER WHO IS NOW THE GENERAL OVERSEER, CALLED ‘CALVARY ARMY MINISTRIES IN MY COMMUNITY IN 1994. THEY WERE GATHERING UNDER A HUT. I STAGGERED THROUGH THEM TIREDLY AS I WAS WEAKENED LIKE A DRUNK. BY THIS TIME, AS I WALKED THROUGH THEM. THE HOLY SPIRIT CAME UPON ME AND I STARTED POURING OUT TONGUES AGAIN. I TRIED TO STOP THE TONGUE ON MY OWN SO THAT I COULD TALK TO THEM IN A LANGUAGE THEY COULD UNDERSTAND BUT I COULDN’T. THEN, I WENT OVER TO ANOTHER AREA, JUST A DISTANCE AHEAD OF THEM.



I FOUND A SHADOWY PLACE WHERE I TOOK A LITTLE REST, BUT THE FIRE KEPT FALLING. SO I MANAGE OUT OF CURIOSITY TO PICK A PIECE OF THE FALLING FIRE TO EXAMINE WHAT IS IT THAT IS BURNING AND FALLING FROM THE SKY. I DISCOVERED IT WAS LIKE ACHES FROM BURNT WIRES. JUST AS I WAS THERE IN THE SHADOWY PLACE ALMOST LIKE IN A HIDING, I OVERHEARD A GIRLFRIEND ACCUSING HER BOYFRIEND OF MAKING HER TO MISS RAPTURE AND HAVE DUMPED HER FOR ANOTHER LADY. SHE WAS ARGUING AND TAKING A STAND THAT SHE WOULD NO LONGER HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM. FROM HER CLAIM, IT LOOKED SHE WAS A CHRISTIAN BUT MISSED RAPTURE DUE TO FORNICATION. THEN, SHE SAID SHE WAS GOING TO FIGHT FOR THE LAST CHANCE AND THAT THE BOYFRIEND SHOULD NOT COME NEAR HER ANYMORE BUT THE BOYFRIEND SEEMED UNCONCERNED AND RELAXED BECAUSE I DIDN’T HEAR HIM SAY ANY WORD. THEN I HEARD HER FRIEND (THE THIRD PARTY AND A LADY WHO IS A FRIEND TO THE GIRLFRIEND) TALKED TO HER IN AN ATTEMPT TO DISCOURAGE HER SAYING; WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT TO DO AGAIN, YOU NEED NOT BOTHER BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE GONE ALREADY.(MEANING MANY FAITHFUL BELIEVERS HAVE BEEN RAPTURED ALREADY) IT WAS HERE THAT I REALIZED THAT THERE IS A SECOND CHANCE BECAUSE I WASN’T AWARE THAT RAPTURE HAS TAKEN PLACE UNTIL I OVERHEARD THEIR ARGUMENT. IT MUST HAVE TAKEN PLACE AT THE TIME I BECAME CONSCIOUS OF MYSELF ON THE TRASH-GROUND AND WAS HELPED TO MY FEET BY THAT YOUNG MAN; I THOUGHT AND CONCLUDED. THEN, I MOVED OUT OF MY HIDING DETERMINING TO GO AND FIGHT FOR A SECOND CHANCE WHICH IS THE LAST CHANCE.

I WALKED A LITTLE LATER FROM THERE AND MET A LARGE CROWD OF PEOPLE BEING BEATEN, CONTROLLED, DRAGGED AND DRIVEN BACKWARD TO WHERE THEY WERE RUNNING FROM WHICH IS THE DIRECTION OF THE MOVING AND ENGULFING FIRE WITHOUT FLAME ALMOST LIKE A MOVING AND CONSUMING FURNACE BY DEMONS (THEY WERE HUMAN IN APPEARANCE WITH PAINTED SCARY FACES, BIGGER IN SIZES AND LOOKING TOUGH, THEY HAVE POWER TO PUSH A PERSON TO WHEREVER THEY WANT WITHOUT ANY RESISTANCE FROM THE INDIVIDUAL) THEY WERE PREVENTING PEOPLE FROM ESCAPING THROUGH THE LAST CHANCE. AS THE MASSIVE CROWD OF PEOPLE RUSHED TOWARDS A DIRECTION SIGNALING SAFETY. A KIND OF WHERE PEOPLE COULD RUN INTO AND BE FREE FROM THE FALLING FIRE, TORTURE AND TORMENTS OF THE DEMONS. THE AREA WAS MUCH BRIGHTER AND FRIENDLIER THAN ORDINARY DAYLIGHT BUT LOOKED LIKE DAYLIGHT.



