I'm suffering from Bipolar Disorder I (0____o)

Greetings, humans. We meet again. hahahaha :) Well, actually I just finished answering few psychology test because my curiosity about whether I'm a bipolar or not but after taking few question, now I know. (T____T) sadly, I am. hahahahahahahahahahaha XD Before this, I'm often saying that I'm a bipolar person but I never meant it, I mean, it just for fun, ya know, like entertainment between siblings. ehehei :) but I never thought it could be real. Well, being bipolar is not something to be proud of because it could lead to suicidal thought. Ha, I know one person who had thought about suicide ( You know who yo are, dude ) hahahaha :) I think she's a bipolar too. Well, honestly, we are. hahahahaha :) and now I realized, no wonder I invented Ally Menders and make it become part of me. I mean, like this few months, I've been feeling that I'm half Ally, half Pgie. I don't know how to explain this but I do feel like I'm being someone else sometimes. hahahaha :D but still, that someone is me. I know you don't get it, hahahaha :D Sorry for my bad explanation (=___=;)

How I knew that I'm a bipolar/ manic? Well, I after I'm taking those questions, I was googling about the symptoms, which is likely to shock me to death as I got almost like 3/4 of it. hahahahaha :D Adeh, anyway, here's the common symptoms. the one I highlighted is the one I have lah :)


Common signs and symptoms of mania phase include:

• Feeling unusually “high” and optimistic OR extremely irritable
• Unrealistic, grandiose beliefs about one’s abilities or powers
• Sleeping very little, but feeling extremely energetic
• Talking so rapidly that others can’t keep up
• Racing thoughts; jumping quickly from one idea to the next
• Highly distractible, unable to concentrate
• Impaired judgment and impulsiveness
• Acting recklessly without thinking about the consequences
• Delusions and hallucinations (in severe cases)

• Common symptoms of bipolar depression include:

Feeling hopeless, sad, or empty. Irritability Inability to experience pleasure Fatigue or loss of energy Physical and mental sluggishness

Appetite or weight changes Sleep problems Concentration and memory problems Feelings of worthlessness or guilt Thoughts of death or suicide

The warning signs of suicide include:

Talking about death, self-harm, or suicide Feeling hopeless or helpless Feeling worthless or like a burden to others

Acting recklessly, as if one has a “death wish” Putting affairs in order or saying goodbye Seeking out weapons or pills that could be used to commit suicide

So, yeah. I'm shock as much as you too. But no worry it still not too late to be treated. hahahaha :) But when I go and meet Psychologist lah. ahahaha :) Which is never happens. LOL :) anyhow, I'm feeling glad to have this bipolar thing because it really help me a lot in writing stories like Jaba once told me, when she read "Levedad Little Adventure" she felt like it was written by someone else because it is different from Saving Chrystella Mclaren. Well, I was like "(o.O) seriously?" hahahaha :) Well, then I thought, maybe it was Ally who wrote it instead of Pgie. Ya know, Ally is somewhat a little more creative than Pgie and her English is better, I think. hehehehei :) Still, that person is ME. huahahahaha XD I'm talented yaw! ekekeke ;) Just kidding :)
"Same Person, Different Personality," speaking of this, I feel like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. hahahaha :)  I never knew when will I change into another me, like Jekyll. He wasn't aware when he becoming Mr. Hyde. So yeah, hopefully I won't change face like Mr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde do. ahahahahaha :)) Still, no worries for I'm mostly as Pgie, original me. hahahaha :) Just take noted, when I look more matured unusually or not very talkative or being sarcasm, that's Ally. hahahaha :) Pgie isn't bad because too cute to be badass.. huahahahaha :) Besides, Ally love to read and Pgie is a pro-slacker. Ally have lots of ideas and Pgie ideas only like fish on the hook. hahahahaha :D life-life-fish. ahahahaha :D But honestly, I seldomly become Ally, but when I do, I'm being productive and of course, my stories will be soooo long. hahahaha :) Hmmm.... Maybe Ally is more hardworking I guess. hahaha :) rest well, Ally. I need you to write my Saving Chrystella Mclaren as well. ekekekeke XD