AS I LIFTED MY EYES ABOVE THE CROWD AND SAW THE AREA, I ATTEMPTED TO RUN IN AN EFFORT TO BREAK THROUGH THE CROWD TOWARDS THE DIRECTION BUT A CERTAIN DEMON WITH A HEAVILY WHITE PAINTED FACE WAYLAYED ME AND PUSHED ME BACKWARD. I ATTEMPTED TO FIGHT HIM OFF MY WAY, BUT HE PUSHED ONE OF HIS RIGHT FINGERS THROUGH MY LEFT EYES AND I LOST THAT ONE, HE THEN GRABBED ME IN THE SOCKET OF MY PUNCTURED LEFT EYE AND DRAGGED ME TO THE GROUND TOWARDS WHERE I HAD PREVIOUSLY ESCAPED AND WANTING TO GO TO THE PLACE OF DAYLIGHT (THE PLACE OF HEAVILY BURNT AND ENGULFING FIRE) I MAINTAIN MY STRUGGLE SCREAMING AND CRYING; JESUS, I WANT YOU, I WANT YOU, I DON’T MIND EVEN THOUGH I LOST EVERYTHING ON MY BODY, I WANT JESUS AND ONLY HIM. THEN, HE PUSHED HIS FINGER THROUGH MY MOUTH IN A WAY TO STOP ME SHOUTING AND CRYING JESUS, AND I BIT THE FINGER HARDER BUT IT WOULDN’T HURT HIM, NO MATTER WHAT I DO AS I PERCEIVED. HOWEVER, HE REMOVED HIS FINGER AND I CONTINUE MY PERSISTENT CRY TO SEE JESUS. I TOLD HIM, HE WOULD RATHER KILL ME BUT I MUST SEE JESUS. IT WAS AT THIS STAGE THAT MY PHONE RANG IN THE PHYSICAL AND I OPEN MY EYES AND PICKED THE CALL, TALKED TO THE SISTER THAT CALLED AND SHARED THE VISION FIRST HAND WITH HER IN BRIEF. BY THIS TIME, IT HAS GONE 8.30 AM WHEN I CHECKED MY WATCH. THE VISION MUST HAVE LASTED MORE THAN FIVE HOURS. MY SISTER THAT CALLED THAT HOUR IS RICHLY BLESSED WITH THE ANOINTING TOO. THINK ABOUT THIS VISION OF RAPTURE AND THOSE THAT WOULD MISS IT. IT IS REAL AND COMING ON US ON EARTH BUT THE EXACT DAY AND HOUR REMAINS UNKNOWN. BE WARNED. MAY GOD BLESSED HIS VISION AND PRESERVE US FOR HIS GLORY ALONE IN JESUS’ MIGHTY NAME. AMEN.

N/B. BRETHREN, STRIVE AND FIGHT HARDER TO ENSURE A PLACE IN THE RAPTURE OF THE FIRST FRUITS OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR WHO IS JESUS CHRIST THAN TO SLIP DOWN FOR SECOND AND LAST CHANCE; IT IS SO SCARY AND DREADFUL. IT IS GONNA BE VERY SORROWFUL FOR THOSE THAT WOULD BE LEFT BEHIND. NO MATTER THESE TORMENTS AND TORTURE, NO BODY IS FREE TO HELP ANY BODY BECAUSE ALL FACES DIFFERENT TOUGH CHALLENGES FROM THE DEMONS WITH NO SIGN OR CHANCE OF WINNING BUT TO DIE FOR THEIR FAITH IF WILLING.



GOING BY WHAT I SAW AND EXPERIENCED IN THIS VISION, NO HUMAN BORN OF HUMAN WAS ABLE TO PENETRATE, ESCAPE OR CROSS OVER INTO THE PLACE OF SAFETY THROUGH THESE DEMONS THAT WERE ON GUARD.



STUDY: REVELATION 13:1-18, 14:1-20, 20:1-15, 21:1-27, 22:8-17.