So, yeah. We're getting closer to the end of the post. Woohooo! So, I want to tell that I'm still AnnaJosh shipper. hahahaha :) I wish one day they will be together, have kids and happily ever after. God! I really can feel the chemistry between them. Sometimes, I kind of feeling irritated when I see Josh or Annasophia filming with other girls/guy. hahahaha :) I guess I'm just being over obsessed with this two, eh? About Dramione/ Feltson. Well, nah... Not shipping them anymore. After I read Emma's 'popular'saying in Tumblr last time, I don't really like her anymore. It's hurting me like a lot a lot (T___T) of course she doesn't understand about people being so obsessed with their favorite celebrities because SHE'S THE CELEBRITY. DUH! Hell, i thought she would be as clever as Hermione =.=; it's insulting, for me because I'm a fans too, and fans got feelings. They being obsessed with their favorite celebrities because they love them and because of the obsession of the fans, they won awards and they are famous also because of the fans obsession. What the hell is she thinking? I think, if not because of all the freaking obsess fans, I don't think she would ever show up in the big screen anymore. Just saying. No offence :) Just stating out my thought :)

So, here we are. Ending!! And yeah, I supposed to finish writing this post like an hour ago but ya know, i'm full of randomness. hahahaha :) I suddenly thought of adding new cast for Levedad Little Adventure story and changing Terri's part ( as he already took part in Saving Chrystella Mclaren ), So, I change his part with Addy or Adrian. Well, I don't know what happens later, as I haven't thought of it yet. But I really hope that I won't change Addy's traits in here. hahaha :) ya know, I'm too creative. hahahahahaha XD Just hope for the best :) and Hopefully I can make a very good friendship among them. hahahahahahaha :)

SO, ENJOY! :) ( the picture, I mean )

and next time, I'll put Saving Chrystella McLaren's Cast :) Still choosing the cast. hahahaha :P

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

*My broadband didn't work properly (=____=;) Daddy, COME HOME FAST!*

Me Out Of Ideas =________='

<---- Jaba, I edit this one :) This one is totally my personal likes hahaha :)
Well, I just finish editing her pictures, which I took from her Facebook page. huahahaha :) Imma stalker ma.
And I edited like, 4 or 5 pictures of her. I know she'll be reading my blog later, in this very post, I will only use her pictures that I edited. ekekeke :D You Mad, Bro? hahahaha :)) Besides, I realized that every post I posted here, always got her name in between all the sentences. hahahhaa :D

Anyway, greetings. Reason I'm writing in the middle of evening or whatever the time is  hahahaha :D I got no ideas to continue chapter 10 or 3. hahahaha :) Chapter 3, I think I got the idea, complete one but umm... I still thinking of the good words and sentences to describe the character's movement. Yalah, they surely need to move right, it would be awkward if the just stood like a statue when interacting with each other. hahahaha :) It's does awkward and no one will ever wanted to read my story if I did that. ekekeke :) So, I was thinking to write my blog instead of sitting here without things to do, later my mom would scolded me and call me freak, or weirdo later. Oh well, not that I'm denying the fact that I'm weirdo. hahahahahahahahaha :)

<---- my second favorite :) Yeah, she's cute, right? I know! I'm cute too... hahahahahahaha :) But she has low self-esteem, saying that she's not cute la, not pretty lah. But of course I know, she's a beautiful person inside and outside :) Like me. hahahahahahahahaha XD

So, just now I read her blog and I saw one section on that very post was for me. hahahahahaha :D I was like "O.o" hahahaha :D and then when I finish reading it, I was like "^_______________________^ " hahahahaha :) feeling WOWSOME. hahahaha :) Well, that post was about, she's telling me that she kind of like my stories and I got improvement in my grammar setting. ehehei. and then, she likes my story line but then she hopes that I'll post faster lah the chapters... because she's tired of waiting like 1 or 2 weeks per chapter. hahaha :) Well, speaking of that, I want to do the same too but yeah, whenever I want to concentrate kan, there will be lots of obstacle like mum needs help lah, my good neighbor need helps or ask me to hang out ka, or if it weekend, my son will be here and disturb me since the moment I woke up until night came lah. haish. and then, blink-blink, saturday came and Jaba wants to read it and guess what? Not finish T^T.. I broke her heart. Oh God, why? hahahaha :D Yeah, and if not humans gave me all the obstacles, there would be my social network, my scumbag brains, my window media player lah, and newest obstacles for me is Spider Solitaire. Yes, I'm addicted to that classic games. hahahahahaha :) Aduii T___T But, I do try my very best to finish it up. Well, its does seem like I'm making an excuses about it but.... Well, maybe I am. hahahahahahahahaahahahaha :D where's there a will, there's a way. But still, we have tomorrow. then, tomorrow it is. hahahahahaha :) Just kidding :) I will do it later :)

So, right now I'm busy tumblring. hahahaha :) Yeah, I got something else to tell actually but I forgot =___=; never mind. Not so important I think. ehehehei :) And I just finish tumblring. hahahaha :) Listening to Used and Abused by Danger Radio. ehehei :) I told you, I'm addicted of their songs. Anyhow, I'm gonna start writing chap 10 around 5 o'clock. And oh ya! Before I forgot, I'm pretty much into Forever The Sickest Kid too. hahahaha :) Well, I do like them before but Kpop stopped me and now, TAADAA, I'm back listening to them. hehehei :) and I just knew that FTSK got connection with Danger Radio. OHO! my two favorite band is connected with each otherrrrrr ~~ hahahahahahaha :)) for FTSK, I like their song entitled "Coffee Break" and "Do or Die" uh-huh, pretty awesome. Should go and listen to it if you want to know how awesome it is :))) And after writing all this, I conclude that my real music passion is Rock and Roll, bebeyh! and of course now Emo-Punk is included. hahahahaha :) Complete package. hahahahahahaha :) And No, i'm not emo. hahahaha :) Just extremely emotional :) Anyhow, I'm kinda confessing that I also love to listen to Marilyn Manson. Despite his too-much-make-up-on-his-face-make-him-look-scary and the controversial about he worshiping the devil wasn't really affect me because I like his song, and music not him. hahahaha :) and I kind of adoring his fashion sense. GOTHICNESS everywhere! XDDD

So, yeah... hate to say good bye but I'm out of topic right now. hahahaha :) It's mean, we're getting closer with the closing line. hahahahaha :) And it's half past 5 and I haven't continue chapter 10 yet. Oh God! WAEE ?! hahahaha :) Hopefully lah I can finish it up before going MSN chat with Jaba later >.< Tonight, I'm gonna rebel again. Going to sleep late today. huahahahaha :) Besides, tomorrow is Weekend yaw ( seriously, everyday is my weekend ) hahahahaha :))) Anyhow, I'm gonna pushed hard my brain worker after this for I want to post chapter 10 as I can't wait to write chapter 3. hahahahahahaha :) I don't have idea with that one as well =___=; I'll be damned T____T. Doing two story at one time, is not so new for me because once, before this, I make 4 story one time. ekekekeke and in the end, none of it is finished. ekekekekeke :) Aduii... I'm so fucked up. hahahaha :) but now, I won't watch anymore interesting action and adventure movie or TV shows because these kind of movies always inspired me and tempting me to write a new story. I can't afford it anymore. I must finish this two story first before I wrote new one *finger cross* hahahahaha :)) Wish me real good luck, y'all :)



So, here we are againClosing. I'll update again. hahahahaha :D I know,It's almost 7 now. I told you, I get distracted pretty easilyhahahahahahha :DSo very sorryMaybe I can't post chapter 10 today T______Tbut tomorrow morning I willBUT I don't want to promise though..Very sorry, Jaba! >____<

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

The Day When Nothing Else Matter.

<---- Vampire look. hahahaha :)
Yeah, I just edited this one just now and decided to make it look a bit of vampireness. hahaha :)
it's my old picture actually and I think I've post this picture few months back. If I'm not mistaken lah. hahaha :D
It's been a while I didn't self camera. Uh, I feel ugly. hahaha :))

Anyhow, Greetings to you, you and you!
We meet again. hehehe :)
Well, today I got no extraordinary story as my life is plain simple. Which the reason I love it so much! My life is beautifully gorgeous. hahahaha :)
Want it, you can have it if you want :)
I'm very contented to share it though. Ehehei :)
Anyhow, for starter I just want to say that I spend most of my day today playing Spider Solitaire, Solitaire, Free Cell and yesterday Minesweeper. hahaha :) and after that on 9gag.com, and not forget Window Media Player and Microsoft words. hehehei :) All these accompany me from the minute I rise from my beauty sleep until I fall back into dreamland at night. hehei :) My best friend, to be exact. Well, today as well I finished chapter 9 of SCM and LLA chapter 3 also supposed to be posted today but my lappy go crazy and shut down on it owns before I manage to save LLA. Yeah, right now I'm still constructing my writer's mood back. I don't think I will write after this. Maybe later morning lah. I'm sulking. hahahaha :) I almost finished it and SNAP! everything gone. I was like "Oh God, Why?" hahahaha :D