IF YOU TRULY BELIEVE IN THE SECOND COMING OF JESUS CHRIST AND THE RAPTURE OF HIS FIRST FRUITS; PRINT THIS VISION AND SHARE WITH ANY TWO PERSONS.

UNTIL THEN, TAKE CARE AND REMAIN BLESSED, SEE YOU IN PARADISE AND GOODBYE TO HELL FIRE.

Can't Handle It! Everything Seem Completely Wrong :(

AnnyeongHaseyo, everyone :) today is another day I write my blog. yeah, I've been very busy lately as i have to attend the extra classes and the song practices. i really need rest for this weekend. hopefully nothing can stop me from resting. Urgh.. i feel so tired this week, i always going home late like 4p.m. Neomu Apayo :( hahahaha. well, its only for this year right? yeah. Next year i'm going to rest after SPM result come out, there i'm going to further my study. Huh, hopefully i really can further my study to foreign university, AMEN. hahaha :) Oh, SPM is 4 month ahead and i haven't done any revision yet. How to do revision if i haven't done my homework? ha? ha? tell me.. hahaha :D anyway its all my own fault de. I should discipline myself and put homework as my priority before i done anything unimportant like, Blogging. hehehei. I really do want to stop myself to prioritize anything that is not related to SPM but i just couldn't. Actually i can but i just can't help it :(

Oh, its raining, thundering outside. so badly. to be honest, i don't really like thunder even though i love rainy days. hahaha :) yeah, right now i should be scare but i'm not because i know that i'm protected by His blessing towards me. hehehe :) i love HIM for always be there and protect me from every evil. Ah, talking about evil. Yesterday my stupid brother gone mad because mum wasn't at home. i don't really know about it but for sure he really mad at mum. To be honest, i don't think he can scold mum for not being at home because mum is the one who gave him money, shelters even shirts. even how much mum cry, she always pray for his safety. I don't understand why he being so rude towards mum. doesn't he ever felt the love that mum always gave him since he was brought to this world? I just don't get it. even both of my parent care more about him than me. Actually, i am the one who suppose to be mad at this house as i'm just invisible here. Well, I'm glad though for not becoming crazy like him. hahahaha :) well, i'm so mad, hate, angry, dislike him right now. whenever i think about what he done to mum, i can't take it. i just pissed. i'm clueless. what more he want mum to give him? he had more than enough. even i think millionaire's son won't have the easiest live like he had. he don't even go to work. all he do is sleep then ask for money, bringing his friends home to hang out till dawn. then mum gives him enough food and then he scold mum. DUH! i just don't understand. Well, maybe that because he needs that thing so much. i mean, the drugs. Yes, i suspected him to involved in drugs. even my intuitive strongly say YES. My Lord, can you please tell me if my intuitive is right or wrong. I just demand for an answer.
     And to be honest, i sometimes wished my brother to die. haha :) i'm so bad eh? i know. but that only when i pissed off lah. sometimes i wonder, why can't i have normal family like my friends does? why must i have this kind of complicated family and troublesome brother? these are one of the reason why I don't want to grow up. growing up making you notice what you never notice when you are young. When you're young, you don't really care whether you hurting other's feeling or what happen at your surrounding. all you care about is your friends and the games you're about to play. I miss that childhood stuff. hmm...hmm.. whether i like it or not, i have to grow up right? i have no other choice. so, i think i better be calm and try not to mix my personal problems and school problems together. if not, i'm going to be dead-meat and have no future. LOL :D

Another thing that i am so worry about is of course, SPM. i wonder, will i ever make it? can i get the best mark ever or can i get straight A+ for my SPM? well, it only 4 month left. what can i do in this 4 month? for sure i don't know what i should do. hahaha :) i'm blur to death. eishh! i wish i never been this stupid. i just knew that Science subject is the most important subject to pass if i want to further my study and Tett, i failed every single science subjects that i took. LOL XD very funny. Chemistry and Mathematics, I have a bit progression i think. the problem now is Biology, Additional Mathematics and Physic. GAH! i'm so blur on what to do. how can i pass the science subject if History is already that hard for me to get A? i don't know what to do. no one is able to help me now unless i want to help myself. So, i really make up my mind that i want to do revision on this coming month of July. I really really really should revise or maybe do some practices. practice make perfect, right? so, that is what i'm going to do. then, we'll see whether in third trial later on, do i have progression or my grades are getting worsen. Ugh! hopefully not going to be worsen. hahaha :) i'm so scare and nervous. I may look relax, but inside, i'm trembling. hahaha :) haishh.. i started to feel sleepy lah. i don't knowlah.. because just now i thought of doing my homework after i update my blog but i guess today is not the day because i still can feel the tiredness. eishh.. tomorrow going home late again. I got Chemistry's extra classes and so do the song practices. Haizh..


I guess, that is all I want to tell for now. I want to rest my body a bit before i fell sick and miss one day of school. if i miss even just for 24 hours, i know that i miss many stuff. hehehe. i don't want to be the Blitz. ekeke :) so, see you guys in my next post. hehehe. annyeongiGaseyo! and sweet dream~
so, to end this post, i end it with Yu Ha Min's New picture :) ENJOY!

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Photo Collections of HyukMin + YoungGi = MinGi ♥

This is the photo that i never post in this blog. ekeke :) well, i be using it in my future post just that i can't wait to show off here. LOL XDD. anyway, enjoy this dreamy couple of mine :) 

Just want to thanks their producer for making one of my wishes come true 

*eventhough this is maybe just a coincidence, it fine. really..*

more to come when i finish stalking hyukmin in the future LOL XD

thanks for viewing!

Wild Imagination With My Dearest Besties :P

Annyeong, everyone :) its been 2 days i didn't write. it just felt like 2 years that i didn't update :D yesterday i was about to update, but bloggy don't allowed me to upload pictures. so, i feel disappointed. you know kan i can't update blog if without pictures. ehehe :) it will be so boring if i didn't put pictures. well, Thanks God the uploader can work as usual again today. if not, i don't know what will happen to my fingers for not typing anything XD. oh, right now i'm doing my Biology assignment which i should send to my teacher many month ago. hahaha :D well, you know me. Oh, and today i went home late because me and my classmates have to practice our singing. Yes, we're going to represent our class for a singing contest. ekeke :) sound funny but its real. i'm in the group as well. I admit, i'm not a very good singer but i guess my voice is okay lah. *self-proud* Oh, we all did well today but we really should practice more next week because the competition will be held on this 30th of June. WHOA! its next week, genk! i haven't memorize the lyrics yet. GAH! well, nevermind. hahaha :) actually the reason i update today is because i want to share my new hobbies with two bestfriend :) the most crazy and daydreamer's friends that i ever had :)

 hahaha :) you must be wondering what is the hobby that i was talking about. well, the hobby is Making-Fanfiction-Together. hahaha :D yesss~ we made our own drama. hahaha :) it quite funny you know because i never expect dence to be very imaginative like that. yeah, she started everything up. hahaha :) the story was about our summer holiday where the three of us went to Osaka, Japan. it all started on the day the three of us went to the famous theme park at Osaka. ( idk if there got theme park in Osaka) we've met Jonghyun CNBlue, Siwon SUJU and K.HyukMin. i don't really know how to explain the whole story here because i'm not really good in telling story lah. hahaha :D well, i've been decided to write a story based on the imagination that we've collected from each other's brain. ahahaha :) i can't wait to start writing it. every single image that i've imagine is still really fresh in my mind. ekekekekeke :) so in love with the whole story. Season One was finished yesterday and today we started Season Two. LOL XD i wonder if there got drama which can end in just one day. hahahaha  :) overall, i love the story line and it is quite romantic especially on Valyie and Siwon part. KYAHH! hahahaha :) i can't control myself to stop from blushing you know. ehehei. even the teacher scold us both when we off limits having fun. ekeke :) in conclusion, they both are made to be my bestfriends. i never thought of knowing someone who have the same hobby with me before. LOL XD i mean, unusual hobbies like imagine-before-sleep. hahaha :) *this statement is not including Jaba as she is just the same as i d* hahaha :) Oh, i find that my english is getting brokenier XD