As usual, I chat with Jaba ( which is pretty much my routine lately ) and as usual, I started the conversation. hehei. But I really wish she started it sometimes. And one time, I purposely not make the first move, hoping her to start it first. But in the end, I'm the one who do it. hahaha :) Oh well, I'm pretty much annoying anyway, so I don't care that much though. But honestly, before this I do care a lot but now, I'm just like "Neah...." hahaha :) No harm is included. So, yeah :) And today, our topic is random. As usual. hahaha :)) We're full of randomness, what can I say? It's kind of our natural talents. hehehei :) and I'm the master of it. ekekeke XD anyway, we're talking about character pairing up. She confessed to me that she shipped Shia X Milo. I was like "Whaaa.... what about Fina X Milo?" and then she was like "hahahahahaha," and I was like "T___T" hahaha :)) But oh well, this is free country though. hahaha :) we free to shipped those character according to our own desire. hahaha :D I teased her like telling her that I'm gonna make a special broken heart poems about Milo. hahahahaha :) But nah, I'm tooo freaking lazy to write one. Besides, I kind of agree with Shia X Milo though because Shia is so freaking cute and Milo is also cute and he always treat Shia very good. and besides, Shia's classmate thought that Milo is Shia's boyfriend. hahahahahaha :) I love that part, kinda make me smiled like crazy. ohohohohoho XD but I kinda pitied Sammy though. ekeke :) Don't worry, Sammy, I'm single and pretty much available hahahahahahahaha XDD JK JK, Sammy is too quiet, Nah... hahaha :) But pairing Shia with Milo won't change my mind cuz I'm still gonna become FinaMiloshippers :)))

Oh, I almost forgot! Today also my best friend, Prudence called me. hahaha :) Yeah, at first we were chatting on Facebook but then her aunt wanted to use skype, so she phoned me. We talk like for I think more than 10, 12 minutes like that. hahaha :D She told me about her crush. Well, it's top secret though. hahaha :) I can't write here, who knows one day, she'll found my blog and read it. Uh, I'm screwed. for I already promised her not to tell anyone. Then after we finished with our excitement about her crush, she kinda confessed to me that I'm the only person who knows about her crush and the only person who knows a lot about her. ( Pshh, 12 years yo ) hahaha :) No kidding, she also told me that I'm the only person who stay friend with her since forever. hahahaha :) Well, I'm a dog, I'm loyal. What can I say? Just that, once I felt betrayed, then no chance buddy :) Sorry. hahahaha :) Well, after hearing those words came out from her own mouth, I felt proud though :) I never thought I'm a good friend and a sister too :) hehehei :) I always thought I'm a very bad friend you know. But now I know, hahaha :) And besides, Prudence is much like my own sister to me though and besides, she has no sister kan ( as she's the eldest ) So, why not? I volunteerily becoming her foster sister. hahahaha :) Oh well, I can't say that she's annoyed me sometimes, but what the hell? For friendship sake's, I keep my optimistic on :) Imma Miss Optimist anyway. muahahahaha XDD

And if you realize, my blog song is all by Danger Radio. Yep, I thought I'm over those guys but No, I'm full-heartedly saying that I'm obsessed with their songs and Andrew voice really melts me. huahahaha :) But no, I don't have bias on anyone of them though including Andrew himself because what I like about this band is the voice, the music and the lyrics. Oh God, compilations of perfections. hahahaha :D and my most favorite song from this band is "Slow Dance With A Stranger", "Your Kind (Speak to me)", "Things", "Kiss N Tell", and "Alive For The First Time", and newestly I love "Alibis" which I just found in Youtube. You can listen to it in my blog playlist though :) and oh, besides Danger Radio, I love to listen to The Scene Aesthetic and obviously, my favorite song is "Humans" hehehehei :) First time I listened to this song, I cried so hard because I could feel that they were singing to me, their voices touching my hearts and instantly cured it. It was the most beautiful songs that I ever heard in my entire life. Maybe not the most, but it is one of the most :) Respecting Andrew de Torres! Thank you, God for such talents. I now have hopes in music industries :) I really hope that Danger Radio or The Scene Aesthetic would make comeback album soon :) I want more!! I really do thanking my one and only sis Jaba for introducing me to this two awesome band. If not because of her, I would never know the existence of awesome band like them. hahahaha :)) Oh YEAH! Love her much for this! XDDDD

<---- Moon's edits. hahaha :) yeah, she's the one who dragged me back into pic-editing mood. hahahaha :) Oh well, editing pictures is fun anyway. Just that it is awkward when editing own pictures while got someone else in the same room. hahahaha :) That's why I always doing the editing before going to dreamland. hahahaha :) No ones bother to watch anyway. ekekekeke :) So, we're getting closer to the closing here. I'm gonna sleep earlier today for yesterday I slept too late. hahaha :) Usually, I already sleep by this hour and yesterday my rebellious side of me, conquering my eyes. hahaahaha XD so, today, the good side of me beating my rebellious side. So, no sleep late today :) Besides, I got to wake up early tomorrow, though because if I don't my mum will got pissed and it's really scare the hell out of me. When she mad, nuclear bom also aren't as scary as her. hehehei. Mums, we all scared of them. ekekeke :) Oh well, I better stop writing now. My eyes is getting heavier. Hopefully they aren't doing it just to troll me over. hahahahahaha :)) So, good night and sweet dream. May God Bless You All and keep holding on when you're feeling down, remember God and keep faith :)
Pray before sleep and never ever forget to live this life to the max :)

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

and oh, last time, when I search for Niall Horan's picture, I saw this :

He just can't leave me alone, can't he? Oh well, he just love me too much. I think. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D

Cancer

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink 
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded 
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors, 
My sisters and my brothers, still, 
I will not kiss you, 
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you. 

Now turn away, 
'Cause I'm awful just to see 
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body, 
Oh, my agony, 
Know that I will never marry, 
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you 

Humans

Deep, deep inside of your heart
There is a weight that still needs to be lifted
Cover it up, but the pain never stops
Sometimes I wish that you'd just listen

Deep, deep inside of yourself
There is a soul starving for some affection
Been waiting for years and the time passes by
All you ever wanted was to fit in

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know

Constantly waiting for life
Starving for love to surround it

If you only looked right by your side
You'd find that it never had left you

You've lived through so much and seen so many things
Through your eyes and I wish you could just see
If it were up to me I would construct a key to your heart
And finally set you free

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
'Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know

You can call me
You've got no reason to hide

You're so lovely
Built with a beautiful mind

Wait for your time, it will come (you can call me)
And you will realize just how special you are (you've got no reason to hide)

There's not enough hate in the world (you're so lovely)
To bring you down (built with a beautiful mind)

Built with a beautiful mind (built with a beautiful mind)

So I wrote you this song
I hope that you like it
'Cause you light up my life
And I know you can fight this
You're the most beautiful girl in the world
And I wanted you to know 

Ridiculous, but Worth it (^___________________^)

<--- Love my eye :) hahahahaha. It's pretty, I know! hahahahahaha :D Undeniable gorgeous. huahaha :D
alright, enough self-praising. hahaha :)
Anyhow,
Greetings and yeah, I'm writing again. hahahahaha :) today, I got my internet connection back! WOOOO!!! I'm partying all night, hahahaha XD yesh! that's what I'm going to do tonight, partying all by myself, celebrating Internet Connection Comeback. hahahaha :D Oh damn, you never knew how bad is my life without internet. Everything sucks! well, except for Sherlock Holmes book. hahaha :D about the book, I stopped reading it for a while, maybe I'll read it up again after mum bought me the electronic dictionary, which is maybe take up 2 or 3 month ( waiting for my dad to come back from the sea) hahahaha :) Yeah, my dad is a mermaid. huahahaha XD he work at the sea. hahahaha :) Uh, to much haha-ing. hmmm... so, I got a lot to tell but not going to tell all lah. hahaha :D I want to keep some of it, which I think is too personal, for myself. hahaha :) Aww, don't cry... hahahaha :D Don't waste your precious tears, darling. hahahaha :)) So, let's get straight to business :)