I really do love the pictures of me and hyukmin. ekekeke ;D i wonder if i'm an ulzzang, would he ever consider me as his girlfriend? LOL XD well, i think he won't pick me as there are thousands of ulzzang who is looking so damn cute, for example Hong Young Gi. ohhh... talking about Young Gi and Hyuk Min, I have a number of collection of their photo together but too bad.. just too bad that they weren't couple. i really wish that they are couple you know. hahaha :) huh? why they weren't couple? that because YoungGi is already taken by someone she loves lah. hahaha :) hyukmin? i don't know about him but for now, i haven't heard any news about he is having yeoja namja. probably he is waiting for me. LMFAO XD sorry..sorry.. i'm just a little bit of missing track from reality. ngahahaha :) Mianhae, HyukMin-shi! ehehe. i hope he won't find this post and read it. if not, i'm going to buried my head like ostrich always did when they sense danger. ekekeke :DDD

And as usual, my stupid brother make my mum cry all over again. he just can't stop breaking mum's heart. Haiz! i just hate him so much. i wonder when will he ever stop hurting mum feeling like that? his behavior is getting worsen. eeeee.... i hate him so much like if i have lots of money, i will ask anyone to crash him to death. i don't care if i'm going to be arrested or going to be in jail forever. as long as i can kill and chop his body until i feel satisfy. URGGHH!!!! i know this sound kinda bad you know but it just that he just being to annoying and freaking loser. i know that hating own's brother isn't right but i just cannot held my hateful feeling towards him. i won't hate him if  he hadn't make mum's cry, but he did it almost everyday and for me, it just hard to forgive. i can't do anything except for writing and telling what i want to do to him. but in reality, i don't even have the guts to face him because i'm afraid that he would harm me and then if i'm harmed, who would take care of my parents? he? bullshit. if i let him to took care of my parent, i don't guarentee if my parent could live longer with him. he may not harm my parent physically but he does tortured them mentally and slowly. mum always try her best to show her smiles towards me but i know she does hurt but she just don't want me to know it. i really wish i had the power to make things right. well, there is no meaningful point to talk about him eh? just making me mad and it just going to make the weight on my shoulder become more heavier as my sins is getting morer. ekekeke :D aishhh... God Bless my brother. hopefully, Father in Heaven have mercy on him and show him the way to the light. Amen.

So, that is all from me for now. here is my latest photo. enjoy! LOL XD

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Dream ;)

Four Months To Come. I Feel Like Being Stab In The Back.

AnnyeongHaseyo! ehehe :) long time didn't use that greetings, eh? yeah, i kinda miss it a bit. i admit, i love Korean's phrases! LOL XD anyway, talking about phrases, there are phrases saying "Don't study until eleventh hour" which tells that don't study right before the exams. hehehe :) i suddenly thought about this phrases because i want to warned everyone that SPM is around the corner!! WHOAA i could believe it myself! i'm so worried to death! GAH! i haven't done any relevant stuff! i haven't touch any practice book! even homework, i didn't finish any one of them!!! i'm dead, SO DEAD!! i saw a very large improvement among my classmates. well, of course they do. unlike me. still in the same level! Loser's Level, i believe T.T my second trial also not good enough you know. still have those red marks written on my paper. but still, i got a little improvement though, even though it still not satisfied me but still i have 2 or 3 marks improving. all i have to do now is to hit the books before its too late :)

 ahhhh~ i'm so deeply in depression right now! i wanted to find things that could fire my spirits up so that i could gain the perfect determination to study, study and study! i wonder how Kong Ek Cheng, Kiu Yun Qian and the rest are studying, eh? they are looking so cool when its come to study but when it come to talking, huh! don't expect them to be serious. hahaha :) Kong Ek Cheng okaylah if she act that way because its been five years i'm in the same class with her =.= but Yun Qian, hmmm.. i thought she was like those kid who talk in minimal amount only and TETT i was wrong! when you get to know her, she is talkative but if you didn't know her, don't expect her to talk to you. hehehe. and yeah, she's always the soft spoken one :) Yun Qian and Ek Cheng, the one who conquer second and top places in class. yeah, they are my most respected student in the school! ekeke :) i guess, they never failed any subjects. if compare to me, i only recover 0.01% of their cleverness, i think. ahaha :D so, i really admiring their cleverness. hmm..hmm.. i already can see their bright future. i am so proud. hahaha :D i talked like proud mommy eh? i know. i already have three child! DUH~ hahaha :D anyhow, i want to be like EkCheng and YunQian :) that is all i ever want for now. i want to be success as they are. i don't mean that i have to be them. what i meant here is i want to be as success as they are :) i don't want to be in the loser's level forever. 