Today, nothing much happen though. Just some random stuff. You know, stuff I hate and stuff I like. hehehe :) but everything kind of making me sick. Especially my brother and you know why. Seriously, I tried to hate him you know, but I just can't. But no, I don't love him or care about him anymore. In fact, most of the time, I wish for his life to be cut off soon for I'm tired of seeing him yelling at mum and make her look like some idiotic person. Urgh, feel like want to throw him into Sungai Miri already. hahahaha :P Honestly, I pitied him, actually. Because he doesn't know and doesn't even realize mum and dad loves him too much. He should be grateful for having such good and caring and patience parent right ours. Hmmm... seriously, I pity that guy like a lot. Wonder why he had that closed minded? and very low IQ. oh God, I don't know how to describe him. He is... like... the worst of the worstest guy I ever met in my whole life. I don't know if there got others just like him, cuz I don't care much about this walking dead breed. I don't know lah but sometimes, he scared the hell out of me even though he never mad at me. Sometimes, I just want to scream in front of him, telling him to GET A LIFE. he has no life, maybe he think he has one, but no. He has no life. He's dead. Call me bitch or rude, I don't care. He's not my brother and I don't need to respect him. My brother has loooonnggg gone. My brother is a good person, and that guy is not him. He's just some fucking stranger that happen to be called as brother. but no, I tell you. My brother isn't there anymore, he lose by the fucking stranger. Hmm..... stop cursing, Pgie. Get hold on yourself!
Ngeee :) and P.S I'm much stronger person now. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

And today I chat with sis Jaba. YEP :) We're back with our usual routine. Weeee ^___^ Gosh, how I missed to talk to her in virtual world! hahahaha :) Well, yeah.. we do seeing each other every weekend but that's doesn't count lah. this one is different. hahahaha :)) When we chat in MSN, I feel like, you know, we're getting closer with each other ( even though we are closed ) hahaha :) Yeah, I feel like umm... talking face to face with her and yeah, seriously when I read what she type kan, I sometimes can listen to her voice as if she was talking to me and I also know how her tone is. hahahaha :) creepy ehh? I know.. But that's make it a lot realistic. hahaha :)) but maybe it because I got this huge tank of imagination and that's make me can hear her voice. hahaha :) Speaking of imagination, yesterday I watched bridge of Terabithia with my mum and I cried a lot hahahaha :D feel like watching it for the first time :) I think, I've watching the movie like 10 times or more. hahaha :) I just love the movie. and when I watched the movie kan, I learned few things about life and friendships. Leslie and Jess taught me to cherish my friendship and no need to care about what others think about how weird that friendship would look like, as long as we're happy, then just go on with it. And then, they both also taught me that gender doesn't matter in friendships. well, I know this since forever of course, but I just want to make reminder for myself though. hahaha :) And there are few quote from the movie which I really like which is;
Jesse Aaron "That's what Leslie Burke says. She told me to keep my mind wide open"
Ms. Edmond " Leslie Burke is right. Mind like yours wide open, you could create a whole new world."
Leslie Burke "My dad says the TV kills brain cells. " ( I kinda agree with this one )
                   " You are who you are - not your parents"
Jack Aaron "She brought you something special when she came here, didn't she? That's what you hold onto. That's how you keep her alive. "
Mrs. Myers "Be forewarned. If you download any essay off of the internet, you will be downloaded into detention."
and my favorite one is by Leslie Burke  "Just close your eyes, but keep your mind wide open." 
Right now, even just reading the quotations, my eyes is teary. hahahaha :D oh god~why~~~ hahahaha :) Leslie taught not only Jess, but me as well. She told me that when your mind is wide open, you can have anything you wish for, imagine things that seem impossible and brought it to lives. With mind wide open, we also can make our own world and no one else but us can control or destroy it. huh, this movie is the best Disney movie that I ever watch in my entire life. Now, movies all bored, everything about loves, fame and what-so-ever. I kind of missing the part of the movie where it shows how important Art in our life and how arts bring all the cartoon characters to life. hmm.... Tim Burton is my only hope now. Hopefully, he'll continue producing Art's movies :) So do to the director of Pirates of the Caribbean, harry potter too :)

These guys are my favorite since forever. hahahaha :) from chapter prelude, hell they caught my heart. hahahaahahha :) Milo always be my number one in my heart though, but if according to my personal interest, I think I like Quinn better and then Terri, and then Sammy, and last Hendrik and Milo :) hahahahahaha :D yeah, if you could read my Saving Chrystella McLaren, I pick my top 3 Seamus guy to join the Levedad on their adventurous journey :) hehehei :) Well, of course Hendrik and Milo will take part in the story too but not from where the real adventure begins. Hehehei :) And I try real hard to connect the Seamus boys character with their original characteristic in GH, Jaba's story. I just hoping that I won't wrote them until they came out to be different people. hahahaha :) I can't afford that when it happens later. ehehei :D and speaking of story, I post the Levedad's newest story today (haven't publish it yet la ) hahahaha :D And I've told Jaba to read it up but still I don't know what she thinks of it because she said, she's gonna review this saturday, 2 more days yaw! ahahahaha :D Uh, I can't wait! Please time come fast!! XDD And so, the latest story is also about the Levedad, the Seamus Boys and this time they will have adventure around America Country. The levedad, not all of them will taking part though. In this one, I want to focus more only on Jaba and Pgie and for my future story, Moon and Kevin will be the main character :) So, the title for my newest story is 

"LEVEDAD LITTLE ADVENTURE"

which tells about the two girls on a mission taking Moon's back to Laurencia safely before Erik Minions know about her wandering around America, without her guardian Kev. 

So, here is my cast in the story. ehehei :)

Notice Terri? Yeah, I put him again because I often described him as a good friend of Pgie, like in SCM, I make him as Myth Geeks like Pgie and they both pretty much open with each other though. Ekk... I know! I should have ask permission from the character owner first. ( jaba la, who else ) But I think it's too late now. hahaha :D Nah, hopefully she read this post later morning. hahahahaha :D so that, I don't have to ask her, and explained everything then, get killed. huahahaha XDDD

And yeah, Introducing my own character ( support character only la hahaha )

Asa Butterfield as Alias

Demi Lovato as Demetia

and

Kevin Mchale as Neal

Who are they? Well, just wait for the story to finish. hahahahahaahahaha :DDD

PS ; Do read Ghost Hunter Fics to know where I got all this character, alright?

Actually I got Chapter 9 and 10 to catch up with :)I've been working on my ass out on Lev Lil Ad for the whole week and almost dropped dead the SCmclaren. hahahaha :DBut no, I didn't forget about itAT ALLwhenever I open LLA, I'll open SCM as well.Yalah, who knows kanwhen I don't have Ideas on LLA, I can continue on SCMI'm multifunction anyway?hahahahahaha XDjust that I don't functioning very well latelyekekeke :DJust got stuff bothering my head,Nah, this one, I'm not gonna write it up laLike I saidIt's more personal that you thought.hahahahaha :))
So, I'm gonna end this post as usual, with prayers for protection.

Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray;
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host -
by the Divine Power of God -
cast into hell, satan and all the evil spirits,
who roam throughout the world seeking the ruin of souls.

Amen. 
Let Saint Michael guard us where ever we areand deliver us from all evilPray that He will take a good care of us, mind and soulsso that we can keep on sing Praise to our only Father.and keep our faith stronger Amen.
P.S : Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)

Life without WIFI (T___T)

Ola, Amigos. It's been a while I'm disappeared from here. hehehei :)

Well, yeah I got problems with my Wi Fi 

So, I can't connect to the net

Urgh

7 days feeling like 7 million years to me

fortunately, my good neighbor's Wi Fi is in good condition

until yesterday

So, today

Thank God

Mum let me drove to Phoebe's house to give her doggy eat

and as miss opportunist, 

I use this chance to update my precious blog.

So, greatest thanks and love to Phoebe and mum :)

And yeah,

as you can see,

I'm no longer into Dean Winchester

For I am now more into Castiel

"The Angel of The Lord"

Gosh!

Misha Collins,

I love his eyes and his epic poker face

when he's tilting his head, squinting his pair of aqua

Damn!

ahahahaha :)

that seriously turning me on.

huahahaha XD

But too bad, he already married :)

Never mind. He's too old for me anyway (^___^)

Just that, I can't resist his cuteness. Huahaha

Have a happy marriage, Misha Collins :)

Enough about Misha Collins. hehehei :) Yeah, that's the picture of my two favorite fictional character :) Dean and Castiel :D and in Supernatural, I kind of like their relationship. I mean, their bro-mance things. hahaha :) I like it when Dean teasing Castiel and Castiel just squinting his eyes wondering what's Dean jokes mean. Castiel is too naive to be with Dean. hahaha :) But so far, my likes on Dean Winchester decreasing especially on Season 4,5 and 6 as he doesn't want to accept his destiny to be Michael's vessel and he thinks that he could save the world without faith and believe in God. I was like, "What the Fish?!" hahahaha :D If I'm the vessel, I may say yes at the moment all the angels ask me to. hahaha :) I may be scared but if it for saving the world from evil, I bet I can sacrifice my meat for Heavenly being :)