you know why i think i'm in loser's level beside always being in the last places in class? well, you see. in the class, there are a group of people who see me in that way. well, its hard to tell how i can know this. maybe i can feel it in my bones. hahaha :D but truthfully, i know. they look like they likes me but deeply in their heart, i know they were laughing at my marks. it just sad to know the truth but i guess that's what people call as reality. we have to faced it no matter how hard it would be. its not like i want to get those red marks, i just can't understand that certain topic so well. i know i'm not in the same cool level like they are but they shouldn't ever treat me like that. i never treat them bad you know. i never held grudge on them. yeah yeah. i know who i am. i'm just nobody too them. so don't hate me if i didn't treat them good. but they treat me hypocritely*new words* so, i also treat them double hypocritely.  they play nice, i play nice, they play foul, i play foul. easy? yeah, i'm totally on the game right now. they play bitch, i play bitch. i'm really good in playing games. i tell you.  hehehe :) and the most hateful person in my life history is the one who was so call as the 'sickgirl' DUH! i can't hypocrites-ly acted on her. i couldn't help it but to hate her. i don't know why but i have strong hate feeling towards that poor little annoying girl. hahaha :D i feel soo bad right now. in conclusion, i hate them all. i hate them for hating me and stabbing me from behind. i hate them for underestimate me. i hate them for using me just for their own goods. i hate them. i just hate them. this would be our dirty little secret, eh? ehehe :D

Truthfully, i'm carving for the word happiness to be part of my life. as you can see, its just too hard for me to find happiness in my life journey, especially when i'm growing older and becoming more matured. Ugh! that's why i said, i don't ever want to grow up. I miss all the old memories when i was still a child, where i was still being so naive and don't even know if that particular person hates me. if i had a wish, even just one wish, i would wished to have two more wishes. LOL XD just kidding. what i meant to say is, i would wish for happiness and everything in my life is good and nothing bad about it. you may don't understand how i really feel but i just want you guys to know that i'm desperately want to feel the happiness in me. if happiness can be bought, i guess, i wouldn't even have the chance to have it as i'm so pokai right now. hahaha :DD haishh! but surely i thanked to Kang Hyuk Min for posting dorky pose. ehehehe :) surely helping me forgetting those terrible stuff that i've been facing through this few years of  being teenagers. hehei :D thanks hyukMinnie XDD

so, i guess that is all for now. yeah, i feel much better now. 

Oh, before i ended this post, i want to share edited photo of hyukmine XD ehehe :D its just telling some part of what i am feeling right now :) so, enjoy ya guys :D

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Hard To Tell When Its Come To Reality :)

It just another lame day which i have no choice but to face everyday with the same old routine. Haiz! well, nothing could make me down if it not about my stupid brother though. failing in exam is okay for me because if i can fight my laziness, i surely can pass all the paper. just that i don't feel like passing anything because of .. you know, lots of things is loading both of my shoulder. hehei.. even sometimes, i had to show my fake laugh to others, i mean my friends. ehehe. they doesn't need to know anything. this just between me, you and bloggy though, and if you are one of my friend, then don't tell others about it. i just hope that it could be secrets between us :) i would appreciate it if you guys didn't tell anyone, even to the person who is the closest to you :) well, you see.. eventhough my brother isn't really show what's up with him, i can tell it from the bottom of my heart that he is involved in something terrible. i mean, something that is very wrong. you know what i mean.. if you always up-to-date with my post, you know what i mean because i've been mention about this once. i just don't have guts to say about it publically for many times. it just too embarrasing. who doesn't feeling embarassing if one of their family member is involving with some shitty things?! mind my language but that is the best word that is suitable to describe that fuckish things. Gah! if, just if i had the power to stop everything, i mean, him from getting involve with it. anyway. i guess that enough about him. make me won't stop typing. in conclusion for his case, i think, if he want to get involve with anything fuckish like that, he shouldn't ever hurt mum feeling. you know, i'm so damn angry if i accidentally saw mum burst to tears. i just wish killing is legal in my country. hahaha :D 

anyway, school has started last week. just that i don't feel like updating :) sorry. school is quite fun, but when it is come into homeworks and study time, urgh~ feel like want to jump off the third floor. LOL XD Just kidding, actually i found that studying is much fun than sitting down at home and do nothing but played dumb. hahaha :) homeworks, don't say. still tons of it. actually i was planned to do it during this weekend but in the end, i ended up with blogging. ngahahaha :) mum didn't look care so far but i know, deep down in her heart, she is scolding me. ehehe :) she can't scold me here, i mean, i'm at my aunt house right now. muahaha :) yea, my aunt is lonely as both of her daughter is out of town, following their husband of course, and my uncle is also outstation. so, there she was all alone with my sick grandpa and of course annoying niece, oh, ME! ngahahaha :) oh yea, this 2 days, i've been stalking my HyukMin. ekeke :D and i found this kind of picture of him ------------------>>>> he look cuter than before, don't you think? i heard that he made few surgery on his face. yeah, nothing is to good too be true, right? no one perfect. hehei :) well, its all up to him whether to do surgery or not, i'm just being his stalker though. ngahahaha :DD I'M STALKER WITH PRIDE. but still, my love for him will never change. ekekekeke XDD shameless. i wonder, where and when can i met someone look like him and become their special ones? hmm.. hahaha. if in my imaginary world, i've been seeing lots of people who look like him. LOL but when i went back to reality, all those cute looking boys are currently with their loves one or maybe liking someone, which is so not me. hahahah :)D i don't care about that lovey-dovey stuff actually, i just want to meet the person who look like hyuk min. he doesn't have to be mine, just friend is already enough for me. hahaha :D oh please, God, grant my wish! XD

talking about school, i was enlisted to attended intensive class for addmath. guess what? i feel so relieved! hahaha :D DUh! who doesn't? it always be my dream to get pass my addmath's paper! hahaha :) simple dream, but it lead me to the brightiest future ever! oh, talking about future, today.. when i was busy online-ing, i suddenly thought about the field that i'm going to take after SPM. so, i was thinking like this way, if i manage to get straight A's for my SPM, i will go enroll civil engineering but if i only get A's for my primary subject, then i'll go enroll for art and design. easy right? this whole years, i've been confusing with this two things but praise to the Lord Our God, with his grace, i manage to make up my mind. ehehe :) i don't have to worry about it anymore. so, i what i have to worry more for now is that How Am I Going To Get Straight A+ for my SPM? hmm...hmmm.. well, i've been thinking of few ways actually and of course, without determination, i won't able to make it. so first step, i want to finish all my undone homeworks. second, i want to do revisions. third, i want to lessen my online time, what i really mean is that i want to make an effective time management for myself. and fourth is i want to attend all the extra classes. hahaha :) yeah, i admit, i sometimes skip my extra class. ekeke :D due to extremely laziness of course. so, if i manage to do all the four steps, whoa. i think i can even beat those who is in the 20th places in class. ekeke :D Just kidding. 

Oh, its 7.39 p.m and i haven't ironing my school uniform and i want to prepare my school stuff today. if i did it in the morning, i won't have time to watch PowerPuff Girls. T^T. hahaha :) PPG means a lot to me because it help to enlighten my days. ekeke :) and i think tomorrow i'm going to go home late because of the intensive class, but i don't mind though. just for this year. next year, i will resting in peace. LMFAO XD yeah, next year i want to relaxing first, maybe for 5 or 6 month, then after that i'm going to find university to further my study. want to enjoy life first lah :DD maybe i will further my study to Australia, if mum let me to. i want explore other countries on my own and want to feel how is it like to live all alone. LOL XD and i also have thought that on my resting month, i want to learn foreign language and went travelling to South Korea or maybe Japan! whoa, i can't wait for the time to come. WeeHoo~ love it. eh, time's up. later i will going to continue with another topic. if i had the chance to do it. hehehe :) hopefully i still can keep this lappy on my own. it is feeling much better if i kept it for my own. oh yea, talking about laptop, guess what?! i am going to receive Laptop 1 Malaysia this 25th of June! LOL XD i just can't believe that i can receive it. it is truly the great power of grace from dear Lord, Father in heaven. i'm feeling so lucky. thanks for the luck that you have given me, oh lord. I love You!! XDDD can't wait to receive it! Kyahh!!

so, that's all for now, i will continue in my next post about "My Life As An Otaku" ehehehe :) yes, i admit. i am an otaku and i'm proud of what i am and what i am being. because i just being myself here :)

so, i guess that is all for now. be seeing you guys in my next post. Adieu :D

P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears >.0