In other words, I'm not really like how Dean's acted. He said, he doesn't want Adam to take his destiny but in the end, he looks like he was relief that Adam's took his place as Michael Vessel. Hmm... I don't know, that's not my job to judge anyway because Supernatural is definitely a very magnificent work of art! Spectacular~ and the story line, is AWESOME :)

 Last few weeks, if I'm not mistaken, on the day when my relationship with Wi Fi still in a very good shape, hahaha :D I was roleplaying as Aaron Lexon ( One of the character in Ghost Hunter Fics ) and Jaba was roleplaying as his little brother, Adrian Lexon. hahaha :) It kind of fun though. hahaha :) And three people follow my tumblr blog when I'm roleplaying as him last time. ekekeke :) but then, I suddenly felt boring roleplaying. So, then I change back to shiningstar94 but then some anonymous ask me where the hell is Aaron Lexon go. hahahaha :) So, I tell them that he'll be back shortly as he went for hunting things. hahaha :)) He's a slayer I think. I thinkla. huahaha :)) Anyhow, maybe I'll be Aaron again soon enough maybe everyone like it better when I become someone that I'm not :)

Ba dum tss! hahaha :)

 

And speaking of story,I've made it until chapter 9 but still I don't know how to end it up. hahaha :) chapter 9 is almost there but I don't know how to describe it. huahaha :) besides, I'm not always at home for this few days, as I'm more spending time at my good neighbor house and when I do, I will definitely distracted by stuff at home. huahaha :) but yeah, I'm working it out. I know, I'm so full of excuses but not going to deny it for I am miss excuses. hahahaha :)))

And I was making two story at the same time. hahaha :) Yeah and one of it is somewhat a fan-fiction for Supernatural though, hehehei and speaking of fan-fiction, actually I just realize this one fact. uh-huh, a fact that I'm actually a fan-fic writers since forever. hahaha :) Well, accept for my love stories of course. I was convincing myself lately that I'm making movie for GH but for outsiders, I'm actually making fan-fiction for it. hahaha :) You see, different story line, using the same character. huahahahaha :D I realized this when I'm reading supernatural fan-fiction the other day and i was like, "Oho!" hahahahha :) and for the supernatural + Levedad, I'm admiting it was a fan-fiction as well. ekekeke :) Oh well, maybe I am born to be a fan-fic writers. *sighed* hahahaha :) 

I really wish I can make out my own story with my own character one day. But of course, my permanent character; Pgie, Jaba, Moon/Phoebe and Kevin will stayed. hahahaha :))

Urgh! Damn, I really wish I have at least one, my own story. *finger cross* One Day ! XD

And as for this few days, I've been reading Sherlock Holmes story collection and I'm really saluting Sir Arthur Conan Doyle for he has given me lots of new vocabulary and teach me how to write even better :) And yeah, I wanted to read it until the last page of the book and buy another volume of it. Oh my God, who knew, maybe I could be a detective like Sherlock Holmes one day, solving cases and got paid billion dollar. Oh my, that's heaven on earth, baby! hahahaha :) 

Anyhow, sir Arthur is the best writer I ever saw. God! Thank you for giving me chances to know this one talented writer of all :)

SALUTE FOR MR. ARTHUR!

So, here we are.. the end of this post. I don't know when we can meet again here. Just hoping for my mum would let me have broadband in the future for I can't live without internet connection. hahahaha :)

Anyhow, I hate to say good bye but mum already calling us to go home. hahahaha and the weather is not so good right now. It's gonna pour out rain! XD

Another day to drive under the rain. ahahahaha :))) YAY!

Pray for me, everyone :)

So, to end this very post, I shall put pray for protection so that God and His Angels come to protect our souls from evil temptation.

O Lord, support us all the day long of this troublous life until the shadows lengthen and the evening comes, and the busy world is hushed, and the fever of life is over, and our work is done. Then, in Your mercy, grant us a safe lodging and a holy rest, and peace at the last. Amen.

 

"God indeed is my savior;

I am confident and unafraid.
My strength and my courage is the Lord,
and He has been my Savior"
Isaiah 12:2 NASB

P.S Let Your Smile Cover Up Your Tears :)